[soultore]

independent,   low activity,  &  mutually exclusive multimuse featuring canon characters from varying sources of media.    most characters are written heavily headcanoned or canon divergent in some way.    minors  &  personals will be blocked.    written by fox · they/he · 25 carrd.

mains & exclusives :   mizukokyu ,   omonzuru ,   kaminarikokyu

[soultore]

so. cyno.

[rpmemes-galore]

Chappell Roan : The Rise and Fall of a Midwest Princess album ... sentence starters

tw for some sexual content and language

"Is it casual now?"

"You're losing it lately."

"I'm so sick of online love."

"It's gonna cause a scene."

"You wonder why I'm bitter…"

"I just wanna get to know ya."

"You coming home with me?"

"We're hot, we're drunk, wow."

"Won't make my mama proud."

"Mini skirt and my go-go boots."

"But I can't help what I can't help."

"Baby, why don't you come over?"

"Let's make this bed get squeaky."

"So slow down, sit down, it's new."

"Got so close, but then you lost it."

"Oh my god, you are heaven sent…"

"If karma's real, hope it's your turn."

"It's comical, the bridges you burn."

"Should've listened to your friends."

"If I didn't love you, it would be fine."

"Fell in love with the thought of you."

"So, baby, let's get freaky, get kinky."

"I thought you thought of me better."

"It's hot when you have a meltdown."

"Do you picture me like I picture you?"

"She showed me things I didn't know."

"Every place leads back to your place."

""Here we go, again. Everything is fine."

"Not overdramatic, I know what I want."

"And he was wearing these fugly jeans."

"Touch me, baby, put your lips on mine."

"Wishing you the best, in the worst way."

"This is what I wanted, this is what I like."

"Oh, some good girls do bad things, too."

"Can't be a good, good girl even if I tried."

"I try not to care, but it hurts my feelings."

"I love a little drama, let's start a bar fight."

"It's all in my head, but I want non-fiction."

"You're hating yourself, I'm feeling myself."

"I know you want it, baby, you can have it."

"I could be the one, or your new addiction."

"Never waste a Friday night on a first date."

"Now I'm choked up, face down, burnt out."

"I've been a good, good girl for a long time."

"But, baby, I like flirting, a lover by my side."

"So, now when we kiss, I have anger issues."

"I don't want the world, but I'll take this city."

"Could go to hell, but we'll probably be fine."

"Every night's another reason why I left it all."

"Got what you wanted, so stop feeling sorry."

"Ruined my credit, stole my cute aesthetic…"

"'Cause if we do coffee, it's never just coffee."

"I try to be the chill girl but, honestly, I'm not."

"We're leaving the planet and you can't come."

"People say I'm jealous, but my kink is karma."

"You'll say that you're sorry. I know that's a lie."

"Can't meet you for dinner at the Italian place."

"Um, can you play a song with a fucking beat?"

"Here come the excuses that fuel the illusions."

"That’s my type of fun, that's my kind of party."

"Who can blame a girl? Call me hot, not pretty."

"You don't have to stare, comе here, get with it!"

"I guess we could pretend we didn't cross a line."

"And you're getting pissed off, it's getting me off."

"'Cause everything good happens after midnight."

"If you really wanna leave, I'll never make you stay."

"No need to be hateful in your fake Gucci sweater."

"To think, I almost had it going, but I let you down."

"No one's touched me there in a damn hot minute!"

"I'm feeling kinda freaky, maybe it's the moonlight."

"I'm feeling kinda freaky, maybe it's the club lights."

"There's no one else who could. the only one is you."

"You sent him pictures and playlists and phone sex."

"I heard you like magic. I've got a wand and a rabbit."

"I kinda wanna kiss your girlfriend, if you don't mind."

"We've done this before, and I don't need it anymore."

"It's not attractive wearing that dress and red lipstick."

"If it hasn't happened, yet, then maybe you should go."

"Who knew that we'd let it get this bad when it ended?"

"He doesn't have what it takes to be with a girl like me."

"I hate that I let this drag on so long, you can go to hell."

