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a dependent roleplay blog for SPENCER EUGENE HUGHES , from @DIVAGATEHQ. adored by rhi . i found peace , in YOUR VIOLENCE , can't tell me there's NO POINT in trying . i'm at one , & i've been SILENT FOR TOO LONG. pulvis et umbra sumus .

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          it  wasn’t  exactly  a  secret  that  spencer  had  pushed  for  them  to  come  down  here .  travel  to  the  place  that  undoubtedly  held  the  memories  of  one  of  the  worst  moments  of  their  young  lives .  before ,  he’d  seen  this  place  with  nothing  but  positivity .  enjoyed  the  moments  with  his  friends ,  full  of  heartwarming  laughter  while  building  the  sort  of  memories  you  carried  with  you  all  your  life .  now ,  in  the  after ,  as  he  stood  at  the  doorway  of  the  room  he  usually  claimed  as  his  own ,  his  perspective  had  shifted  far  too  much .  he  was  taller  now ,  larger  in  the  space  he  took  up .  older ,  jaded .  with  an  ever  present  burning  guilt  eating  up  his  insides ,  a  fire  smoldering  within  him .  he  couldn’t  bring  himself  to  regret  the  split  second  decision  he’d  made  to  come  down  here ,  prominently  focused  on  finding  the  friend  he’d  failed .  yet  his  stomach  was  still  tied  up  in  knots  &  a  lump  the  size  of  his  fist  sat  resolutely  in  his  throat .  &  it  would  only  get  worse .

          making  his  way  to  the  porch ,  the  light  breeze  was  the  first  thing  to  hit  him ,  the  biting  cold  following .  it  was  an  uncomfortable  chill ,  the  kind  that  ran  down  your  spine  &  had  you  wanting  to  look  over  your  shoulder  to  make  sure  nothing  was  behind  you .  stupid .  a  feeling  he  shook  off ,  hands  rubbing  his  arms  to  create  any  sort  of  warmth .  no  one  would  approve ,  not  of  the  habit  he’d  picked  up  lately ,  cigarette  dangling  from  his  lips  as  he  took  in  the  scene  quietly .  considering  his  situation ,  the  darkening  bruise  on  his  collarbone  a  familiar  reminder ,  his  chosen  addiction  could’ve  been  a  lot  worse .  or  so  he  told  himself ,  forearms  perched  against  the  decaying  wood .  he  perked  up  immediately  as  the  sound  of  feet  shuffling  against  the  rough  flooring ,  cigarette  ill  concealed  behind  the  palm  of  his  hand .  tense  shoulders  relaxed  when  the  person  revealed  themselves  . .  only  to  tense  up  again .  it  had  been  years ,  &  this  was  the  part  he  was  least  looking  forward  to .     ❛   hey ,   ❜     he  began ,  voice  carefully  even ,     ❛   you  took  your  time  getting  here .   ❜          @ofwnters​

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          settled   in ,   room  in  order ,   he’d  been  one  of  the  first  few .   typical ,  expected .  he  did ,  however ,  impatiently  await  the  person  he   was  most  anxious  to  see .   he  could  sense  more  impatience  rolling  off  of  bruce  than  himself .   to  settle  them  both ,  he  decided  another  pointless  supply  run  wouldn’t  be  such  a  bad  idea .     ❛   don’t  worry  buddy ,  she’s  gonna  be  there  when  we  get  back .   ❜      fingers  idly  scratching  behind  his  soft  ears ,   but  even  he  couldn’t  help  but  look  at  his  watch  every  few  minutes  on  the  drive  back  to  the  cabin .  he’d  insisted  on  picking  her  up  from  the  airport ,  &  she’d  insisted  she  didn’t  need  that .  besides ,  they  both  knew  him  well  enough  to  know  he  was  itching  to  be  at  deep  creek .  now ,  however ,  as  the  dark  settled  in  early  in  the  evening  &  an  ominous  cold  mist  pressed  into  the  ground ,  he  was  far  more  restless  to  see  his  best  friend .  from  living  next  to  her  his  entire  life  to  only  seeing  her  a  few  times  a  year ,  it  hadn’t  been  the  easiest  adjustment .  being  away  from  home  helped.  he  couldn’t  imagine  home  without  her  in  it ,  not  even  for  a  moment.         

