Here are some resources to raise awareness for victims of sexual assault
This will be updated frequently
RAINN
The largest anti-sexual violence organization in the United States. Includes a hotline for sexual assault victims and also allows you to make donations that go to victims.
OCRCC
Offering counselling, information and support services to survivors of sexual violence in Canada.
IRCH
Includes directories and phone numbers to sexual assault hotlines for countries and regions all over the world.
CrossRoads
Helps child and adult survivors of sexual assault, abuse, and human trafficking through confidential counseling, advocacy, child medical treatment, education, and community awareness. Offers a 24-hour-online chatting service to help victims, as well as a hotline.
Survivors UK
Charity that aims to help male victims / survivors through their national online helpline service in the United Kingdom. You can donate through them.
Australian Government Support Resources
Support for men, women, families, and child victims of various types of assault in Australia. Includes hotlines for the various territories of Australia.
The United States Department of Justice
An extremely useful website for victims in the United States. Includes a “quick exit” feature to take you away from the website immediately, bringing you to a disguise website in case a victim is being monitored.
Honestly, y'all, I'm begging you. Take the time to think and learn for yourself. Even if it's just something casual like knitting or cooking. Exercise your brain. It's important.
i was so proud of myself when i wrote my branding paper and it came back with 80% and my professor said he enjoyed reading it. i was happy bc it was MY work with MY thoughts and hard work. writing papers are hard for me i have to gruel over them for days lmao but it’s rewarding when u get a good mark !!
omfg last night i had a dream and gunwook and hanbin from zb1 were in it and when i tellllll u WHEN I TELL U i woke up from that dream rizzed up…. it was crazy.
i don’t even go here like i rarely listen or watch zb1 just every now and then like how did that happen😭
summary. when you and jungkook show up to your much anticipated graduation trip and realise neither of you had the guts to tell your friends about your recent break up, there’s only one thing you can do to keep the trip from falling apart: pretend.
but somewhere between fake kisses and real feelings, you start to wonder if letting go was ever the right choice at all.
pairing: jeon jungkook x f!reader
genre/warnings: exes to lovers, fake dating, idiots to lovers, mutual pining, angst, fluff, (eventual) explicit sexual content, swearing, alcohol consumption, ft. seokjin, namjoon, hoseok, jimin, taehyung, yoongi + four female ocs
word count: 4.9k
notes: i dunno how to feel about this chapter, but at least it’s something for you guys loll. also if you can’t tell, i’m horrible with pacing so if it feels like too much of a fast burn i’m so sorry 😖 feedback, likes, comments, reblogs and asks are so so appreciated. enjoy reading my angels <3
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⤷ chapter two — broken cd
don’t think i’m over it / like i always said i was / like a broken cd / that plays on repeat
You shove the key into the door and twist hard, your shoulder still sore from hauling your overloaded backpack up the stairs. It's just one floor, but with the way the straps dug into your skin and your pride refused to let Jungkook help, it might as well have been Everest.
The door creaks open, hinges sticking slightly before giving way.
Amber light spills into the room — warm and rich, the kind of sunset that makes everything look softer than it is. The windows are massive, the glass thrown open to the breeze and the sound of waves crashing in the distance. You turn around to look out the door from the foot of your bed, and from here, you can see the ocean glowing gold under the falling sun, lazy and endless.
It smells like salt and clean sheets and something faintly citrus, probably the resort’s idea of a luxury air freshener.
And right in the middle of the room, unmissable and offensively neat, is one bed.
One.
You don’t even pretend to hide your sigh. “Great,” you mutter, dropping your backpack with a heavy thud. “A single bed. Very romantic.”
Behind you, Jungkook snorts. “What, you suddenly shy?” He brushes past, setting his duffel bag down with way less drama than you did. “I’ve literally been inside you. You’ll survive.”
You don’t laugh.
You don’t even look at him.
Instead, you stare at the bed. At the way the light hits the perfectly smooth duvet. At the two pillows, side by side. Like it was made for a couple. Like it was made for you and him.
He notices your silence, eventually.
“Too far?” he asks, voice low.
You shrug. “Just wasn’t that funny.”
He doesn't say anything for a moment, just shifts his weight and runs a hand through his hair like he’s suddenly remembered this whole thing is supposed to be an act. That you’re not really his anymore.
And maybe that’s what stings — the anymore.
You sit on the edge of the bed, bouncing once. It’s too soft. Too quiet. Too intimate.