"My friends call me a loser, 'cause I'm still hanging around."

"Baby, do you like this beat? I made it so you'd dance with me."

"I'm too scared to say half of the things I do when I picture you."

"Nothing good happens when it's late and you're dancing alone."

"And you're getting called out, 'cause you're running your mouth."

"'Cause if we have wine, 'cause if we have wine. I know that's a lie."

"Lying to your friends about how he's such a goddamn good lover."

"What's it take to get your number? What's it take to bring you home?"

"Should've listened to your friends 'bout his girlfriend back in Boston."

"Knee deep in the passenger seat and you're eating me out, is it casual now?"

[soultore]

i'm in one of those "i should delete both blogs and quit writing for another 5 years" moods

[soultore]

by the way, despite melly having married a man, i view that marriage as a result of comphet. between the power imbalance between her and her (now dead) husband, and the fact that she eventually kills him, i've always written it as a loveless marriage.

[soultore]

[BACK]: sabito crouches down slightly to let the wounded makomo climb onto his back, giving them a piggy-back ride to safety

the times she's been injured by a demon have been few and far between.    maybe in fighting side by side with sabito,   she had felt too secure in the idea that they were untouchable.    overconfidence makes for carelessness,   and carelessness leads to harsh reality reminding her just how human she is ;   demon's claws cutting through the flesh of her calf with ease.    frustration burns her throat,   the red dripping down her leg is a strike against her pride as a swordswoman,   but it's hardly fatal by any means.

she's between considering sending her dear crow out to fetch a kakushi to help her on her way to the butterfly mansion,   or limping all the way there on her own when sabito crouches in front of her.    despite the tired sigh that leaves her,   there's a smile on her face when she wraps her arms around his shoulders,   holding tight to him as he picks her up off the ground with ease.    it's comfortable like this,   a familiarity that puts her at ease despite the lingering pain in her leg.

“  i'll let you win at shōgi next time—   if you don't tell otōsan this happened.  ”    her head leans against his,   her voice saccharine as she teases him   (  read between the lines :   i'm okay,   i'm still here ),   a pause,   and her smile widens across her face,    “  and if you do tell him,   i'll teach giyū how to beat you too.  ”

[soultore]

Tiredly, she flops next to kanao, face buried in the pillow of her futon. " you know, I love our friends, I really do, " she turns to lay on her side to face the other girl. " but if I have to deal with those boys again today, I may just snap. "

the patient smile doesn't leave their face as zenitsu falls forward onto the futon,   face buried in a soft pillow,   exhaustion showing through that action alone.    they're a good listener,   always has been,   and even after she's done venting,   they stay quiet for a moment longer.    indecisiveness makes them pause on what to do.    they're a good listener,   but they don't consider themself a good source of respite.

“  we could . . .   take a walk?    away from the boys. ”    slowly,   stiffly,   they reach out and pat the top of her head,   the same comforting motion kanae had done to them so many times before.    they're not sure if this helps,   but it feels right,   and her soft hair under their fingers makes their heart flutter in their chest;   a strange feeling that they don't know how to place.

[soultore]

[CARRY]: having found makomo in an injured state, sakonji carries her in his arms to safety

for all her sweet smiles and dreamy,   distant stares,   she's a shockingly stubborn girl.    the luxury of strength is not hers to claim,   leaving her only with agility befitting her small frame and a will to survive regardless of the odds.    the only option she finds herself left with is training until she drops,   ignoring the consequences.    to makomo,   it's the only thing someone like her can do.

so maybe it's not so much a surprise :   when the exhaustion sets in,   when her ankle twists awkwardly beneath her,   sending her sprawling out of the tree she had perched herself upon to the forest floor below.    a sickening crack and pain blooms bright red in her left arm,   the breath knocked from her chest.    too dazed to stand,   it takes all her strength to roll herself onto her back,   breathing through gritted teeth in some attempt to stop the burning in her eyes.

through pain induced haze,   she doesn't notice urokodaki running to her.    the worry in his voice makes guilt crawl through her veins,   in a way that makes the dam break as she heaves out a sob.    when he lifts her from the ground her uninjured hand grabs at his haori,   balling into a fist as she chokes out  " i'm sorry,  i'm sorry, "  through tears.    curled against his chest,   being carried back to their home,   she feels like she's seven again,   being carried by her mother after falling and scraping her knee,   back when demons nothing but a scary nightmare.   she knows that this is the closest she'll ever get to that feeling again.