          when  they  finally  made  it  back  to  the  cabin ,  the  chocolate  lab  was  the  first  to  react ,  ears  perking  up  as  he  jumped  out  with  a  single ,  sharp  bark .  sauntering  out  after  him  as  the  car  came  to  a  slow  halt  in  the  driveway ,  he  stood  by  the  door  with  a  huge ,  almost  childlike  grin  on  his  face .  she  really  was  the  only  person  who  had  the  ability  to  make  him  feel  like  a  kid  again ,  &  in  the  best  way .  like  whatever  was  coming  would  somehow  be  far  more  manageable ,  now  that  they  had  each  other .     ❛   i  was  gonna  send  out  a  search  party  for  you .  bruce  was  really  worried ,  you  know .   ❜     he  called  out ,  watching  as  their  dog  wouldn’t  give  her  a  moment  to  breathe ,  let  alone  stand  up  off  the  couch .          @tcssas​

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“ first, please state your name and describe your relationship to victoria winters for the record. ”

❛ look ,  how many times are we gonna do the same thing ?  shouldn’t you be out there right now looking for her instead of wasting ❜ ― he took a deep breath ,  settling the anger surging at the pit of his stomach .  this wasn’t helping .  ❛ spencer hughes .  vic was .. she is family .  i always looked out for her .  especially cause the guys in school ,  you know how they can be .   she was like my little sister . ❜

“ now, how old were you when victoria went missing in early 2012 ? ”

❛ fourteen . ❜

“ when was the last time you saw or were in contact with miss winters ? ”

❛ the night she went missing . not that you don’t already have this on record .❜  he scoffed for good measure ,  eyes rolling at the detective before him .  fingers tapped against the wooden table incessantly ,  no sign of stopping .  or was it plastic ?  ❛ i couldn’t sleep so ,  i had some things on my mind .  we talked about things .  i left my room to go find her and she .. wasn’t there .  i should’ve run right out after her . god ,  i should’ve - ❜  white knuckles pressed into his palms ,  reliving the regret he’d pushed down after too many years of missing her .  ❛ we’re wasting time here .  don’t any of you get that ?  she’s out there and you’re here talking to me instead .  you’re letting an innocent girl run around ,  scared & alone . you’re supposed to be helping .  what happened to serve & protect ?  this doesn’t feel like protection . ❜  if he could storm out of there ,  he would have .  instead ,  his fingers pressed further into the table ,  looking up at the woman ,  expecting an answer .  he’d only get more questions .

“ it’s rumored that miss winters was involved with an older boy from a neighboring high school before her disappearance. do you know anything about this ? ”

temper flared .  he pushed it down .  ❛ she didn’t talk about it a lot .  i knew she had someone ,  nothing else .  happy ? ❜

“ do you know of anyone who was on bad terms with victoria, who may have wanted to hurt her ? ”

❛ i wouldn’t let anyone hurt her .  but no ,  not that i knew of .  she was sweet .  she got herself in trouble sometimes ,  but who didn’t ?  she was just a kid .  we all were . ❜

“ walk me through the night victoria disappeared and what you were doing that night. everything you can remember. ”

❛ man ,  if you think i remember what the fuck went down eight .. fine . ❜  the faster he got done with this ,  the sooner he’d be on his way to deep creek . ❛ we all ate together ,  like we always did .  played some board games .. maybe card games ,  i dunno . can’t remember . it was still kinda light out when lydia & vic went to the lake . we did that a lot so ,  didn’t think about it much .  i went to my room ,  and the next time i got out ,  she was gone .  i went & woke tess up ,  i remember that .  charlie ,  too .  we got everyone out of bed .  all of us were .. pretty much freaking out .  well ,  not everyone .  some people thought she’d turn up soon .  i stayed up all night .  on the couch by the front door .  i really thought she’d .. walk in any second .  i should have fucking .. i should’ve done something . ❜  his tone was less urgent now ,  more melancholic .  the guilt well settled into his bones .  if he could berate himself less for that day ,  he would .  but he’d never stopped blaming himself for not protecting her when she’d needed him .

“ does anything strike you as peculiar in the gas station video that has recently surfaced, allegedly starring miss winters ? ”

❛ she looks fucking scared to me .  like she’s been in a bad fucking situation these last eight years .  breaks my heart .  guess it did nothing to you , huh ? ❜

“ thank you for your cooperation. now, is there any other details you believe we should know regarding the reopened investigation ? ”

he could feel the hint of sarcasm dripping off her tone .  he might’ve left it at that ,  but not now .  ❛ i have something for you .  you should know ,  i’m not gonna stop till i find her .  even if you think it’s not possible ,  even if no one wants to help me .  even if you advise against it .  i’m not making the same damn mistake as last time .  i’m bringing vic home ,  without or without the cops involved .  & there’s nothing you can legally do to stop me. ❜

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I just saw a kid yell ‘fuck off’ at the top of his lungs and then his phone started ringing so he picked it up like 2 fucking milliseconds after it started ringing and said “hi mama” in the softest god damn voice I’ve ever heard

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