depressed baldie

here to cry, vent, and hate men

[obsessedtillidie]

A bullet in my head would be less traumatic than me waking up everyday

[soulless-spiritttt]

my brain is killing me. i just want to sleep eternally.

[soulless-spiritttt]

i want to stop taking my meds just so the suicidal ideations can come back and turn into action. i’m so tired of being everyone’s punching bag. i am human. i make mistakes and i take accountability. i correct all and yet my past actions is always within the present. i want to sleep forever. i am over this. people are so horrible.

[elzuuur]

I need a bullet in my head right now

[soulless-spiritttt]

why try to ruin the person who chose you every time?

[soulless-spiritttt]

i’m just trying to survive this god forsaken world

[soulless-spiritttt]

anxiety stop!!!!

[soulless-spiritttt]

bitches be bonkers

[soulless-spiritttt]

i know the day i cease to exist on this earth will be the day he feels the most joy.

[soulless-spiritttt]

drink your feelings and pretend to be a butterfly

[soulless-spiritttt]

i need someone to talk to. i have no one. i miss having someone. i can’t stand this anymore. the walls are closing in. i don’t want to die at the moment but i also don’t want to be alive right now. but i also don’t want to be alone. i need someone. anyone at this point. i don’t feel as though i have people i can reach out to. so many people are messy. some want to use me. some don’t even care. this is just too much. it’s humiliating at this point. i’m so so tired. what the hell is life?

[soulless-spiritttt]

something has happened and i just want to be held but i don’t have anyone to hold me. the person i want. the person i need. they are not available. i hate this. goodnight.

[soulless-spiritttt]

life is bullshit

[soulless-spiritttt]

gosh i hate overthinking. this is the worst thing ever. my brain is going in circles. every negative thought is in my brain and it all feels too realistic. i’ve pushed him. i’ve pushed and pushed. i should’ve shut up. i should’ve sat back. i should’ve tried to be fake and endure but how can i fake like i don’t care? someone please help me to end this.

[soulless-spiritttt]

this hurts.

[soulless-spiritttt]

disappointed. not surprised. everyone’s not who they say they are. i can’t trust anyone’s intentions. too many will lie to your face with a grin. or they’ll tell you the truth and not see an issue with their actions. i’m so over humans.

[soulless-spiritttt]

i need to be saved. i am drowning. i don’t see anything but darkness every where i look. there isn’t a single shimmer. i am so disappointed in myself. i can’t even feel anymore. i want to run and hide. but i also want to die. not because i want to but because i need to. it’ll be better for the world. it’ll be better for anyone who’s ever met me.