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I really miss cutting

watching yourself deteriorate while trying to stop it is a whole new type of pain

I’m so proud of you for being sh free for so long!! If you want to talk I’m here, although I’m not the greatest at talking through texts, I do want to help however I can!

Thank you so much for reach out, it really meant the world to me 🤍 I love you 🤍

Idk if anyone is still on here, but things are getting kinda bad again, probably the seasonal depression creeping.

I’ve been sh free for about a year and a half but I won’t lie, it’s been so rough. Addictive brain means triggers out of no where and it’s exhausting; it’s so emotionally draining to just suffer bc your brain works in magical ways. It has been on my mind so much lately to the point that I’m just terrified..

I wish I could talk to someone close. But the people who used to care have moved on with their lives and tbh most of them moved on from me as well. I have a very lovely boyfriend that I love so so much but I don’t want to disappoint him bc he thinks I’m doing super well in terms of sh. We’re both dealing with trauma and depression and stress so I don’t want to be another burden on him to worry about.

I would love for someone to reach out, even if we don’t know each other or never had a conversation before, if anyone even sees this.

I love you guys ❤️

#sh #s3lf h@rm #depression #sad #s3lfharm

I fucked up pretty badly. I’m going to disappoint so many people soon. Just rather disappear all together and never come back.

valentina-poem

sorryforlettingyoudown

Help me..

#suicidal #dying #depressed #depression #alone #anxiety #black and white

Hi, sorry to bother you I just really need to vent to someone. I’m such a mess, I’m always on the floor in a fetal position on the verge of tears. My mind is a constant drum of kill yourself and I can’t make myself reach out for help. I’m scared, I’m so scared. My god I’m pathetic.

You never bother me babe

I get you, life is so scary lately

Try calling 911 if you feel like you can’t handle it anymore by yourself. Ask a friend to dial for you

When my brain goes into suicidal mode, I listen to some music to help calm those awful voices down. Taking a shower and crying your heart out helps a ton too.

Stay strong my love, you got this❤️