Writhe

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[spacewizardazrid]

Help an impoverished trans woman my links: cshapp vnmo

[spacewizardazrid]

I ever tell y'all I took a mythic dose of acid as a 2 year old?

[auramgold]

a lot of people assume psychosis hallucinations are super intense all-consuming horror movie shit like the memes about the hat man or always horrible debilitating things that make you dangerous to be around

but in my experience 95% of my hallucinations are getting spooked by very clearly hearing someone knocking on my door or calling my name from another room or hearing footsteps walking behind me which are "just" my brain recreating the horror of an abusive childhood

i *have* gotten the "bugs crawling all over me" hallucination once or twice though and yeah that one is exactly as terrible horrible as it sounds AUGH

[auramgold]

(not trying to put you on blast specifically, you're just a good example to jump off of)

media and pop culture hypes up psychosis a lot as The Worst That Can Happen out of sanism, so even when you try and filter that cultural bias out you still assume it's based on something

when, no, psychosis is actually very simple: it's just hyperactive pattern matching. it's your brain's signal-to-noise ratio being off balance, it's seeing images in random static. it's not always this special uniquely big thing, it's in fact quite mundane a lot of the time.

no one is immune to psychosis, it's not purely the realm of the insane. anyone is one bad night of sleep or one bad case of food poisoning or one bad fever away from being just like me on my worst days.

and this, indeed, is why solidarity with the insane is so important: you, yes you too, are just one bad day from joining us, and no perceptions of being a "temporarily embarrassed sane person" will save you from the oppression of the psychiatric institution.

[futchlings]

If you could tell it was psychosis and not actual very easily and consistently, it wouldn't be scary. You can't! You can use reality-checking skills and think through things, but it feels very real and believable. A lot closer to media depictions of scared stoner than media depictions of "crazy" people.

[auramgold]

a lot of people assume psychosis hallucinations are super intense all-consuming horror movie shit like the memes about the hat man or always horrible debilitating things that make you dangerous to be around

but in my experience 95% of my hallucinations are getting spooked by very clearly hearing someone knocking on my door or calling my name from another room or hearing footsteps walking behind me which are "just" my brain recreating the horror of an abusive childhood

i *have* gotten the "bugs crawling all over me" hallucination once or twice though and yeah that one is exactly as terrible horrible as it sounds AUGH

[auramgold]

(not trying to put you on blast specifically, you're just a good example to jump off of)

media and pop culture hypes up psychosis a lot as The Worst That Can Happen out of sanism, so even when you try and filter that cultural bias out you still assume it's based on something

when, no, psychosis is actually very simple: it's just hyperactive pattern matching. it's your brain's signal-to-noise ratio being off balance, it's seeing images in random static. it's not always this special uniquely big thing, it's in fact quite mundane a lot of the time.

no one is immune to psychosis, it's not purely the realm of the insane. anyone is one bad night of sleep or one bad case of food poisoning or one bad fever away from being just like me on my worst days.

and this, indeed, is why solidarity with the insane is so important: you, yes you too, are just one bad day from joining us, and no perceptions of being a "temporarily embarrassed sane person" will save you from the oppression of the psychiatric institution.

[futchlings]

If you could tell it was psychosis and not actual very easily and consistently, it wouldn't be scary. You can't! You can use reality-checking skills and think through things, but it feels very real and believable. A lot closer to media depictions of scared stoner than media depictions of "crazy" people.

[memorycycle]

(to the tune of working on the railroad) iiive been working on the railrooad

[depsidase]

[niyarest]

i just woke up and I'm listening to recording of last night's karaoke stream and i can't stop happy stimming like I'm gonna explode i love singing and streaming and talking to everyone and singing and singing and singing

[niyarest]

i only started learning how to sing 4 years ago when i was 26 i thought a thousand times that it's too late for me and I'm cooked and now I'm primarily a karaoke vtuber never kill yourself

[powerburial]

[angelicguy]

people who are obsessed with IQ would buckle if there was a number associated with how pleasant you are to interact with

[disgustinggf]

[demilypyro]

It'd be really funny if Jax thought Caine was "beaming Trans thoughts into her head", and realizes they keep coming now that Caine is gone.

Jax: why does Caine keep making me want to be a girl what does he stand to gain from that

Pomni:

Zooble:

Ragatha:

Gangle:

Kinger:

Caine who has not been doing that:

[depsidase]

[kat-in-a-trashcan]

shout out to my local hot topic with this display in the window

[lemonsweet]

Do you remember the episode of Spongebob where he's training gary for the snail race and does a coach persona + calls gary a girl and has an aside where he's like "I called you a lady to demean you 🤓" and right after he says that it cuts to sandy and she somehow telepathically feels that Spongebob just did something misogynistic and us like I feel like I need to kick Spongebobs ass for some reason. And then she appears just at the end of the episode to kick his ass.

[ppgirl420]

i long to be yearned for out loud, to be prized and shown off, to be something one is proud to be seen with

[kaban-bang]

do you think Casca ever had girl kissing thoughts

[resident-idiot-simp]