Alyssa

imagine a gay person and that is me

[vividaway]

Title: Case File: Us Vs. Them

Chapters: 46/46

Words: 61,098

Fandom: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Relationships: Dan Howell/Phil Lester

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, Lawyer!Dan Howell, Dan Howell Is Not A YouTuber, Hurt Dan Howell, YouTuber Phil Lester, Lawyers, Angst with a Happy Ending, Awkwardness, Accidental Bonding, Characters Being Bad at Feelings, Dan Howell is Bad at feelings, Love Confessions, Legal Confessions, Crushes, Mutual Pining, Drama & Romance, Falling In Love, Denial of Feelings, Awkward Flirting, Bad Flirting, Eventual Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, Jealousy, Jealous Dan Howell, Making Out, No Smut, Oblivious Phil Lester, POV Third Person, Romance, Teasing, Unresolved Romantic Tension, Slow Build, Slow Burn, Fluff and Angst, Domestic Fluff, Domestic Boyfriends, Not Beta Read, Completed

Summary: Dan Howell built his career on winning. So when he’s assigned to a lawsuit against Phil Lester, a creator accused of breaking contracts, it should be easy. It isn’t.

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[vividaway]

Hey there :3 hope it’s okay I found you on tumblr but I just wanted to reach out after reading your last chapters of Case File: Us vs. Them and I really wanted to thank you for it. I’ve left a couple comments, including that super long one lol, but I wanted to actually reach out

You started uploading at a time where work was really hard for me, I was completely burnt out (funnily enough, being ADHD makes it really hard to be motivated by anything but crisis but being autistic makes it really easy to get burnt out by chronic stress). Alongside going to therapy, this fic really completely changed my outlook on work and how much of my self identity I was placing on constantly being “busy” and overloading myself at work. I actually ended up getting in trouble at work because of how burnt out I was, I made a really shitty decision out of sheer panic. Reading through the court case that Dan prepared for Phil made me realize how much my work was expecting absolute perfection while my working conditions quickly deteriorated and I had next to no oversight or support. I was actually able to some passages from Case File to defend myself and keep myself from getting in too much trouble.

You also helped me realize that I’m actually far less emotionally available than I thought I was, I’ve spent the better part of three years assuming that I’m actually really emotionally available and that all of my past relationships were due to my exes’ emotional avoidance. Turns out, I have just as much of an avoidant attachment style, I just also have an incessant need to try to control how the relationship goes so that things don’t end poorly. Despite my need to “fix things” before they break actually causing more issues than just genuinely being present and vulnerable in the relationship and allowing things to unfold as they naturally will.

All in all, this fic was a huge catalyst for a giant amount of change for me, both personally and professionally. I genuinely don’t know if I would’ve been able to figure it out so quickly if it wasn’t for you. So thank you, I never thought that a phanfic could have such a huge difference in my life.

<3

Tori

THIS MEANS SO MUCH TO ME. knowing that i was even a small piece in helping your mental health is such an important thing for me as a writer, because thats WHY i write-- to affect people in a multitude of ways. i like portraying dan and phil as different people with different traits sometimes, because that's the most exciting part of figuring them out as people, and in turn, figuring ourselves out as people through them.

I like to include a lot of my special interests in my fanfics, and one of those interests is psychology. I know dan and phil arent educated in psychology the same way, but i guess i like to make them socially aware of themselves, despite the fact that dan irl needed YEARS OF THERAPY to process what he's been through. its hard to NOT include psychology into my fics, because i'm changing the characters so much. i've been accused of ai simply for ~not being in character~ and that i should add an "out of character" tag but i chose not to because in the end, the character progression ENDS with Dan and Phil. my last fic i wrote was a trans!dan fic and was essentially asked for more fluff because it was almost TOO psychology focused.

[lose-your-fuckin-illusion]

[cpericardium]

hey everyone "I" have something to show "you"

[cpericardium]

[cpericardium]

[roguebots]

How it started:

How it's going:

[lifesgrandparade]

I want you guys to all start making a bigger stink about Tumblr's Age Verification Horseshit.