You glance at him out of the corner of your eye. His jaw’s tight. He’s not looking at you.
There was a time you thought you’d marry him. That you were going to. You’d even gotten your nails done that week, like a fucking idiot.
You blink hard and look away before that memory can settle in your chest like it always does. Instead, you clear your throat and force yourself to speak like you’re not sitting inside the echo of what used to be.
“I’ll take the left side,” you say, voice flat.
Jungkook doesn’t even pause. “I figured.”
Of course he did. He always remembers.
You glance at the bed for a beat longer, then push yourself back up and move toward the window. The floorboards creak slightly under your steps, but the rest of the room stays still.
Outside, the sun is sinking lower, streaking the sky with deep amber and dusky pink. You fold your arms across your chest as the breeze brushes against your skin, cooling the leftover heat from the hike up the stairs.
You can hear muffled laughter from a nearby cabin — familiar voices, the clink of bottles. It’s already starting. The unwinding. The pretending. And you're still up here, wondering how the hell this is going to work.
“We should figure out how we’re doing this,” Jungkook says behind you.
You don’t look at him. “You want to map out how to play house again like it’s some group project?”
There’s a beat of silence before he responds. “I just think... if we’re doing this, we should at least figure out the basics.”
You scoff under your breath. “Basics. Right.”
As if you haven’t already been there. Like you didn’t build the foundation, the walls, the goddamn roof of your relationship from scratch with him, only to watch him walk out before it could become a home.
He shifts again, and you hear the slight squeak of the mattress as he adjusts his weight on the edge of the bed. “I know you don’t want to be doing this,” he says softly. “But no killing me in my sleep, okay?”
You finally turn to look at him. “I can’t make any promises.”
His mouth twitches, almost a smile. But not quite. “Yeah. Fair.”
You don’t say anything to that. You just watch him — how he can’t seem to hold your gaze for more than a few seconds. How his fingers keep twitching like he wants to be doing something with them.
He used to always touch you when he got like this. Knee against yours, hand slipping into your hair, thumb brushing your wrist. It’s weird seeing all that nervous energy go nowhere now.
“Look,” he says eventually, “if it helps, we don’t have to be over the top with it. Just enough to get by.”
You nod, slow and tense. “Keep it casual. Minimal.”
He hesitates, like he’s weighing something. “Right. But… you know they’ll expect us to—”
“No,” you cut in, voice sharp.
“They’ll notice if we don’t.”
“They’ll survive.”
“You’re saying Seokjin’s going to see us not kiss once this entire trip and just let that slide?”
You roll your eyes. “We’ve been together for years. Couples evolve. Maybe we’re just in our chill phase.”
That earns you another ghost of a smile. “We were never chill.”
He’s not wrong.
You were the couple everyone either envied or got annoyed by. Loud in your love. Touchy. Constantly wrapped up in each other like you didn’t know how not to be. There was never anything subtle about the way you felt for him.
You stare at the floor for a second. “I’m not kissing you.”
“Ouch," he mumbles, placing a hand over his heart.
You bite back a smile.
When Jungkook speaks again, his voice is quieter. “I just meant... if it happens, don’t freak out. That’s all.”
You narrow your eyes. “Why would it happen?”
He shrugs one shoulder, looking like he regrets bringing it up at all. “I don’t know. Habit?”
That word lands heavier than it should.
You study him for a moment. He’s not cocky. Not smirking like he used to when he’d tease you. He looks unsure, almost guilty. Like he knows he has no right to even suggest that kissing you is something that could still come naturally. Maybe it could. Maybe that’s the problem.
“Fine,” you mutter. “If it happens. And that’s a big if.”
His gaze flicks up. “Understood.”
You sit on the edge of the bed again, leaning back on your hands. Your head tilts back and your gaze reaches the ceiling. The fan above spins lazily, the blades catching a sliver of orange light every time they pass. It’s quiet enough to hear the wind outside, the occasional gust rustling the palm leaves.
“I’ll sleep on top of the covers,” Jungkook says suddenly. “Or on the floor, if that makes it less weird.”
You glance over at him. “Don’t be dramatic. I’m not actually gonna set you on fire.”
His mouth quirks. “Good to know.”
You pause. "Maybe."
Jungkook snorts under his breath, and for a second, it almost feels like nothing's changed. Like you're still in some random hotel room on a trip together, teasing and bickering until one of you caves and kisses the other just to shut them up.
But then there's a knock — two quick raps — and before either of you can answer, the door creaks open and Taehyung’s head pokes in.
