i was attempting to message everyone here to discuss things with them privately because that seemed a better way to have that kind of a discussion, if only so that i could be talking to people specifically, and not in general, but it wasn't working and ask space is limited so here goes this instead
until this post, no one who felt they were directly affected by this came to me. had they done so, i would have attempted to have this conversation and explain myself/do whatever was possible to ease the upset.
i take plagiarism really really seriously, as i'm someone who has been on the opposite end of it multiple times in the past. i know what a terrible and sickening feeling it is to feel as though your work has been taken and i would never, ever wish that on anybody else, much less be someone who would cause that feeling in another.
to disgustednoise, i had seen variations on the character: *exists* me: thank you post in numerous fandoms. (i will gladly find and provide examples if you wish! i just want to reply to this sooner rather than later!) i had honestly believed it to be a meme. if this belief was erroneous on my part, then i am truly sorry. i thought it was a joke meme that could be spread as memes are--with variations on it that differed vis-a-vis characters and fandoms. but again, if this was erroneous, then i am sorry, and i will gladly delete the post. is it not a more general meme?
to queercyberpunk, i liked multiple posts about cullen after the revelation that he had at first been intended to be a bisexual love interest. many people have been stating the queer rogues and straight chantry folk posts for years now. i wanted to make my own post on it because i felt it was an important thing for me, as someone who has struggled with understanding their own sexuality and representations thereof in media, to try to put into words. you put it into words better than i did. i sincerely hope you didn't get the number of hate messages i received for having made the post based on its content. again, it's truly a point that i know others have made time and time again, for years, and far better than i did in that post. your post was one of them. i was attempting to work out my own thoughts on that matter, but as above, the last thing i want is to make anyone experience discomfort in any way?
to techapocalypse, i will post the screencaps i took of when i was contacted not by you but by w-arden, who i take it is a friend, though i never received follow-up from them or any messages from you.
to jeanmarcstroud, i attempted to send you an ask, not anonymously, but it did not work. i will say again what i said there:
hi there! i was only just made aware of the post that is going around. so i wanted to say that i saw your post about david gaider lowering you into your grave. i also saw, sometime before that, another post about project partners in college lowering someone into their grave to disappoint them one last time. i had assumed that this was a meme and turned it to one that i thought suitable and funny with shepard. however, it upsets me horribly to think that this has upset you. [1/2]
it was not something that i copied from you but rather something that i truly at the time believed to be a meme due to multiple fandom and non fandom variations on that structure, and thought it would be humorous to do a version of it with shepard. does this make sense? the last thing that i want, however, is for anyone to feel upset or uncomfortable due to my actions, so let me know what i can do beyond this explanation. [2/2]
again, if there is more that i can discuss with people separately, one on one, please feel free to message me. the only persons with whom i spoke about this because they came to me were w-arden, the entirety of whose conversation i have shown above, and @antillles, who posted on an anon community with caps of our conversation but never continued to engage with me. that is it. those are the only people i have received contact from and both conversations ended with my responses.
when it comes to writing, i would never knowingly copy or plagiarize anyone. if i believed something to be a meme, as in my explanations above, but was misunderstanding the nature of meme culture and how memes evolve, then seriously, i AM sorry, and i will do whatever i can do to make it right. that would require being spoken to, though, and if you want to talk to me about it further, please do. if not, that is your prerogative to do so. there are, i am certain, people who are determined to think the worst of me, and i'll do my best to make peace with that.
but again, as i said in an above reply, i wouldn't be able to live with myself if i was the sort of person who would "take" someone else's intellectual property over tumblr text posts. i really wouldn't. i will certainly be more circumspect about what i post in the future. something that i believed was fun, silly meme stuffs on the internet, would hardly be so if it was upsetting others.