[lifesgrandparade]

Like they tried to change Reblogs and people rightfully got up in arms, this is a LOT worse. In order to have access to any sort of thing dubbed mature, and We haveALL seen what they think is mature, Everything from a black and white photo of a black woman's arm, to posts about IUD recalls, to a nude painted by a 17th century artist, to anything involving the word Trans; you have to send your personal information to a third party site that WILL get hacked, and you will be doxxed. And they can say "Oh shit, well it wasn't us who sent your name address and gender identity to Moldovan teenagers, here's a couple extra minutes in the ball pit.

That's bad enough!!!!!!!! But the entire idea of needing permission from state authorities to access anything labeled mature by our friendly AI overlords is some fucking Boll shit. Die Gedenken Sind Frie baby. This is all a reaction to people getting uppity about their lowly lowly rights and is being propped up by the same bad actors tht have made life unlivable. Fuck that shit.

"Well it's only being rolled out in Brazil and UK" Yeah, to start. "Well they're being forced to do this by laws." YOu know it's always really funny when these tech giants (Or whatever you call owning tumblr dot com) get really antsy about laws considering they pick and choose which ones they abide by.

This is a breaking point and it's going to be very interesting to see how we proceed from here.

[teh-nos]

i get this now and it won't let me click through to any 'mature' blogs :(

[hylianengineer]

Where's the fucking. The form. The fucking form. Hang on, lemme find it.

Tumblr is a place to express yourself, discover yourself, and bond over the stuff you love. It's where your interests connect you with your

This! Please fill out this! Select "Feedback" and fill out the form! They won't necessarily be paying attention to us complaining in posts, but they will read these forms!

[creatureprofessor]

i love when museums have near exact replicas of their displayed objects for you to buy. haha 15th century ceramic cup you are in my possession

[bitextualdisaster]

Went to a museum exhibit once that had this little guy

10/10, give me tiny replicas of animal statues that I am encouraged to pat as part every exhibit ever please

[justoothamlikethat]

There’s so many injustices in the world… And one of them is not enough people recognize Sing 2 for the masterpiece that it is.

[vividaway]

guys its happening

[vividaway]

Title: I Was ALWAYS Him

Chapters: 37/37

Fandom: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome

Words: 47,983

Rating: Mature

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Relationships: Dan Howell/Phil Lester

Additional Tags: FTM, Female To Male, Trans, Trans!Dan Howell, Transphobia, Homophobia, Accepting Phil Lester, Phil Lester Means Well, Domestic Dan Howell/Phil Lester, Angst With A Happy Ending, Angst, Mature For Language And Slurs, Slurs, Body Dysphoria, Confessions, Crying, Mild Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt, Alternate Universe - Gender Changes, I'm Sorry, Idiots In Love, Mental Health Issues, Depression, POV Male Character, Trigger Warning, Slow Build, Miscommunications, Not Beta Read

Summary: Dani Howell has spent twenty four years almost fitting. She is close enough to be seen, but never close enough to be real. There is a version of her the internet loves, and there is a version of herself that can't stand her own reflection. His own reflection. It started quietly, and now, it's a life that begins to feel stolen.

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[vividaway]

Title: Saved By Daniel Howell

Chapters: 55/55

Fandom: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome

Words: 75,033

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Relationships: Dan Howell/Phil Lester

Additional Tags: Adopted By, Adopted, Gay Phil Lester, Queer Dan Howell, Broken Bird, Hurt/Comfort, Trauma, Friends To Enemies, Past Abuse Mentions, Autism Spectrum, Autistic Characters, YouTube, Fame, Music, Dan Howell And Phil Lester Are Parents, I Wrote This At 14 And Finished It At 24

Summary: Brooklyn's life was supposed to be simple. Just one test left before school's over, a small, loyal fanbase that understood her music, and a quiet life behind the scenes of her famous parents. But when her songs go viral, things spiral fast. The spotlight's too bright, the world too loud, and when an ex leaks her private life, everything she's worked to keep hidden comes crashing down. a tumultuous story about finding yourself after everything has been taken from you.