He scans the room, eyes landing on the bed, then on you and Jungkook sitting a little too far apart to look like people who are supposedly in love. If he notices, he doesn’t comment.
“We're having dinner soon," Taehyung says, leaning against the doorframe. "Seokjin and Yoongi are already cooking. Told me to drag your asses down if you’re not there in ten."
You blink. “Already?”
"We only have a week. Might as well make the most of it," he replies with a shrug.
“We'll be there in a sec,” Jungkook says.
“Cool, but not too long," Taehyung warns, stepping back into the hall. "“Fuck each other later— I'm starving and I'm not waiting for you guys.”
And just like that, he’s gone again, the sound of his flip-flops slapping against the stairs as he yells something incoherent at Seokjin.
You both sit there for a second too long after Taehyung leaves.
Jungkook exhales slowly. “Well. That wasn’t weird at all.”
You glance at him. “He’s going to keep making jokes like that all week.”
“Oh, for sure.” He stands, stretches his arms overhead until his shirt rides up just enough to expose a sliver of skin, then drops them with a sigh. “We should head down before someone sends a search party.”
You don’t move right away. You watch him instead — the way he fiddles with his silver ring, the one you bought him for your two-year anniversary. He still wears it. You wish that didn’t mean anything, but your chest feels heavier every time you see it catch the light.
“Hey,” he says, noticing your stare. “You okay?”
You blink once. “Fine.” It’s a lie. You think he knows it, but he doesn’t push.
When you finally leave the room after spending twenty minutes freshening up, the house is buzzing. You can hear it before you even hit the stairs — the low hum of conversation, the clatter of dishes from the kitchen, laughter spilling through the hallways like sunlight through a cracked door.
The stairway smells like something good — grilled meat, maybe, and butter, and garlic — warm and rich and heavy enough to make your stomach twist. It’s a nice smell, a homey smell, the kind you’d associate with nights that end in full stomachs and sore cheeks from smiling too much.
You trail your fingers lightly against the wood of the banister as you go down, Jungkook a step behind you.
The main room opens up all at once when you reach the bottom — wide and airy, with big windows cracked open to let in the evening breeze. The kitchen bleeds straight into the dining area with no walls to separate them, just an island cluttered with drinks, half-unpacked groceries, and a giant speaker playing a playlist you’re pretty sure Kiara made.
The dining table is already half set, chairs scattered around it in the kind of casual, lived-in chaos that happens when twelve people try to organise themselves without a plan.
Bowls of chips, salad, and what looks like some kind of pasta are already on the table, half-covered with napkins to keep flies away. A basket of bread sits at one end, slightly squashed.
In the kitchen, Ari is perched on the counter, laughing at something Yoongi mutters as he chops a mountain of vegetables with terrifying precision. Seokjin stands at the stove, wielding a pair of tongs like a sword, flipping something in a pan with unnecessary flair.
"You two are late," Seokjin calls without turning around. "We almost started without you."
Ari shoots you a grin over her shoulder. "We figured you were busy... catching up."
You force a tight smile and Jungkook just huffs out a quiet laugh behind you, the sound brushing too close to the back of your neck.
There’s a low murmur of greetings as you and Jungkook make your way further inside — Namjoon waving a pair of tongs wildly in the air, Haeun tossing you a quick smile from where she's helping Jimin set out forks and plates.
You glance around for empty seats with a soft sigh.
There are two left. Right next to each other, tucked into the middle of the table, right between Kiara and Taehyung.
Perfect.
You feel Jungkook’s eyes meet yours, both of you registering the same inevitability. No words are exchanged — just a small, tired lift of your eyebrows and the smallest twitch of his mouth.
You move first, weaving through the scattered chairs and half-drunk glasses to get to your seat. The scrape of the chair against the hardwood floor feels unnaturally loud as you pull it out. You sit down carefully, pressing your thighs together, your palms flat against the tops of them under the table.
Jungkook slips into the chair beside you without hesitation. You can feel the heat of his body even through the space between you, the almost-touch of his arm resting on the table next to yours.
You stare straight ahead for a second — at the bowls of food, the condensation slipping down plastic cups, the crumpled paper towels that someone had already dropped on the table — and will yourself to breathe normally.
You can do this.
You have to do this.
For Seokjin and Haeun's sake. For everybody’s sake.
It isn’t long until all the food is set and everyone’s squeezed around the table, shoulder to shoulder, the energy a little loud and a little messy.
