Spunny

Straight spun fun MALE in 561 FL. Lovesick, heartbroken n horny. A nerd just trying to entertain n amuse myself fostering the pathology of bad ideas and delusions, with the menagerie of insights from here.

[spunnystory]

So a couple days on dating apps and I can’t spot a spun honey anywhere. Not like there’s a certain look or anything to spot besides the stereotypical junky but I don’t go for that. You look for code words like spun, tweak, pooky or crystal Tina. Didn’t spot a thing. People have smoke friendly, it’s all 420 shit. It’s just not for me. Is meth sex that good, yes. Was I spoiled by my narc ex girlfriend, sort of. Do I want kinky, yes. For her to call me daddy and suck on my thumb as we cuddle fuck. Of course. It’s gonna be weird just dating a healthy nerotypical and not a narcissist. Being lovebombed on meth was something else but I value my sanity so no more narcs. But I don’t want to give up the methsex n sexual inhibition it proved to both parties. Look like it might be a long road back to finding me my sexual unicorn again.

[spunnystory]

You’d think it be easy to finding a down to earth chick that doesn’t mind the meth lifestyle. But it’s just not openly embraced like other drugs. Like when people invite u to smoke n no one pulls out a pooky so u get a bit disappointed. Where the spun girls or the meth brats in the Spunshine State?

[spunnystory]

Maybe this is the better route for me to get a girlfriend and make sure she ain’t a demon.

[spunnystory]

I don’t miss my narc ex anymore but I do miss the meth n fuck sessions. Getting off doing meth was always mind blowing. Multi orgasams each n every time. Damn it’s time, I need to find me a responsible, emotionally well adjusted spun girl with a daddy kink. Like trying to capture a unicorn 🦄.

[spunnystory]

Lovebombing me minus the glass pooky.

[uniej]

[spunnystory]

Just figured out I’m codependent, probably have complex ptsd, was also most likely physically & emotionally abused by my parents and a narc gaslit the shit out of me emotionally abused me. I want to go back to repressing this shit and living in my delusional world of ignorant bliss. 😂

[spunnystory]

[spunnystory]

Meth n a narcissist. Both are killing me and I can’t control neither. Lol 😶‍🌫️💨

[eevilshits]

[spunnystory]

Trauma Bond: In short crazy enters through the penis or vagina and embeds itself in your brain.

[spunnystory]

"why do you love ❤️ me?" Because I choose to against my better judgement.

[big-white-cocks-daily]

[spunnystory]

If no one told you today. You are loved 🥰

[spunnystory]

[spunnystory]

I have to replay it and rewrite it all now that I know my demon was a narcissist. None of it was true but truth was said. I just didn’t know we were playing that game.

[spunnystory]

There are two things I can’t do my self or easily substitute since I kicked you out. Well maybe three.

1. Kisses 😘.

2. Cuddles.

3. ? Meth kisses n cuddles.

There’s never a guarantee that the next applicant to fill the now empty position as significant other will approve of my Meth vice. Honestly Meth makes everything better. Even my fake ass narcissistic ex seemed almost human when we’d blow clouds 😶‍🌫️💨 together.

[spunnystory]

Cuddling my demon was pretty fun because I was cuddling myself I guess.