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trapped in 2008

taylor swift would release a 30th special edition of the tortured poets department to block the vampire lestats spot on the billboard chart and within 24 hrs travis kelce would go missing

mifhortunach

#ntbts derangement syndrome

mattys-marbles

yuck ! quit acting like a puppy ! 🍔 decided to ink them properly

#ntbts derangement syndrome

jay-foxx

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Matt and Jay's answering machine

#i feel lightheaded #ntbts derangement syndrome

fattjohnson

Tragicians

#ntbts derangement syndrome

horatiosroom

Nirvanna ye Bard performing Nicholas Nicholas Nine Doors

7x7in // watercolor, acrylic, and ink on 9x12in watercolor paper

wouldst thou wish to trade coin ($350) for this original illumination, kindly dm me

#ntbts derangement syndrome

cazyhazemave

the making of 'blackberry (2023)'

#ntbts derangement syndrome

cutebodyhorror

I can’t play a happy tune on my own, so stay by my side

#smiles sweetly #ntbts derangement syndrome

graymccarrol

thinking about 'and we'll have a nice happy life together'

like 1) okay homo 2) this follows jay saying that they'll play the show - which Could be read as them finally achieving success once they finally perform at the rivoli, but it's just as easy to interpret it as jay saying they'll finally be free to live their lives after they've finally gotten this hurdle out of the way. it's been discussed before, but planning to play the rivoli is matt's entire lifestyle, whereas to jay it's the obstacle preventing them from proceeding with their lives outside of this singular goal.

crucially, though, we see that jay's intention isn't to play the rivoli and be done with matt and his shenanigans - he wants to have a life WITH matt, even outside of the rivoli plans. matt is obsessively clinging to a routine that, to him, defines their friendship, perhaps fearing that jay will move past him once they're no longer working toward this common objective. but that's not true of jay's thinking at all!! their rivoli planning is just a diversion from the life he wants to continue to lead - a life WITH matt.

obviously as time goes on we see jay starting to stretch his wings- and sometimes that manifests more overtly as an escape from matt - but imo it's not because he wants to be away from matt as a person. it's the endless cycle he wants to break out of... not their relationship. and him claiming they can have a happy life together once they've finally conquered the rivoli is clear proof of that. god.

#let’s all live……we have to live……#ntbts derangement syndrome

bforbest

#control it jay.#god i love this video #ntbts derangement syndrome

kinnoth-2

The more you think about it the more it feels like mattjay have an insane (unsafe, unnamed, unnegotiated) 24/7 bdsm thing going on where the deal is that one Jay McCarrol cedes his time, his body, his attention, his every aspect of being over to one Matt Johnson and in exchange, Matt is responsible for everything else, Jay does not lift a finger, Jay makes no decisions, Jay does not carry a single tooney to his name, it is not Jay's role in this relationship to do anything other than be sexually available at all times and it is Matt's job to take care of him

#know what sex is/never have it VS dont know what sex is /have it all the time cathedrals……#ntbts derangement syndrome