[quotespile]

“If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I’m neurotic as hell. I’ll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days.”

— Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar

[bareniabirkin]

In such a bad mood that I’ve decided to appreciate the little things again

[sporadicallysporadic]

Semi official -I’m moving to Iowa next month.

Never thought I’d end up there lol I had an opportunity to end up in Illinois but the interviewing process was taking forever. Do I have friends or family in Iowa? No.

[sporadicallysporadic]

Life lately has been filled with more Schmidty (my cat) time, my boyfriend, and work.

I bought a cool pack of compression socks ^ but they don’t seem to be meant for healthcare workers because they leave the design marks. My legs get really itchy after the 8th hour… So I’m reserving them for my 8hr shifts and using the normal boring compression socks for my 12hr shifts.

Anyways. You think my boyfriend will propose this year? I hope he does or I’m going to be mad 😂 we’re not getting any younger.

[eightspringdays]

This was animated flawlessly.

[kosmogrl]

[sporadicallysporadic]

I’ve been a recent graduate for exactly 17 days, which means my trial subscription to my part time job has expired. Capitalism is real, and it isn’t for me, but my peasant self needs to participate. Until further notice, my work schedule will be two 12hr shifts on Saturday and Sunday, plus two 8hr shifts on Tuesday and Wednesday. It’s gross, but my boyfriend has a weird schedule and so does my sister, so we can all be unavailable together.

Looking back im not quite sure what the last two years were, but I know I don’t want to repeat them. At least anytime soon. 40hrs of school and 20 hours of work is rough. I lost friends and made new ones. What I’ve learned is that no one ever truly stays, but I’m at peace with that now. I’m ready for a new season in my life, ready to meet new people and have more experiences.

What I’m most looking forward to is a new job opportunity, I really want to close this chapter in Texas and move to Illinois.

[tetitasdelimon]

top 5 horror movies

-having a job

-not having a job

-applying for jobs

-the job market

-the concept of working my whole life

[midnightportals]

[sporadicallysporadic]

April has been the month of cortados. My niece is coming to stay for a month, the end of my echo program is just three weeks away, and my boyfriend is moving to my city. These are all GREAT things, but I can’t help feeling a little overwhelmed by everything.

Recently, my dad told my sister that he finds it easier not to talk to me. When she shared this, I tried to brush it off by saying, “That’s okay, it’s not like I want a relationship with him.” But as soon as the words left my mouth I felt guilty for putting her in an awkward position. I was being sarcastic, but it was also partly true. Once I move away it will be a gamble as to who reaches out first. What he said to my sister only cemented my feeling that I’ll never try to get close to him again. It’s sad that we were so close, and now we barely look at each other. It breaks my heart, and it makes me angry too.

[sporadicallysporadic]

Stupidest thing I’ve done in a while was not wearing sunscreen on my legs while hiking the highest peak in Texas.

The end of this month is going to be exciting. Good things come to the chronically anxious girls lol.

[sporadicallysporadic]

I want a snake

[rylandsgrace]

#Icon

[sporadicallysporadic]

Last month Michael visited my school to be my patient and he made my favorite green enchiladas for us. He let me scan his heart for 45min and afterwards he brought me coffee.

Last week I jokingly mentioned that he didn’t acknowledge my half-birthday. The very next day, he showed up with flowers, fudge, a box of pecans, and a cupcake. I was over the moon lol.

Yet, despite all of his kindness, I feel scared and insecure, probably more so than I did at the beginning of the relationship. It’s so hard to stop self-sabotage, and frankly, I'm not sure why I do it. Part of it might be because my relationship with my parents has been chaotic most of my life, but I can’t use that as an excuse at my very ripe age of 33.

[sporadicallysporadic]

Boyfriend doesn’t want anymore kids so when he said I’d be a good mom, my ovaries were like 👀 HELLO.

Still don’t want kids though lol.

He kind of mentioned moving in together while we were on the phone. I thought it was cute, but I would have loved if he he asked in person.

Meh. I really wish I knew what I was doing after graduation.

[rosegardendeprofundis]

Colleen Hoover is insane because what do you mean these people are fondling each other and MOANING in the booth at a Steak ‘n Shake? STEAK ‘N SHAKE?!?!

[secretsisterhood3]

"There are years you think about for moments, and moments you think about for years."

- Twice by Mitch Albom