Plates are passed down, people piling food high with zero shame. Forks clatter, someone pops open another drink too close to Namjoon’s elbow, and Haeun lets out a squeal when soda almost spills across the table.
The conversations starts light — the usual catching up.
"I can’t believe you’re actually doing it," Kiara says, pointing her fork at Namjoon across the table. "Moving across the country?"
Namjoon chuckles, rubbing the back of his neck. "Yeah. Scary, right?"
Ari beams at him, reaching over to squeeze his hand briefly. "It's exciting. We’re ready."
"You’re insane," Yoongi deadpans. "But good for you."
"You’re just mad no one's trapped you yet," Seokjin says, dodging a grape Yoongi flicks at him.
You laugh, the sound almost surprising yourself with how normal it feels.
Someone brings up Hoseok, and Kiara sets her drink down with a soft clink, letting out a heavy sigh.
"His boss is a total asshole," she says, shaking her head. "Tried to tell him he couldn't take time off— even though he put in the request, like, six months ago."
There's a murmur of annoyance around the table.
Kiara rolls her eyes. "He’s still coming though. Driving down early tomorrow."
The conversation rolls on easily — Jimin complaining about the same landlord he's been cursing out ever since he moved out from the dorms on campus, Haeun sharing a horror story from her latest shift at the hospital, Taehyung and Yasmine excitedly telling everyone their plans of visiting Paris at the end of the year.
You find yourself relaxing in tiny increments, the night smoothing the edges of everything sharp inside you.
Still, every few minutes, a question sneaks your way. Directed at both you and Jungkook. Casual. Friendly. A little too curious.
"So, when’s the next trip?" Yasmine asks, her chin propped in her hand, a lazy grin on her face.
You freeze for a second — just a second — but it’s enough; enough for your brain to scramble, for your heart to lurch into your throat.
You open your mouth to answer at the exact moment Jungkook does.
"Hopefully soon—"
"Maybe end of the year—"
You both stop, the words tripping over each other in the thick summer air. A tiny beat of silence hangs between you, awkward and heavy.
Jungkook clears his throat softly. You let out a small laugh, too tight around the edges to sound natural, and tuck a piece of hair behind your ear even though it doesn’t need fixing.
"Uh— soon, hopefully," you say, forcing a smile, trying to smooth it over like it’s no big deal. Like your whole chest isn’t clenching painfully.
"Yeah," Jungkook adds, recovering fast, his voice easy. He stabs a piece of grilled chicken from his plate and pops it into his mouth like it's nothing
If anyone notices the tension simmering between you, they don’t say anything. You hope it’s because everyone’s too buzzed on good food and easy conversation, and not because they feel the awkwardness thick in the air and don’t know how to cut through it.
You’re just starting to feel relieved, letting yourself believe you might get through dinner unnoticed when Taehyung turns toward Jungkook halfway through the meal, nudging him with his shoulder. "Hey, I meant to ask you about—"
He stops mid-sentence.
His gaze flickers downward, quick, almost unnoticeable. Down to your hand resting by your plate.
You don’t catch it, too busy trying to butter a piece of bread without it crumbling to pieces in your hands, but Jungkook does, and you feel his body stiffen for half a second beside you.
Then, smoothly, he jumps in. "—about that new game drop next month. You getting it?"
Taehyung blinks, like he’s catching up to the new topic, then grins wide. "Obviously. I plan on absolutely destroying you."
"You say that every time," Jungkook shoots back, and just like that, the moment’s gone.
Buried under another wave of laughter and teasing.
You and Jungkook mostly stay quiet. You smile when you’re supposed to. You laugh when you have to.
You play your part.
And through it all, under the steady hum of old jokes and new memories being made, Jungkook’s knee shifts ever so slightly to rest against yours under the table.
You fight the urge to move away.
The beach is quiet this late, lit only by the faint glow of the moon and the scattered dots of stars overhead. The sky stretches wide and clear, not a cloud in sight, just a deep navy canvas freckled with light. The waves roll in steadily, calm and even, and the sand is cool now beneath your feet, the heat of the day finally burned off.
It had been Seokjin’s idea to head down after dinner, grabbing drinks for everyone before they could protest. Something about making the most of the night, getting “full value” out of the resort. No one argued. Within minutes, you were all slipping out of shoes and wandering down to the shore, half-full cups in hand, the buzz of dinner still clinging to the air.
