Klinikē, or bedside, clinically. Praxis, non-theoretical garbage. We didn’t do it in the labo[u]ratory this time.
Vital heat exhaled during respiration at the cold room flurry, wherein the coffee cup is gazed at; too exhaling its vital heat toward the roofed heavens: there is not much difference between us. There are souls all around, usually exhaling.
In the hyper room. Little so hyper at the moment.
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Saw once the abandoned carpark and internally daydreamt to myself: could I be here at one point and film in static.
And this was done when eating tofu:
Klinikē, or bedside. From bedside.
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The enclosed space, or 20m2, it too was a daydream, but a different one. This one connected to a past future self. The sort who dreams in the day of the past self dreaming of futures.
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Lethargic, the cat did sleep. This nook feeling is sought after: The tiring attainment of hypersuite. Attainment is a near impossible task. And the daydreams surrounding the act become incessant; making matters difficult at times.
I can be let go like that. Although hard, it was and is done.
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[string of language = withered]
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Colourful bedside clinical. I was standing there, watching him sleep once, and saw the faint murmurs of his face perhaps seeing me seeing him. Vitreous blade, yahweh faced and went away.
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When it is bed time it is bed time. The proximity of the self under the sheets, and the prospect of nothing the next morning is refreshing. It is the nothing itself which is refreshing :: nothing is refreshing.
What it means bedside is the form of relaxation with the prospect of sleep ahead. Perhaps in this case the notion of faint death for a period of time (circa. 6.5 hours/7.5 hours). It is the gap between predetermined times which too cause that refreshing feeling. This can be returned to at a later time. (less than 6.5/7.5 hours hopefully).
The prospect of faint death ahead causes one to savour those succulent moments before sleep and the eyes are doubly weary by this point in time. It is now a dialogue between the living and the dead:
‘’He’s sickly, he’ll probably not live long.’ He thought again, with that sober objectivity into which the drunken ecstasy of desire sometimes strangely escapes’[1]
Faint death is luxurious and attractive at this point.
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The image of the stricken and disordered city, hovering wildly before his mind’s eye, inflamed him with hopes that were beyond comprehension, beyond reason and full of monstrous sweetness. What, compared with such expectations, was that tender happiness of which he had briefly dreamed a few moments ago? What could art and virtue mean to him now, when he might reap the advantages of chaos.[2]
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Although the city scape is now of a different character, its essence stays the same.
In the clinical mode of existence, this bedside world constantly tastes monstrous sweetness.
Akin, is the image of the being laid to rest deskside, and it is 2am: one of the loneliest times of existence. Reason is an unstable mode here.
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Aschenbach, bedside: the clinical trial.
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for knowledge […], has neither dignity nor rigour: it is all insight and understanding and tolerance, uncontrolled and formless; it sympathizes with the abyss.[3]
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The recline turned clinical – weary head laid to rest, and the daydreams appeared before. The prospect of sleep felt luxurious, as it leads toward the Dionysian abyss. Eros is here, smiling before me at the banquet as Socrates is sat next to me, where my infatuations made him blush indeed.
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I was led astray to my death of that day, or at least within those few hours[4] wherein the lack of dream-memory effects thus the abyss.
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My dreams laid bare by the bedside books, as they are touched upon; read differently from any other situation of literature reading. It is here that the prospect of reading literature here, as the book is placed upon an eschewed bedside table, and I think to myself before sleep ‘I shall make attempts at this page in my weary state’, wherein knowledge is faded; and understanding shifts horizontally: displaced upon the notion of other activities. To compartmentalise this idea, and compact it: thus this idea is repeated continuously as the lines are touched upon horizontally. The black marks lose their meaning of meaning, and are then supplemented. This is where language takes itself to the dream state of nocturnal ecstasy; nebulous.
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Head under the sheets; the refuge from bedroom gloomth, refuge clinical. Dreams in June, dreams in beige. Tofu as the canvas and too as the abstract idea. This situation is hypersuite and claims back the wake, momentarily. The waking moments and the subtle yellow light force the thoughts of the black marks etched into my own knowledge, then suffused by the nebulous nook-like ideas of Dionysian sleep-ecstasy.
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Then, travelling the miniscule world which appears large. Each scene is loud in the quietest way possible. Inside the refuge from the rain, and watching the environment from the cosy space, hypersuite to a certain extent.
