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I thought I had friends, but now it turns out to be me being a loner. I won't say that I'm depressed, but what I feel rn is NOTHING. This may sound weird probably, but i felt writing something would help me deviate from this melancholic state of mind.

A few hours ago from now the people i thought were my friends accused me for something I haven't done, blind accusation, even blaming my family without even knowing what the real matter is! I was stunned hearing it from one of 'em. But then I went completely blank and told the truth that i had nothing to do with what she's talking about or don't even have a fricking idea. Then I realized I'm noone to 'em, cause they tend to believe someone else than they do to me. I think there's no better conclusion to this that I can think of.

This may probably sound absurd, I mean for sure since this s'some common teenage problems, but the way it hits are different in each case if you take a closer look. I, personally trusted 'em more than anything, cause I didn't no they were pretending to be nice to me and betraying and exposing me right at my back. I ain't aggressive, but still I didn't gave up on 'em, though I lost trust. I believe one day they'll get me, what I'm going through or may be not:)

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Last year this very day was tiring. I was a different person ,which I wasn't supposed to be. Now, I realize and regret for that little back drop which hit me so hard .And now I feel all that was a coincidence to figure the best version of myself, to outburst my thoughts and explore the little things, seeking happiness and peace, moreover loving myself and spending more time focusing productively without any diversions.

Hell yeah, it did break my heart but also taught me how to deal with it without giving up, which I think is the key to attain and accomplish our goals and set a life independently. Also, helped me to survive all the hardships and make a fresh start by my own which was a bit hard initially, tbh it seemed barely possible, but then I started loving noone but me , focusing on my progress ,I was able survive all these shit victoriously. It may sound absurd ,but I feel I was right making the right decision at the right time!

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Mornin' bliss❤️

I wish I could live in the woods for the rest of my life, after I visited this heavenly place🥺✨

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Euphoria.

Who doesn't like fantasy? Literally,one of the most seeking salvation which drives us crazy into a world of our own, where there's no one but you. Drugs are considered to be one of the savage entry to attain EUPHORIA,but its impact is worse. Scrutinizing on the scientifical aspects, it's evident that 'dopamine' is the primary neurotransmitter, it's insufficiency creates fussiness.

In simple words, its about feeling "high" physically as well as emotionally. The American teen drama, "euphoria" which most of us are familiar with, craves each and every source to attain this state of pleasure.

Little things which we come across in our day to day life , unnoticed ,sometimes paves the way to this. Friendship, love, sexual intercourse, identity ,trauma, passion can also accomplish our euphoric desires, making it our floating world.

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