Now, everyone’s scattered in loose clusters — some sitting in the sand, others walking along the edge of the water.
You hug your knees to your chest and rest your chin on top of them, eyes fixed on the tide as it pulls in and out, in and out. The repetition is comforting. Predictable. It drowns out the conversations happening around you — Taehyung trying to convince Yasmine to go in past her knees, Jimin narrating an elaborate story to Yoongi and Kiara.
Every now and then, someone laughs too loud, a bottle cap is flicked into the sand, or a sudden breeze sends someone scrambling to catch a napkin mid-air. It all blends together in the background, easy to tune out.
Jungkook is sitting a few feet to your right, legs stretched out in front of him, hands planted in the sand behind him for support. His head is tilted slightly up toward the sky like he’s trying to map constellations, or maybe just avoid looking at anything too real. He hasn’t said anything since you all got down here.
Neither have you. Not to each other, at least.
He shifts once, brushing some sand off his arm. His elbow knocks lightly into yours before he moves it away again without comment.
You don’t react.
Eventually, the group starts thinning. Namjoon stands up first, brushing sand off his jeans and helping Ari to her feet with that soft little smile he seems to save just for her. Yoongi follows soon after, muttering something about not waking up early tomorrow and Jimin follows.
The casual exits happen slowly, naturally, like everyone’s easing out of the night one moment at a time. No dramatic goodbyes, no announcements. Just people disappearing in twos and threes.
You stay put, your eyes still trained on the ocean. There’s something about the way the water moves that holds you there, like letting go of it too soon would mean snapping back into the real world — and you’re not ready for that yet. The sound of the waves fills in all the parts of your head that have been too loud lately.
You hear Jungkook shift beside you again, this time to sit up straighter. He doesn’t stand. Doesn’t move away either.
A few beats pass in silence.
Then, he speaks. Quietly.
“So…” he starts, voice careful. “How’ve you been?”
You don’t look at him. “Fine.”
“Yeah?” he says, and you can practically hear the awkward smile in his voice. “You always were a world-class oversharer.”
You glance over just enough to shoot him a look. “Do you want an essay or a lie?”
He huffs a laugh. “I’ll take a haiku.”
“Too bad. You get monosyllables.”
You hear the faint clink of his bracelet as he scratches the back of his neck. He lets the silence stretch between you, and you finally give in.
“Everything's been busy, I guess,” you say. “I’ve been prepping for a bunch of interviews and final stuff. The application season was a mess.”
“That’s good.”
You shrug. “It’s something.”
Another pause. This one hangs heavier. You know what he’s trying to do — pull you back into something like familiarity. The effort is obvious. It makes you tired.
Still, part of you — the small, irritating part that hasn’t unlearned how to read him — notices how tense his shoulders are. How he keeps his hands in the sand, fingers buried deep like he needs the grounding.
“I got offered a spot in a grad program in Berlin last month,” you say suddenly. You don’t know why, but the words tumble from your lips before you can stop them.
He doesn’t flinch.
But he does freeze — just for a second. Barely perceptible, but you feel it like a static shock between you. His eyes flick toward you, then away.
“What?” you ask, turning to him slightly. “Weird pause. What?”
He blinks like he wasn’t expecting you to press. “Nothing. Just… Berlin’s far.”
“Excellent observation.”
“Did you accept it?”
“No,” you say. You pause. “Turned it down.”
This time, he doesn’t mask it as well. There’s something in his face — not relief, not exactly, but something close enough to irritate you.
“What?” you ask again, sharper this time.
“Nothing,” he says, a bit too fast. “Just thought you’d take it. You always talked about wanting to move. To get out.”
“I still want to,” you say. “Just… not like that.”
“Like what?”
“Alone.”
He’s quiet.
You’re not sure why you said it. It wasn’t meant to sound like anything. But now it sits there between you — heavier than the air, thicker than the silence.
“I didn’t think that mattered to you anymore,” Jungkook says after a while.
Your laugh comes out short, dry. “Yeah. You gave up your right to guess what matters to me.”
And now he’s really looking at you, jaw working slightly like he wants to say something back — maybe something honest, maybe something dumb — but he doesn’t.
“Right,” he says finally, nodding once, more to himself than to you.
You exhale slowly, turning your gaze back to the water. You don’t know what kind of response you expected. Maybe an apology, maybe just silence. But that vague, self-soothing “right” somehow pisses you off more than either.
The tide rolls in and out again, steady as ever.
After a moment, you ask — voice even, deliberately uncurious — “What about you?”
