nobody's listening / not even her

zayn. twenty-eight. don't ask ppl for things they'll only take back [ part of the family // rp only ]

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@sophieturner @zayn DM: suppose so. but yean.. thank you. i didn't know you struggled with mental health, not that i would know.. its private haha. but i also went through that as well actually, its tough adding that in relationships and when your partner doesn't get it. the fact she left you in the middle of that.. wow. family has always been so important.. it's different when you have a little one. i'm sorry to hear about that. i wish it could be different for you guys.

@zayn @sophieturner DM: rlly? i.. i guess only the ppl going thru it are gonna rlly kno what it's like. that it isn't something you can just flick on and off like some light switch or just power thru it. it's fucking strangling. like ur drowning. and u leave 'cause u rlly fucking believe if you don't ur going to bring u, them, everyone fucking down with u. u leave to save them. and they leave to save themselves. fuck.. sorry didn't mean to get so fuckin' deep wit u tonight. i guess i'm sorry too. for u. for us. for them. 'cause if they want an easy way out.. they got it.. doesn't mean it's going to be a life worth having. nothing good comes easy. and well.. gigi moved on from him pretty fuckin' fast the first time around.. don't be surprised if he comes back beggin' soon. i'd say throw him to the curb when he does. u don't deserve that shit.

[yilinglaozu]

Zayn — Still Got Time (2017)

[zaynnnm]

@sophieturner @zayn DM: basically was working on this film project when i woke up to news of them snapped by paps. few days before that we planned to work on our marriage. yeah, it was pretty much the most fucked up thing i've gone through lmao. were you guys not together?

@zayn @sophieturner DM: sounds like u got rid of a complete tosser. though still.. not the most ideal way to find out. sorry for that. together? i'd say so.. we have this habit of kind of breaking up.. but u know it ain't really a break up. i needed to work on my mental health.. for our daughter.. but i guess, at least this time around.. she decided i wasn't worth the wait anymore. not even to make our family work.

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@sophieturner @zayn DM: laughter is getting me through it, trust me. consider yourself lucky you weren't married when it happened. almost makes me envy you.

@zayn @sophieturner DM: oh say wait what.. u two were like still together and shit when this other shit got goin'?! fuckkkk.

[zaynnnm]

@sophieturner @zayn DM: i'm probably not the best person to ask. but.. sure seems like it. and it's sickening. lol

@zayn @sophieturner DM: fuck ur the first person over the age of one to make me laugh in weeks. it is very sickening.

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@sophieturner @zayn DM: people sure are bloody good at that. feels like as of late things went from 0 to 100. fuck it though.. it'll blow over.

@zayn @sophieturner DM: what do u think? is it serious?

[zaynnnm]

@sophieturner: RT quote: spill the 🫖

@zayn @sophieturner DM: just people making assumptions about my life... nuffin new.

[zaynnnm]

zayn: stop acting like u know me personally. u dont. no one knows my trials. except me.

[zaynnnm]

zayn: nothing but pain

[zaynnnm]

text ✘ babe

gigi: please stop, zayn. i just can't.. i can't have you texting me these things. i'm not yours anymore. i don't want to hurt you, but i just don't have those feelings anymore. you've hurt me too much and now i feel happy and appreciated by joe. so just.. let's just be khai's parents.

zayn: [ typing ]

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it's waiting for you.. whenever you're ready.

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text ✘ babe

gigi: z... let's not get things confused. please. it's not fair to either one of us.

zayn: we always fall back into each other.. always.. why can't we do it again. my arms miss your warmth. my lips miss your neck. my heart misses you.

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text ✘ babe

gigi: perhaps it came off wrong. i've actually let it all go, z. i get you're trying and i see it. there's no point in hashing out the past anymore. we all deserve to be happy. especially you, you're a great dad. and you're right, you weren't okay and that's perfectly fine.. we have to look out for one another as khai's parents and make sure she grows up knowing we still respect and love one another.

zayn: if you feel that way.. then why are you there and not here? i miss you so much, Gigi.

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text ✘ babe

gigi: i get it.. it's hard to do it all. just enjoy the moments you have alone together, it's precious time you won't get back. she's incredible.. she is such a smart girl too. i love her mind. so, so lucky. that sounds like fun, i'm happy you all are enjoying each other. i miss that sweet giggle terribly.

zayn: okay.. i'm just trying to be real with you.. you don't have to keep reminding me of my faults, Gigi. i'm here.. i'm showing up. i've apologised for the last few months.. i don't think i deserved that dig. 'sides it wasn't like it was just a choice.. i was sick.. i shouldn't be buried by it.

[zaynnnm]

zayn: it's so hard to love so much

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text ✘ babe

zayn: how's your trip going? we miss you.

gigi: it's really good! still can't believe i won't be seeing khai until tuesday 🥺 miss you all too. how's the mother and sister doing? i see all the garden pics and miss the farm so much.

zayn: i'm trying to keep my phone on her as much as possible, but she's amazing.. Gigi. i swear every day she's doing something new, something amazing. we are so lucky. everyone says hi. i helped your mom with a few things around the house yard today. joey and i were out on the ride on mowers.. had khai sitting on my lap at one point.. the vibrations had her giggling.

[youfuckingloosah]

k but imagine having them as your parents 🥺

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text ✘ babe

zayn: how's your trip going? we miss you.