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Honestly I kind of really love what Steven Universe has done with Rose Quartz - setting her up as this deified, idolized, selfless, flawless martyr and then gradually stripping all that away, breaking it down and revealing her to be just as flawed as anyone else, and not in a cheap Oh-She-Was-Secretly-Evil-All-Along way either, no. She was someone who acted with the best of intentions most of the time, who THOUGHT she was doing the right thing, but still ended up fucking things up for a LOT of people through her impulsiveness and the lack of perspective her background gave her

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i’m planning on making a video that’ll go over the vague implications of C-PTSD throughout the entirety of the steven universe, but in the mean time, i can NOT GET OVER MY NOTES.

s1

- never knew his mom but will forever live in her shadow - steven doesnt feel valued as a crystal gem/doesnt feel like he IS a crystal gem - everything he knows, he knows from the gems but he is constantly left in the dark - people pleaser!!! constantly puts everybody before himself (including safety)

s2

- people pleasing - “i am my mom???” - save the planet earth. - magical destiny - slowly gaining control of his powers - ‘am i human?? am i gem??’

s3

- mission: befriend peridot and lapis. - mission: stop the cluster - peak people pleasing moments - finally learning about the world, and its a very dark and bleak past. - 'i will NEVER be rose quartz, but i’ll never stop trying to be just LIKE her’

s4

- “my mom is a BAD PERSON???? - "who is my mom really? whats the truth? - homeworld is a very fucked up place!! - steven feels he HAS to take responsibility for the war his mom started - he truly thinks that owning up to what his mom did IS his 'magical destiny.’

s5

~did i mention people pleasing yet~ -”………..why was i born….“ - stevonnie 4 ever <3 - FEEL GOOD FEEL GOOD DO GOOD DO GOOD REPAIR THE DAMAGE I CAUSED QUICK FAST BEFORE ANYBODY NOTICED SOMETHING TRAUMATIC HAPPENED - "holy fuck my mom was pink diamond” - “ayo can we like, fix the damage the diamonds caused pls and thanks? that’d be great” - “i’m not my mom :’) i’m me :’)”

STEVEN UNIVERSE: MOVIE

- “hey can everybody leave me alone :)? no:)? thanks :)??” - “oh man i suck a lot w/out powers” - “my mom sucks in a DIFFERENT context wtf oh my god” - it goes to show that even to this day, steven gets a majority of his information from the crystal gems. Them being gone, and him not having powers really reiterates how helpless he used to (and currently) is - “lets pretend bad things dont happen” - happily ever after = i can make a change (PEOPLE PLEASING!!!!! IM CRYING)

STEVEN UNIVERSE: FUTURE

- steven needs help!!!! - pink-boy traumaaaa - “if i ignore my problems they dont exist :)” - can’t move on - steven literally can’t say no to people, he’s too busy trying to fix them - compartmentalization king! - “never gonna address my past ☺” - massive problems with change - wont address his emotions - 0 healthy coping mechanisms - developing trust issues around talking about his emotions with ANYBODY - didn’t get to be a normal kid - terrified of being left behind - wont ask for help - CONSTANTLY set up for failure! - steven slowly isolating himself from EVERYONE - DISSOCIATIONNNNNN AND DEREALIZATION I SCREAM AHKJDSHFKSJDFHKJSD - violent (destrucive) behavior - heavy implication with fragments isnt just that he’s killing white but literally that he’s killing himself too so liiiiike