Not Quite Perfect

A Pacific Northwest Girl, moving to the South. Watch how I fare. Follow me on twitter @wendymarie101.

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Do you believe in / practice self-care?

I would like to see a more radical self-care - a refusal of unfair work conditions, a prioritising of the emotional/affective life over the empty ‘productivity’ of capitalism, a care that goes beyond the self & takes pleasures in less stuff and more community. But you know, that takes a lot. It’s a hope for the future though.

BUT, yeah I do. For me, rearranging my life so that I could afford a regular therapist - that was self-care. Making sure I always have an hour saved every night for cooking a fresh dinner. That’s self-care. So is tithing to Shelter and making sure my friends are fed. I need to believe in a better world, and to be a part of that. That’s what gets me through the nights. 

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So good

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HOT FUDGE CHOCOLATE PUDDING CAKE

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We used to make this all the time growing up! We called it Brownie Pudding and sometimes we poured cold milk over the top. So yummy. Think I'll make some tomorrow.

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Now you have no excuse.

Get your reading on.

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Fuck I can't sleep. I have too many thoughts and worries running through my mind. And if you are in East Nashville tomorrow around lunch time and see a white girl crying into her tacos - that will be me. But since I've only eaten banana chips today, I guess that's better than nothing. Self-care starts tomorrow. I'm stronger than this.

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This is so very accurate right now. But I am getting out of bed tomorrow for tacos with a girlfriend.

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My heart is breaking. I can no longer be with my husband. It was my decision but it doesn't mean that it's easy. I have so many emotions. I didn't realize the physical pain, the inability to breathe, the amount of tears, the literal feeling of your heart breaking in half. And then I think too far in the future. Who will love me? How will I move forward? And I need to stop, because I gave him till the end of January to save up money for an apartment. Divorced ladies - any advice, words of wisdom?

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The things we agree to call art are the shamanic totems of our time. We value them beyond all reason because we can't really understand them. They can mean everything or nothing, depending on what the people who look at them decide.

Jade Chang - The Wangs Vs. The World

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I don’t have that many followers here, but someone I care about needs help.

A good friend of mine who happens to be trans female really needs a place to stay, pronto. She tried to escape abusive parents by catching a plane to live with her boyfriend, but that plan fell apart, hard. She’s stuck in a hotel right now and has nowhere else to go.

Right now I’m looking at trying to find a place for her to stay in Portland, because she is skilled with electronics and she could probably find a job here. Please reblog the hell out of this; I can’t host her, and I don’t know anyone else in an ideal position to do so, either. She is staying in a hotel until the 16th, but she has nowhere to stay after that.

Please reblog the crap out of this, and If anyone knows anyone else with a place to stay or even a couch to surf on for a while, preferably somewhere in NW Oregon/SW Washington state,  please reblog or send me a PM or something. If you’re in Portland, that’s even better.

Thank you.

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Signal Boost for my friends in Portland, Oregon

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So 50 Cent wrote a book? I might check it out just to see what happens.

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I haven't posted anything since about July or August. I've been feeling extremely isolated in my personal life for many reasons. I've felt like I couldn't share, didn't have the right to share or didn't have the strength to share. I still don't know if I will. But I'm trying to get out this isolation. I have fully immersed myself in my job, which is a good place to be. I have friends there, I enjoy the work and it's a good overall environment. I took a trip to Denver to see my best friend and another friend and we had the best girls weekend in a long time. I'm trying to be more present, less in my head. Less about the future or the past and more about the now. I'm trying to free myself of certain negativities in my life but am afraid. Afraid to make the wrong choice for either choice that I make. But in the end, I can't make anyone be someone they aren't and I'm tired of making excuses or always accepting apologies. I know what I'm going to do. I just don't know if it will be next week, in six months or a year. As I write this I'm crying because I'm trying to find hope. I'm trying to see any light at the end of the tunnel, I'm trying to be true to me and my experiences and to what I need that I haven't been getting.

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So this is happening in Nashville. For S mere $25 you can come watch this horror show.

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MBTI AESTHETIC: INTJ (6/16)

One of the rarest and most strategically capable personality types, INTJs are analytical problem-solvers, eager to improve systems and processes with their innovative ideas. They are often perfectionists with extremely high standards of performance for themselves and others and may become cynical and ruthless when these standards are not met. INTJs are not overly demonstrative of their emotions, and are not likely to give much praise or positive support to others. That doesn’t mean that they don’t have affection for others, they simply do not feel the need to express it.

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This is mine. I don't know if I believe in MBTI but workplaces love to make you take this test.

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“Going tiny” implies that the person who is moving into a tiny house is doing so to escape their previous life of excess: They are coming from one place and going to another. This has made it, by definition, a middle-class movement, one that eschews identification with people who have lived in “tiny” homes for decades — whether that “tiny” home is a mobile home, an RV, or just a really small apartment. And so the tiny house movement has an inherent privilege built in: Going tiny is a choice. If you’re coming from a more abundant place, in which you could live in a 2,000-square-foot house but you choose to live in 200 square feet, then you can be part of the community. If not, well, you’re just poor.“

”“It is a very whitewashed movement,” said Pearson, whose tiny house build was the subject of a September episode of HGTV’s Tiny House, Big Living. Along with two other women, Pearson started a website and Facebook group called Tiny House Trailblazers for people of color who were interested in tiny living. “I started a public Facebook page because I felt like, I don’t see anybody out here who looks like me.” Pearson said that as she was gathering information about her own build, which started in January 2015, she encountered resistance from suppliers and builders, one of whom went so far as to tell her that “if I had a white face representing my project, I’d probably get more response.”

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Doesn’t this say it all.

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These are the same people who follow Marie Kondo's decluttering movement or capsule collections. It's the assumption of "having too much" when many in this world and even our country "have far too little". Now people must feel shame if they don't have enough material objects to declutter from their lives. This whole thing annoys me. Annoys me as much as Gywneth Paltrow.

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Took My Dog to the Vet

The puppy needed to get fixed so I took him into the vet. This woman in her late 50s was in the waiting room and said to me rudely, "Why is your dog so skinny?" Ok my dog isn't really skinny. Huckleberry is a hound mix who is six months old. He's in that awkward phase where his legs are really long. You can't see his ribs - our vet said he's in a great shape. So that really pissed me off so I said to her "Nope he's not too skinny - do you know what breed he is? No you don't. He's a perfect healthy weight. Can you not tell because your dog is fat? Don't be so judgmental and bitchy?" Yes me at my best.

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I'm currently spying on the puppy from the house to figure out how he's getting into the garden. He ate half my corn! Spy duty commences.

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Did anyone finish the second season of Bloodline? I finished it this morning and I have so many feels. And I hate John Rayburn.