This extent extends slightly, and the relief is the windows that appear as the canopies are raised to stay in their horizontal state. This is what a temporary home must seek to achieve. Mainly that the shelter protects from the rain, and that the rain could have appeared to demonstrate this.
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This all happens in the clinical flurry, as the night dreams take over the weary eyes and I thought to myself: this is a sweet dream.
There, I peered over the residual recto (however, in the opposite direction) to find a blank page.
This is the bedsheet, and has been for six months. The odour is drunken and familiar, and has faced the morning me, rebirthed.
In the day, I pass by my ghosted sleep-akin self where both are respectively suspended as watched: to each other. As the patient sleeps and the morning variations appear in constant motion. As this happens in flux, it becomes a microcosm to the viewer beyond the three-dimensional room, and the room itself is bedside.
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Published @ RIC Journal
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[1] Mann, Death in Venice
[2] ibid.
[3] Ibid.
[4] 1: Ah, I finally see what you mean Alexander. Death does indeed kill us momentarily.
Soybeen is an ongoing process. While slowly moving, it acts in great severity to itself as an empty space that wills itself to not be filled. While it may exist with its basic components, these are but a necessity to the forms they exist as and deviate not from their existence as such in the eyes of the viewer (should they wish to beckon themselves to its limits).
Exterior events relative to this space should not be taken into consideration as they act only as expressions of their own discourse, and budding soybean concepts lay dormant in the few scattered signs hidden in footnotes and should be nowhere else.
What may appear to indefinitely reference this space (as well as its components) should, as a work; the body of text, never hold within itself any credibility whatsoever. These should be seen for what they are: hollow mimics. For their actuality exists only as far as their penultimate punctuation marks. This would therefore act as a hermetic seal to the body in question, rendering any fragment that could be considered reference entirely obsolete. The character of these hollow mimics are likened to the stuffed animal. These items act to reflect the image of their real selves; representing an essence of such selves as to be held in loving arms whilst also causing only comfort for its beholder.
Such mimics clearly show only reduced depictions of what they are made to mimic, ergo should not physically be a fully accurate copy of what they are made to be, yet this does not stop the beholder from realizing what they are made to be and look like. What the soybeen works to do is also akin to this state. It will constantly hold the character of the naive copy, no matter the form. As it solely exists as this intended form, the question arises of what this mimic in fact intends to actually mimic. At present, this aporia is the nature of the soybeen.
For example, it may take the form of the moocow, the budding plant, or most notably the tofu. The latter of these forms is the prevalent actuality of soybeen, and is the most deceiving. It is these forms that make up the entire existence of the soybeen, yet its existence then becomes the embodiment of fallacy. Does this therefore mean that the soybeen itself is fallacy? Perhaps so. As a concept, the soybeen is based upon falsified components; a structure of lies.
It must be noted however that this was never the intended character of this concept. The pursuit of concepts otherwise invisible must have been the cause of this error in truth. Maybe this is what further made the character of this concept appear even more naive, due to its unintended result as a false concept, yet holding onto a droplet of intention. The constant of this droplet, taking the form of morning dew holds within itself 5 sextillion concepts, whether true or false, still in existence. As the droplet of dew stays there, it starts to become apparent that its truth and lack of truth begin to matter less and less. Perpetuating this is the fact that its environment is constantly in dew point, and this droplet will always be there. Yet, as the image will always have an eventual cut off point, so does the dewdrop; and even though it lives in constant dew point, its 5 sextillion concepts must eventually end, so must its existence. This is its weakness, and its proof that it will never be an adequate metaphor, and shows that nothing ever will.
This could be spun in a constant cycle, proving either that soybeen has truth, or doesn’t, yet what is the most apparent state of the soybeen is the fact that it is completely unattainable.
The hilled plains before the goose prince one early morning had etched in them two large gashes easily identifiable from afar, and was reckoned for him at a young age to be scoops of earth taken by higher beings, and now to him signified the words ‘Alveolar Prognathism, Caused By Thumb Sucking And Tongue Thrusting In A 7-Year-Old Girl.’
From mother goose’s linen room, sonata played soft. The goose prince with his elongated neck, presumed so from consanguinity.
Thick black plumage
Soft down, foie gras; another family with the habsburg jaw.
