No matter how many times I tried, over and over again,
no matter how it hurts even in this moment,
no matter how much I still care about you in my heart,
I think I feel tired and reached my limit.
Iāve been waiting so many days, weeks and months to choose me all over again and do the things that we used to do.
Iāve been waiting that you make me a priority.
You said always to me that I will never leave your heart and mind, even if weāre apart.
And that youāll love me no matter what, in and out our flaws.
That you care about me and canāt live without me.
I can continue, but it wonāt change anything.
It was all a lie. It always was and always will.
And at this moment I realized that everything to you was nothing at all.
All that we had was just a reflection of yourself, your selfishness and own joy and happiness.
But what am I doing to myself?
Why do I still holding on and clinging myself to the memories we had?
Because I know itās already broken and we will never fixing each other.
And now I feel that I am stronger than you are, and I will continue to grow further, and moving forward with my own life.
Youāre only chaos for my heart and soul, and I will find my peace in someone elseās soul!
You will never feel that unconditional love with someone else again.
I will be on your mind forever, even if you donāt want to.
You will be haunted by the ghost of me and all the things you never see in someone else, even if she loves youā¦!
Because the insecurities, pain, sadness and all of these energies doesnāt supposed to feel this way, that isnāt love!
We are broken hearts, broken souls, so I choose myself over and over again.
Cause if you really loved me, you chose me, youāre with me or not.
I deserve more, Iām worthy of more love the right way.
My own path, my own happiness!
Without you forever, I let you go itās for the bestā¦ā¦..