[soultore]

i know i have shinobu listed as a lesbian but honestly with the way canon goes and how she plans on sacrificing her life to kill doma i don't actually think she'd actively engage in any romantic pursuits. she'd find it kind of cruel to let someone fall in love when she knows she doesn't plan on coming out of her fight with doma alive.

[kamiusings]

SHORT STORIES, my favorite kind of poetry ( meme ).

SIX WORDS .

❝ i heard you were doing good. ❞ ❝ you don’t grow your horns overnight. ❞ ❝ i promise, it gets better eventually. ❞ ❝ & we never talked after that. ❞ ❝ am i really, truly, that unlovable? ❞ ❝ don’t talk like you’re coming back. ❞ ❝ my most dangerous habit is trusting. ❞ ❝ we’re made of stars & stories. ❞ ❝ you didn’t have to do that. ❞ ❝ everything is poetry when you’re drunk. ❞ ❝ did i mean anything to you? ❞ ❝ real feelings don’t just go away. ❞ ❝ you came & changed the weather. ❞ ❝ when can you just be mine? ❞ ❝ there was no love, only lust. ❞ ❝ darling, stop wishing on dead stars. ❞ ❝ art is another form of screaming. ❞ ❝ silence is the most painful goodbye. ❞ ❝ what the fuck did you do? ❞ ❝ i’m drunk, dizzy & missing you. ❞ ❝ kiss me like you’re losing me. ❞ ❝ i don’t feel like smiling today. ❞ ❝ not all good people are innocent. ❞ ❝ we’re a disaster in the making. ❞ ❝ some things are better left unsaid. ❞ ❝ we really should’ve talked about it. ❞ ❝ i’m so glad i met you. ❞ ❝ i wish i knew you earlier. ❞ ❝ i fucked (pronoun/name) to our song. ❞ ❝ i dreamed of you this night. ❞

TEN WORDS .

❝ you saw the messed up parts of me, & stayed. ❞ ❝ all i’ve ever wanted was for someone to save me. ❞ ❝ since you left, i have no one to talk to. ❞ ❝ i apologize for the nights in which i cannot breathe. ❞ ❝ everytime i look at you, i want to kiss you. ❞ ❝ we said no strings attached but now we’re in knots. ❞ ❝ there’s a difference between missing someone & missing having someone. ❞ ❝ for which f are you drinking? fuck, forget, or fun? ❞ ❝ my biggest mistake was thinking i could live without (pronoun/name). ❞ ❝ whenever (name/pronoun) rose to kiss me, i fell even more. ❞ ❝ i wish that ‘goodnight’ was followed by ‘i love you’. ❞ ❝ let’s smoke a pack of mentholds & talk about love. ❞ ❝ your deep, sleepy voice makes me feel like i’m okay. ❞ ❝ i read both of our horoscopes looking for an answer ❞ ❝ reality is the absolute last place i want to be. ❞ ❝ i didn’t expect that drunk kiss could mean this much. ❞ ❝ all i need is a late night drive with you. ❞ ❝ feeling pain is nowhere near as terrifying as feeling nothing. ❞ ❝ your eyes are the color of summer fading into autumn. ❞ ❝ you are the warmest home i will ever, ever find. ❞ ❝ the world is less scary when i am with you. ❞ ❝ i still can’t tell which of us was the victim. ❞ ❝ i just need an excuse to hang out with you. ❞ ❝ your expectations for me have been set way too high. ❞ ❝ i don’t want to feel this way about anyone else. ❞

[soultore]

❛ i … want to lie here. ❜ (for shinobu <3)

she watches as her fellow hashira lies on his stomach, face down in a way she can't imagine is particularly comfortable. it's probably not even good for him, but she'll save him the chiding that he should pay closer mind to how he's treating his body ( it would be a bit hypocritical, no? ). instead she just finds the humor in it, and when she laughs, she presses a hand to her lips to stifle it. “ i can at least get you a blanket, if you're going to lie on the floor like that. ”

eeaao ; @mizukokyu

[soultore]

thinking about kanao taking pieces of her personality from the people that love her. kanae's smile, shinobu's stubbornness, even if she can't care for people like the butterfly girls can she still hovers at the edge of the room, looking for ways to help like they do.