The piano melodies wafting throughout the room were to greatly affect the goose prince for many years. Until his death of 23, he was known to wander through the countless goose down rooms, warm from the colden days of long winters lasting mostly for 11 months. To those outside this derelict minus two small palace, they would often hear the goose prince bellowing these gracious melodies with a tinge of the colossal. What repulsed many listeners was the despairingly deep voice he used in order to sing these forlorn melodies.
- Little do they know how much I provide them with their goose down, he would sing to himself. And it was true because it was from him that 40% of goose down for their thick coats were indeed produced from the underbelly of his thick black plumage, as an offset of his soft down lining his glorious palace. He needn’t mind however. His supposed subjects were indeed grateful for his self-pluckage, and indeed saw it as a metaphor for his servitude which may be greatly esteemed for one in such power, or what may be evident. In part, as gracious thanks for his servitude to them, they would provide him with heaps and heaps of fine foods and sweetmeats. Fine foods and sweetmeats were expected to be eaten by the gracious goose prince, as mother goose sat in her linen room, humming her music to herself, blinded by consanguinity. By this time, the goose prince was quite filled with his food each day and continued his supply of supple down for warm coats, and indeed did the thankful subjects gift him more and more food.
o Fine meats and sweetmeats have adorned not only my estate, but my stomach no doubt, once exclaimed the goose prince, feeling the fine down of his inner feather, and a jaw much too protruded to indeed talk. It was this day he was being painted by his royal prince painter, too blind and told what to paint by dearest mother goose, who too blind, had a less protruded jaw that could enunciate words slightly better than her goosedown prince. She would sing to the blind royal painter what he should paint, and miraculously each year he did paint a portrait, they depicted a healthy growing boy with only a shortened long neck and a jaw easily accessible to the thankful populace. Each year the royal subjects in their goose feather lined coats would praise the portrait of their beautiful long necked prince as they would gaze upon his depiction displayed at the heart of the national gallery, now containing 23 hearts. On this 23rd year, the generous lifespan of the goose prince was to face and extraordinary ordeal, fitting only for a prince.
§ My feeding funnel is far too small at present for these fine foods and sweetmeats, cackled the goose prince, as he ate and ate the fine foods subjects of all walks heartily provided for their down provider. Mother, dearest mother goose, what am I to do, he asked his rather confused mother. She sat in her plain chair, rooms away in linen, and this day was rather more confused than usual. Her quacks were squalls this day, with tears in her blinded eyes as her withered mind lost itself in confusion, unsure how to help her dearest love. The prince’s patience wore thin this day and he did not know what to do. Mother goose was in a pitiful state, and ached severely in her plain chair.
· Mother goose, please, he said with grit of the sausage paste funnelling down his thickened throat. The lump in his throat was not known whether to be a thickened glottis before a teary repose, or the density of the food he was expected to eat on a daily basis. Tired this day of funnelling the blended fine foods and sweetmeats down his swollen throat, he made the attempt to comfort his distressed mother goose and acted to push away the fine food funnel: the sign of ultimate servitude. Its mechanical arm retorted, swinging from the high ceiling with such violence as to eagerly revolve into the gate-facing window. Its collision with the window caused such a crash as to alert nearby subjects, to whom, with much respect given, acted quickly to aid their prince in supposed danger. Storming with reverence the repose of the goose prince and his dear mother, the people found their way through the grievous halls of their down provider. During this time, the goose prince, fraught by the tremendous crash of the window, frenzied at the sight of the gavage now with no fowl, saw the royal food stuffs pouring within and without its walls. What remained within puddled the polished floor, causing the prince to slip in its wet body. At his fall, he severely injured his chin, stemming from a frightfully elongated neck, full of sausage fat. It took him little time to choke on what remained there, and his final breath let out a loud sigh.
o For the swansong emits within the vicinity, spake the subjects as they swarmed to their prince’s sigh. To them, they found a wrinkled boyish body, sat peacefully on a plain chair, piano side.