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[vividaway]

Title: Adopted By Daniel Howell

Chapters: 51/51

Fandom: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome Words: 90,571

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Relationships: Dan Howell/Phil Lester

Additional Tags: Adopted By, Adoption, Gay Phil Lester, Queer Dan Howell, Hurt/Comfort, Trauma, Enemies To Lovers, Drug Use, Past Child Abuse, Therapy, School, Musical References, Cute Dan Howell/Phil Lester, Dan Howell And Phil Lester Are Soulmates, Dan Howell And Phil Lester Are Parents, Recreational Drug Use, Autism Spectrum, Autistic Characters, YouTube, Kidfic, I Wrote this At 13 And Finished It At 23

Summary: It's 2015. The world is loud, the lights are too bright, and everything feels like too much. Except for Dan and Phil's flat. She doesn't talk about Isabella, and she definitely doesn't talk about the way Amber left. But now, she's got a room of her own, two soft-hearted internet nerds who call themselves her guardians, and a school theatre production she's trying not to panic about. She's weird. She knows that. She feels everything too much. She gets stuck in her own head, and sometimes she forgets how to be "normal." Maybe she's broken. Or maybe she's just never had the space to figure herself out. A quiet story about found family, healing, and the bittersweet chaos of being fourteen and trying to feel real again.

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[vividaway]

Title: Stitched Together

Chapters: 40/40

Fandom: Thomas Sanders, Sanders Sides

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Words: 53,416

Additional Tags: Foster Family, Found Family, Domestic Angst, Domestic Fluff, Fluff With Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Anxiety Attacks, Anxiety Disorder, References To Depression, Depression, Patton Sanders And Emile Picani Are Siblings, Sympathetic Patton Sanders. Protective Patton Sanders, Anxious Virgil Sanders, Virgil Sanders Needs A Hug, Hurt Virgil Sanders, Autistic Logan Sanders, Roman Sanders And Remus Sanders Have A Good Relationship, Sympathetic Remus Sanders, Janus Sanders Is A Sweetheart, Not Beta Read

Summary: In a quiet suburb, warm-hearted therapist Patton Sanders opens his home to five troubled foster kids. As he helps them heal from their pasts, they slowly begin to form the unlikeliest kind of family: the kind you pick up along the way.

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[vividaway]

Title: Birds Of A Feather

Chapters: 1/1 Words: 5835

Fandom: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Relationships: Dan Howell/Phil Lester

Additional Tags: Dan Howell Is A Goose, Phil Lester Is A Duck, Dan Howell And Phil Lester Are Soulmates, Ducks, Geese, Forbidden Love, Goose Homophobia, Gay Swan IS The Reader, Angst, Angst With A Happy Ending, Duck Angst, Happy Ending, Dan And Phil Choose Each Other In EVERY Universe

Summary: Dan is a dramatic goose, Phil is a calm duck, and somehow that’s a problem. They’re not supposed to matter to each other but they do.

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[vividaway]

Title: Lost And Found Chapters: 43/43

Words: 171,577

Fandom: Original Works

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con

Relationships: Alexandria Gray/Oliver Haven

Additional Tags: Addiction, Broken Bird, Hurt/Comfort, Slow Burn, Mentions Of Self Harm, Mentions Of Sexual Assault, Eventual Relationship, Luxury Lifestyle, Original Characters, Violence, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Eventual Smut, Eventual Happy Ending, May Have Been Inspired By A Daydream

Summary: Alexandria Gray's started out her day simple every morning. She woke up, grabbed a pot of coffee, and found herself walking towards the theatre to get to work. Brushing out her long blonde curls, she realized she was living an above average lifestyle with her job as an up-and-coming singer. Lately, however, things have changed. Alex and her boyfriend, Everette, have been having some problems. Everette was always scheming, and he was doing no better when he got Alex into the trouble that she currently found in. You see, when Alexandria woke up this morning, she found herself sat in a hospital bed and gown. When she tried to find out more information, she quickly learned that she had been in an accident, one where she had lost all her memories of the last two years, including between her long time rival Oliver Haven. Apparently there was more to her own story than meets the eye. After finding herself careening down 20 floors from the hotel building, Alex came to find that she wasn't just an up-and-coming singer, but a full fledged musician with a stable career and fanbase. Navigating this would be difficult, and Alex had to figure out, what did Everette truly mean to her, and was Oliver a safe person to trust?

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[nevver]

Glimmerati, Claudia Keep

[teashoesandhair]

I'm in a writing workshop and someone just asked the best question I've ever heard: "at the risk of sounding like I'm in the latest series of Bridgerton, how would you define a climax?"