[soultore]

❛ please! can we just stop fighting! ❜ / for kazuha...

“ you're welcome to leave and find safety. ”   there's no judgement behind their words,   and when they look over to her,   the smile on their face remains.   of course with the sword at her hip,   they had expected her to join the upcoming fight,   but well,   this is a beast of a different nature.   it would be a bit unfair of them to expect the same level of bravery   ( and perhaps the same level of disregard for the danger ).   “ i won't make you fight if you're scared. ”

eeaao starters ; @kaminarikokyu

[soultore]

❛ you okay? caught you staring off into space. ❜ (for makomo <3)

between warm weather and a sunny day,   it's easy for her mind to wander.   she's been this way since she was a child,   prone to daydreaming.   avoidant in nature,   it's become something to keep her mind occupied,   and it works.   mostly.   when @mizukokyu‘s voice brings her back to reality, blinking,   once,   twice, she feels a bit sheepish—   if he had said something before hand she hadn’t heard him.

“ i'm fine,   you worry too much. ”   she reaches up to pat at the top of his head;   she can still remember when he had been so much shorter than her,   back when urokodaki had just taken him in.   nostalgia makes a home in her chest,   a quiet longing for a time when things had been simpler.   it hadn't been perfect,   but it's hard not to look to the past with fondness.   “ i was just thinking . . . ”   she pulls her hand back,   lazily pointing to some stray clouds in the sky,   “ those clouds look a lot like the flowers on my mask,   right? ”

[kaminarikokyu]

she can barely breathe. her face is buried into shinobu's shoulder, body wracked with sobs that sound so pathetic. she was so pathetic, how could she let this happen? how could she be asleep when all of this happened? people have no homes, tengen lost an arm, her friends almost died. her friends almost died.

" i didn't -- i could've-- " choked on her words and tears, she inhales. she can't speak, much too focused on calming down. after what felt like forever, the sobs stop. they're replaced with tearful whimpers and hiccups. she lets shinobu run her fingers through her hair, the motion a comfort (gramps did this too.)

" i'm sorry, " another apology, this time to shinobu. " i-i shouldn't even be crying -- look at me, i'm the only one still awake. " her chest feels heavy. " d-...does this feeling ever go away? th-the guilt? "

[soultore]

one hand holding her close,   the other running through blonde hair,   shinobu holds her with a patience she's had no choice but to learn.   zenitsu is not the first person to fall apart like this in the butterfly mansion,   and as long as demons still roam she won't be the last.   there's a familiar burn of anger in the back of her throat that threatens to overtake her composure—   she feels childish when she thinks  it's unfair,   this is all unfair.

“ you don't need to apologize. ”   at the sound of another apology,   there's a slight shake of her head.   this too is part of her job as a pillar,   it's never enough just to support other slayers in battle,   the emotional toll of this job can't be understated.   if left alone too long,   she fears she might break under the self imposed pressure.

“ you can cry,   if you need to.   bottling it up never really works,   anyways. ”   casual hypocrisy is just like her;   she hasn't cried since kanae's funeral.   that's not the kind of advice she'll give zenitsu,   however.   and on the subject of guilt she hesitates.   how do you tell someone that your own guilt has never gone away?   that the lives that have slipped through your fingers still weigh on your mind?   it's a split second decision,   when she decides that she's okay with lying for the sake of comfort.   “ it will,   with time. ”

[nightprompts]

&. 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐚𝐭 𝐨𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬.

