words from the soul

you are loved kailie | 22 | taurus | she/her

[thoughtkick]

“Forgive me if I don’t talk much at times. It’s loud enough in my head.”

— Unknown

[spilllingmymind]

[spilllingmymind]

can’t break a broken heart

[spilllingmymind]

i would feel nothing if you told me now that there was nothing between you and i. everyone surrounding me believes that i will get hurt, yet i don’t believe i can be hurt further. you can’t break the heart of a girl who is already broken, i don’t expect commitment or feelings. simply put, i am just living content.

[spilllingmymind]

i fear i will never learn to trust again. the thought of giving you the power to destroy me causes my heart to go weary. to imagine i knock the guards down just to have what’s mine defenceless again. i will not let you in unless you are willing to carry frail pieces of the soul ive been hiding. i wish to help you find your way through your war proclaimed reality but i will not let you cause destruction to the peace i have created inside myself. i will not fall apart again, not unless you’re there to hold me.

[spilllingmymind]

If you have to go

I will forgive you

Because you have forgiven me

a thousand times before

you’ve possessed strength

through your time and I

can only hope I will be as strong

and loving as you

so you go, you be at peace

and say hi to all my angels for me

god’s arms are open ready to

welcome you home

but don’t wait for us

because we will be right here

a blessing and prayer away

- i miss you

[spilllingmymind]

I am not that girl you met 2 years ago

I am not that girl fighting to feel wanted

Being alone was devastating to me once

Turning to you for safety was dangerous

Giving you my heart and soul

Believing you would put together my broken pieces

But I am not her anymore

I am greater than who I used to be

I am stronger than you have ever seen

With the cold heart of yours

And the vibrant one I possess

I believe I am in the right place

And you were the wrong one

[spilllingmymind]

The cold basement made the tiny hairs on her arms stand

She tore off her sweater and her jeans

The cold air swarmed her naked body

She caught a glimpse of herself in the mirror

And looked a little too long

Long enough to pick apart

every flaw her naked body claimed

As she began to feel heavier the longer

She stared at herself in the mirror;

She couldn’t look away

One leg into her sweat pants then the other

She was scared of what she saw and decided to cover up

A t shirt covers more than her upper body

She is drowning in clothes

Because she would do anything to forget the horrors

She saw in that mirror

[spilllingmymind]

I looked at the sun glistening on the glacier that early morning.

The view was one in a million, all I could do is think of you; how I wished you could see this.

Then I realized you have the most amazing view and for the rest of time you will see all the and mountains you’ve ever dreamed of,

and I will only wish I could see them with you

[spilllingmymind]

he told me everything i’ve always wanted to hear, but at the end of the day he was holding her and i was holding myself