§ For he is here! They exclaimed! They rushed toward their alleged liege; an acute image that has adorned the walls of their gallery for 23 years. To their amazement, he was to babble forth with a high-pitched voice, and saw foam from the mouth, dribbling into the sloppy puddle of scents including fine treats and sweetmeats which merged with a conjoining room. Rather confused and remarkably frightened, they first ignored the sloppy puddle and assumed their prince was suffering a form of cardiac arrest, so spared no time to undo his lounge wear[1]. To a stupendous surprise, they found no dying heart, but instead a sagging bosom, which began to palpitate in an increasingly violent rate. Naturally fraught at the feeling of being undressed by a lowly mob, mother goose took quite a turn which ironically resulted in cardiac arrest. For now, she was left alone, as during this time, the people understood the situation clearly, which was the fact that this individual was indeed not their beloved goose prince, and instead a member of the royal court bearing a likeness of clarity, implying this was either a twin of their adored prince, or a very close relative; better yet the prince’s dearest mother, as one of the subjects suggested, to the agreement of the others. Upon this deliberating, they then went forth and followed the stench of the thick puddle toward a glorious goosedown room. At its centre was the awful sight of a fattened goose prince chocked on their own foods, provided for his prosperity. Alarmed and distraught (foremost at the fact he looked nothing akin to his portraits), the people swiftly gathered around the fattened body of their goosedown prince. As his cadaver was still rather fresh, the people took to their usual ceremony of preparing their liege’s large body for the feast, and a fine foie gras it was; one for the gander. One problem persisted from this demise however: the now lack of down for the comforting thick coats to protect from colden winters. They however, learned patience from this experience, and kept faith that another revered goose would arrive to them, as the cycle of nature ordained.
[1] Side Seamless Double Gauze Pajamas, Grey Pattern, XS
Seamless for comfort. Soft to touch. Made of organic cotton.
Deep night, as the sky itself is marooned above the earth, and this is why; as children see the illuminated billboards glowing in fog.
this brings back to one remembering their halcyon days deep in the digital, hearing dial up on a regular basis afterschool club post computer session, except this was done alone, with no digital incarnations and especially no acquaintances.
This is why, sometimes when you sleep, you would like to imagine the inner digital world, beneath the dim screen of 2am and touch inside the sparse clarity of data
The figure gets engulfed in the process of images proceeding each other ad infinitum, leaving the viewer with images that should not be imagined.
Deep in the hentai hole at this point. It’s nothing special by now, forged from habit, and now self-induced sheer necessity. A filthy room for trashmen, and thank god for zero waste.
It was put there for something to do, and when it went so did something to do.
Picking up titty mags from the trash heap, causation of the translucent green bag ripped, trash men take a few minutes to look through them but feeling nothing because their wives know what they’re doing.
Picking up waste from the waste bags: the trashmen dreamed this each day they were out of a job.
Hey what’s that: it’s a trashman without a job.
Damn, she said as she put the paper down. It was a recent academic paper on the role of trashmen after all the trash went from the world. Daamn, she said to her friends as they were all sipping on mugs - it was indeed a world with no trash. I’m p glad they got rid of trash, but whatre these trashmen going to do now?
The surrounding people are too absorbed in their own academic papers, editing the ones they wrote and proof reading for their colleagues, she thought to herself before talking, and especially before enacting the prior scenario as a physical manifestation.
Did you see what recently happened to the trashmen? One of her colleagues stated, and with such excitement for this topic, one of her colleagues stated as he was reading out the extract within one of the academic papers.
Daammn, she thought it was pretty cool that one of her colleagues is currently also on the topic of trashmen today, so she said to them she thought it was pretty cool that one of her colleagues is currently on the topic of trashmen, she said.
His was a rather enunciated nature, or so to speak, and he found it best in most situations to read out what he is currently reading, in a quiet tone of course. It was never intrusive and acted as pleasant background noise for their study session.
im going to the toilet she said
ok he said, as he was quietly reading aloud.
She gets up and makes her way to the toilet.
There is a fragrance in the air, masking urine. The smelly by-product is but a necessity and is human trash which cannot be rid of. Daaammn, she thought about that for a second and realized that trashmen could find jobs in the urine industry, or in general, the human waste industry. However, if all the trashmen were to get jobs in this industry, the current people within said industry would either struggle to cope with the influx of competition or would be replaced. Daaammmn.
There’s never an adequate solution. The world must be in a fixed state which was written on the cubicle door as she sat there waiting for the urine to happen. It was weird because that was the only graffiti on a seemingly clean and clear toilet. She did however notice a small hole above her, to what would be jaw level if she were standing, on the wall to the adjoining cubicle. When the urine ended, she looked through and noticed some less appropriate graffiti.