( dialogue  prompts  taken  from the script of  everything  everywhere  all  at  once  (2022),  directed  by  daniel  kwan  and  daniel  scheinert.  feel  free  to  edit  and  change  as  you  seem  fit. )

❛ you look really pretty right now. ❜

❛ stop changing the subject. ❜

❛ every day i fight, i fight for all of us. ❜

❛ what are you doing? what is wrong? ❜

❛ if i have to think about one more thing today, my head will explode. ❜

❛ you may be in grave danger. there is no time to explain.❜

❛ we can make our own way. please, come with me. ❜

❛ don't even talk to me about this because i won't remember.❜

❛ i am not your husband. at least not the one you know. i am another version of him from another life path, another universe. ❜

❛ i’m here because we need your help.❜

❛ sorry, very busy today. no time to help you– ❜

❛ all those years of searching have brought me here. to this universe. to you. ❜

❛ i’m here to tell you every rejection, every disappointment has led you here. to this moment. ❜

❛ i'm not ready to fight yet. ❜

❛ maybe we don't have a choice. ❜

❛ now, you can either come with me and live up to your ultimate potential, or lie here and live with the consequences. ❜

❛ i... want to lie here. ❜

❛ how often do people literally die laughing? ❜

❛ my husband won't even kill a spider. how are you the same person? ❜

❛ we are talking about infinity. if you can imagine it, somewhere out there, it exists. ❜

❛ how did i die? ❜

❛ i've seen you die a thousand ways. in a thousand worlds. in every single one, you were murdered. ❜

❛ what!? who wants me dead? ❜

❛ you’ve been feeling it too, haven’t you? something is off. your clothes never wear as well the next day, your hair never falls in quite the same way, even your coffee tastes... wrong. ❜

❛ maybe we would have been better off if we had never gotten married. ❜

❛ i never said that. ❜

❛ you didn’t have to. it’s the way you look at me. ❜

❛ can’t you see it? how wonderful it would be if you came with me? ❜

❛ i saw my life without you. i wish you could have seen it. it was beautiful. ❜

❛ shhh, you're not thinking straight. ❜

❛ what is worse than death? ❜

❛ i saw your face on a billboard and — this is silly — i wondered if you remembered me... ❜

❛ is it that i can’t be here, or that i’m not allowed to be here? ❜

❛ there is no good, there is no evil. there is only “goovil”. ❜

❛ if you can imagine it, you have fucked it. ❜

❛ do not be so closed minded that you blind yourself from the truth! ❜

❛ don’t make me fight you. i am really really good. ❜

❛ you're capable of anything because you're so bad at everything. ❜

❛ you can't remember anything because your bodies were under the control of other universes. ❜

❛ you were like puppets. and you could do things you normally can't do. you were like, what's that movie... raccaccoonie? ❜

❛ how can you defeat her in every universe, if you can't even kill her in one? ❜

❛ the sacrifices necessary to win this war... i know all too well. ❜

❛ i cannot lose another loved one to the darkness. ❜

❛ i know you have feelings. feelings that make you so sad. that make you just want to give up. that is not your fault. ❜

❛ i'll see you again soon, somewhere out there in all that noise. ❜

❛ just think happy thoughts. ❜

❛ you okay? caught you staring off into space again. ❜

❛ i'm the one you've been looking for. ❜

❛ i’m the one who will defeat you. ❜

❛ you’re finally free, like me. ❜

❛ you don't have to choose anymore. between loving me or hating me. you can do both at the same time. ❜

❛ before, you were asking about "our daughter". it's crazy, but it really got me thinking. what if you had come with me all of those years ago? ❜

❛ all of this time, i wasn't looking for someone who could defeat me. i was looking for someone who could see what i see, feel what i feel... ❜

❛ oh, good, you're here too. ❜

❛ i'm sorry about ruining everything, i– ❜

❛ we're all stupid. small stupid little humans. it's like our whole deal. ❜

❛ everything is going to be okay. ❜

❛ you think i’m weak don’t you? ❜

❛ when we first fell in love all of those years ago, your father would say i was too sweet for my own good. maybe he was right. ❜