He looks over. You can feel it. But you don’t meet his eyes.
“What about me?”
You tilt your head slightly. “How’s your life, Jungkook?”
There’s a pause, like he’s weighing whether or not this is a trap.
“It’s…” He drags out the word. “Fine.”
You glance at him briefly. “Wow. You’ve really evolved.”
He chuckles. “You set the tone. Thought we were keeping it short.”
You let out a quiet breath through your nose. “Just trying to get through the week, that’s all.”
“Right,” he says again. And for some reason, this one doesn’t irritate you as much.
He shifts his weight, drawing one knee up so he can rest an arm over it. “I've also been attending interviews and stuff. Still need to hear back from them.”
You nod.
“I moved,” he adds after a second. “Place near the river. Quiet.”
“You always said you hated the river.”
“I said I hated the smell.”
“Which comes from the river.”
He shrugs. “I like the quiet now.”
You hum like you don’t quite believe him.
The air’s cooled a bit, the heat of the day finally loosening its grip, and a breeze moves through just enough to lift strands of your hair. Above you, the sky is wide open — deep, dark, and dusted with stars. The kind of stars you never really see in the city.
You tilt your head back slightly, just to look at them. It’s the kind of sky that used to pull words out of you. That used to make both of you go quiet for good reasons. Stargazing had been your thing once — one of those low-effort dreams that somehow still meant everything.
It had even made it onto the bucket list you’d both scribbled out on a small piece of paper one night with a pink pen: “See the northern lights.” “Swim in a bioluminescent bay.” “Stargaze in the middle of nowhere.”
You wonder if he remembers. Part of you hopes he does. Part of you hopes he doesn’t.
You glance sideways. He’s staring at the water. The silence hangs — not awkward, just long. Heavy in a way that feels like a question waiting to be asked.
“I almost didn’t come,” he says eventually, eyes still on the water.
The words hit soft, but they land hard. You don’t say anything. Don’t even look at him. You just stay where you are, watching the water.
“I didn’t want to ruin it for everyone,” he adds after a moment, like that explains anything. Or everything.
You swallow thickly. You don’t know what to do with that — what to say to it — so you choose not to say anything at all. You push your hands into the sand beside you and stand up slowly, brushing off your shorts.
His voice follows you, barely above a whisper.
“But I figured... you’d be here.”
That stops you for half a second. Not because of what he says — those words are vague enough to mean anything — but because of who they’re coming from. You don’t turn around. You don’t give him the satisfaction of a response. You just stand there, staring at the water like it might offer you patience.
You hate how casual he says it. Like this was all some quiet inevitability. Like it wasn’t him who walked away.
Of course you’re here. You were always going to show up — for Kiara, for Taehyung, for your friends who matter to you. That part never changed. What did was him deciding, out of nowhere, that the two of you couldn’t work anymore.
That four years together was suddenly a dead end.
So what exactly was that supposed to mean? That he knew you’d come, like he still understood you better than anyone else? Or that he was counting on it?
You feel the words gather in your throat — sharp, instinctive, just on the edge of spilling out. But you swallow them down, pressing your lips together until they stop trying.
You give the ocean one last look, then turn and walk away, mumbling a simple, "I'm going to bed."
Your footsteps are soft in the sand, but your chest is loud with everything you wish you’d said. The lights from the house glow a dull yellow in the distance.
When you step inside, the kitchen’s still half-lit — someone probably left a lamp on over the sink — but the rest of the place is still. You don’t bother turning it off. You just move through the space as quick as you can, back to the room you’re supposed to share with him for the next week.
The door clicks shut behind you, and suddenly the quiet feels heavier than the sand you tracked in.
You don’t change. Don’t brush your teeth. Don’t bother pulling back the sheets. You just lie down on top of the covers, facing the window, the sound of the waves leaking in through the small crack you left open.
You try not to think about what he meant. About why he said it. About whether he meant anything at all.
Sleep doesn’t come easily.
You lie there with your eyes closed, but your mind won’t follow. You shift, restless, each turn in the sheets only dragging up memories you wish you could leave in the past — memories you thought you'd already left in the past.
Eventually though, your body gives in. Your thoughts quiet. Your breathing steadies.
You don’t hear the door when he finally comes in.
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u survive literally every single event in your life & still every time a new event happens you feel like this is the event that will kill you and that you will never move on from but actually you will continue to survive like you always have bc u have a 100% win rate of surviving events. btw