Is that a gloryhole she asked herself, backing away. A janitor’s voice responded no, explaining that each cubicle needed a peeping hole due to unwanted graffiti, which made sense because there wasn’t too much graffiti there and the method seemed to be working. That is, if the janitor was there constantly, which, luckily for the sake of the toilet, she seemed to be.
She exited the toilet with the assurance that there would be less graffiti in the world if there were holes in each conceivable wall.
T: The furniture stays silent. This furniture cannot see, naturally, yet notices more white than black’s paw at the window once more. And so the furniture who wants to move doesn’t move closer.
Please let me in says the cat, and the furniture says it really cannot do that and the mewing grows more sorrowful as each mew goes on and thus does the furniture recite to the cat a small story[1] which is recited to no avail.
[1] It was in the month of june that two cats climbed over the brown fence of a garden, while one of them was already there. This is because the cats shared a single tail; yet unhindered by it, as if they were two separate cats. The one cat was named June, who was white and black, however, the other cat was Felix, who was instead black and white. Each cat possessed their own unique personality as though they owned their own tails; June wanted only warmth and sleep, while Felix was filled with curiosity. The tail mattered less and less to them, yet it was still there and both cats realized they only had one tail that was shared. The furniture gazed upon them, perceiving what they were doing. June was desperate to gain entrance to furniture’s sanctuary; mewmewmewmewmmewmewmewmewmewmewmewmewmewmewmew and he climbed what he could to touch the skirting of the windowpane with his very own sound waves that belonged wholly to him, even though he shared a tail with another. He climbed an array of recycling containers that stuck to him, causing a great amount of distress to furniture who could not gain any intelligence on the situation, let alone perceive what was happening because furniture has no senses: everybody knows that. It was at that moment a mouse made an appearance, much to the delight of June, however, a mouse has no part in this story, therefore made itself scarce. However, during this story, June took great delight in playing with the mouse, climbing down into the garden with the mouse in his mouth, muffling his meows. He then drops the mouse onto the pebbles so playfully watch the mouse escape as he taps it here and there. The mouse finds refuge beneath one of the recycling boxes, however at that moment, June, along with the rest of the characters realize that it would be impossible for the mouse to do that as the recycling boxes are in fact stuck to June, therefore June continues to aggravate the attention of whoever is inside, when at that moment the furniture tells June that it is unable to let him in as there were complaints from neighbours regarding the feeding of cats that did not belong to those whom they were feeding, although this was a preposterous letter. June failed to understand because furniture is unable to communicate with anything at all, resulting in a continuation of June’s demands. During this time, felix manages to successfully litter, cover it, and pass-by almost unnoticed, which becomes the same as being seen. F: this is new
J: ⁿ
T: If you let me sleep, my dreams will be beige
J: And you will be here no longer for some time
T: And so shall you
F: For more time
T: I’m sorry but it may be time for you to leave
J: But I haven’t entered yet
T: Subtle yellow light
F: Watches, closer
J: Instead, allow for a concept[2]
T: What a perfect performance. If I could clap I would. Furniture that cannot clap cannot enjoy a concept as it cannot be applauded. There was no concept, in conclusion.
J: ⁿ
T: Look, it’s night time
F: Can u see
J: Where is our tail
F: Here is mine, there is yours
T: And mine?
J: Forever connected as an invisible sign. Four legs which are indeed too heavy apparently. Is this why you can’t move?
F: Indeed, this is too heavy
T: Waste little time with me, it is night time.
J: I should like to if I could be allowed entry.
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F: ⁿ
T: The monkeys are howling at the moon no doubt
J: It is not the moon I ⁿ at no doubt
T: Then a song it is. How marvellous. I dearly desire to have enjoyed it
J: And may your dreams be beige
[2] This is not a play, but instead a close study of the functions of 22:34<
Thus no actor is required
Yet there are issues as to who shall press the cafetiere, but it is of no dire interest as of yet
Cafetiere, pressed for 20 seconds, getting gradually slower
Coffee is poured until just over half of the cafetiere is emptied
Aromatic scent, yet grainy and tastes disgusting
Amplified to a distorted level
White cup, wide, with light shining on it from left, dimly lit
Pen laid alongside it, puddle of ink forming
This is not a play, but instead a close study of the functions of 22:34<
Thus no actor is required
Yet there are issues as to who shall press the cafetiere, but it is of no dire interest as of yet
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