❛ please! can we just stop fighting! ❜

❛ you tell me that it's a cruel world and we're all just running around in circles. i know that. i've been on this earth just as many days as you. ❜

❛ the only thing i do know is we have to be kind. be kind. especially, when we don't know what's going on. ❜

❛ i know you go through life with your fists held tight. you see yourself as a fighter. well, i see myself as one too. this is how i fight. ❜

❛ in another life, i would have really liked just doing laundry and taxes with you. ❜

❛ you know what i say? cold, hysterical, unlovable bitches like us make the world go round. ❜

❛ you aren’t unlovable. there is always something to love. ❜

❛ even in a stupid, stupid universe where we have hot dogs for fingers, we’d all be very good with our feet! ❜

❛ in a universe where we both agree that no one could love you, if we look hard enough, something will prove us wrong. ❜

❛ we are all useless alone. so its good you're not alone. ❜

❛ maybe you win in this universe. but in another, i beat you. or we tie. or we eat crepes. ❜

❛ i don't want to hurt anymore. and for some reason when i'm with you, it hurts both of us. ❜

❛ out of all of the places i could be, why would i want to be here with you? ❜

❛ i still want to be here with you. i will always want to be here with you. ❜

❛ i will cherish these few specks of time. ❜

[kaminarikokyu]

@soultore said: [ HAIR ] ; from shinobu

[ HAIR ]:     while in the process of checking the receiver for injuries or other signs of harm, the sender gently brushes several strands of hair from their eyes.

don't shake. don't tremble. deep breath in, deep breath out. zenitsu allows for shinobu to remove the dirtied kimono to check for injuries. she doesn't flinch when shinobu wipes at her with a cold rag, taking away any rubble or dust on her skin. zenitsu doesn't even cry when the ointment she places on her back hits her wounds, hands clenching and relaxing. do not cry, you are still awake and breathing -- the same cannot be said for your comrades. tanjiro and inosuke are sleeping, resting. she is awake, she is conscience. they are suffering, clearly she is not.

she listens as shinobu shifts, standing to remove her hair from those ugly pigtails. her hair falls, and it feels heavy, it'd only been three days, it couldn't have gotten that long in such short time. so why did it feel so heavy? shinobu is kneeling in front of her now, and her hands gently moves her hair from her eyes. she can see shinobu's stare better, gentle, understanding.

her eyes start burning with tears. " k-kocho-san? " her throat feels tight as she speaks, hands shaking. " a-are tanjiro and inosuke gonna be okay? they're-- they're still asleep-- " that should be me in that bed. they shouldn't be suffering. " and i -- i could barely hear their pulses and i d-- i don't-- " she's failed, tears streaming down as she rushes to cover her face with her hands. " i'm sorry -- i'm sorry. i should've protected them better. "

SETTLING DUST. / accepting!

[soultore]

one hashira injured beyond repair,  two comatose children,  a city leveled.   the damage that upper six had wrought in just a single night can't be understated;  shinobu is left with the aftermath,  holding the fragile pieces in her hands.   with tanjiro and inosuke finally stabilized,  though still being carefully monitored,  her attention has shifted to zenitsu.   every movement is careful,  practiced,  as she wipes away soot and blood,  as careful as she can be around fresh wounds.

and when she kneels down to brush the hair from her face,  to gently tilt her face up to look at,  shinobu can see the tears welling up.   guilt is a difficult burden to bear,  and she can see it in the way that her shoulders tense,  her hands shake,  and the way her voice starts to crack.   when the tears start to fall,  she's quick to set aside the medicine and bandages,  that practiced smile falling from her face.

“ they will be okay. ”   she won't say how dire their situations truly are—  it's a miracle either of them had even made it here alive.   they're more resilient than anything she's ever seen,  though.   they will be okay.   she pulls zenitsu into her arms,  slowly combing her fingers through her hair.   she had never been as good at kanae at comforting people,  but this much she can do,  “ this isn't your fault.   you did all you could,  and that was enough. ”