🏳️‍⚧️☠️🏳️‍🌈

[southernmost-queer-pirate]

The bed is warm,

But it's not your warmth.

7:30 am.

You never get up this early.

Five days I was gone.

This morning was for us.

Your shoulder's

Where my head should be.

I hear typing,

As you engage with another. 

I'm sad, but

Mostly just disappointed.

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Linkin Park

Naarm (Melbourne, AU)

March 8, 2026

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[happyheidi]

𝖣𝖾𝗇𝗆𝖺𝗋𝗄 𝗂𝗇𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗅𝗅𝗌 𝖿𝗅𝗈𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗐𝗂𝗅𝖽𝖿𝗅𝗈𝗐𝖾𝗋 𝗂𝗌𝗅𝖺𝗇𝖽𝗌 𝗂𝗇 𝗁𝖺𝗋𝖻𝗈𝗋𝗌 - 𝖼𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗌𝖺𝖿𝖾 𝗎𝗋𝖻𝖺𝗇 𝗌𝖺𝗇𝖼𝗍𝗎𝖺𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗌 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝖻𝗂𝗋𝖽𝗌 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝖻𝖾𝖾𝗌. x

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And as is the nature of that asshole we call depression, I'm feeling better.

Who doesn't love an emotional rollercoaster? 😭😬

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'AAAA DEPRESSION PICK ME UP'

I started a playlist to put on if I felt depression creeping in... somewhere between 2011 and 2015.

I haven't used it for ages but today it became painfully clear that it was time to take it for a spin.

These songs are so good at their job.

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Also the Southernmost Queer Witch. )O(

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Trying to focus on the bright side when it feels like your world is ending.

Heavy feels.

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It's nearly Christmas. In my state that means cherries. Except they're ridiculously expensive. Today I scored the last punnet of 'odd bunch' cherries for about 1/5 the usual price.

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Purple flower friends.

#purple #flowers #lavender #Convolvulussabatius #bluerockbindweed

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I've discovered a metamorphic contact aureole in my local area. The image of the most rocks/pebbles is the full collection of samples.

Pretties include agates, Carnelian, fossilised wood, Hornfels, Quartzite and other beauties.

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Before you, life was grey.

Life was grey, but I thought it was a light purple.

Before you, I was content.

I was content with my own company, and a life lived alone.

Before you, I thought I was happy.

I thought I was happy, and I thought I was living life.

Before you, there were others.

There were others who hurt me, who used me, who took but never gave.

Before you, I was exhausted.

I was exhausted from caring, forgiving, trying, hoping, and feeling like I could never find a partner who made me feel safe, special, or loved.

Before you, I gave up.

I gave up on the vision of a life lived in partnership, where I could feel safe, loved, and special.

Now I know what it is to live.

Now I picture a tall, gentle giant beside me in old age.

Now I feel special, loved, and safe.

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