SS501 Scenario: I Never Thought I’d Fall For You (Kim Hyung Jun)
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How could Hyung Jun be so perfect yet so cruel? Every day he attempts to gain unnies interests but she continues to refer to him as her friend. I can tell it’s breaking his heart, he’s put everything into his pursuit, in fact, that’s how our own bittersweet relationship came to be. I don’t mean to complain, but I wish things were different. He’s always asking if his noona has noticed the flowers in the dance room, or if her feelings have somehow changed overnight. Conversations never start with ‘How was your day?’ or 'Did you eat?’ Instead, she dominates them, along with every other part of our relationship.
Of course, there are days in which I wish he would snap out of his fantasy. I know all too well of the dangers of unrequited love and would hate to see him be handed the same fate. That’s why as I watch him cross the practice room and hand unnie the flowers, that he would just quit. She blushes and gives him a hug as he hugs back. “Thank you doesang~ Aigoo you’re too good to me.” She says as she smells the flowers. “You’re welcome noona, you deserve only the best~,” He says, his smile reaching his eyes.
She sets the flowers down on the white table by the mirror. “What do you want Junnie, hmm? You must want something since you’ve been so nice to me.” She says. I see the panic, excitement, and fear in Juns eyes as he clears his throat. “Noona……..” Jun starts as Do Min, our vocal coach, walks in. “Jagi, are you coming? We’re going to miss the movies.” Unnie looks up and nods. “I’ll be there in a minute oppa!” Do Min gives a curt nod and waves at me and I smile and bow as he turns and leaves. I look back at Jun as unnie stands there. “Sorry Junnie, what were you going to say?” She asks as she grabs the flowers. “Nothing noona, have a good time at the movies.” He says, eyes glossing over with unshed tears. “Your eyes are watery Junnie, you should take some allergy medication. Here! I think I have some!” She says and digs through her bag.
Before he can respond I speak up. “It’s okay unnie, go ahead and go with Do Min, I have some,” I say as she smiles and grabs her bag. “You’ll be okay getting home right?” She asks and I nod. “Yes unnie,” I say and hug her then walk to Jun, who looks completely broken and hug him. I hear him sniffle as he pulls away from me and wipes at his eyes. “I’m gonna head home.” He says as he turns around. I wrap my arms around his waist. “Oppa……” I start before he cuts me off. “Don’t, I should have known and now I do.” He says curtly as he removes my arms and walks off.
I stand there, my heart aching for him as a tear rolls down my face. “Idiot…..if only you knew…,” I whisper as I grab my jacket from the table and run after him. Spotting him at the doors I run faster just before he opens them and hug him from behind again. “Oppa, I know you’re upset right now and I hate seeing you like this….I really do.” I say. He just stands there going limp in my arms. “Yah, stop pretending to care you don’t have to anymore.” He says, those words piercing my heart.
“You’re so stupid, do you really think I didn’t care about you? You think I stayed up all those nights listening to you ramble on and on about unnie when I had to be up here in an hour to just what? Give up on you now? I care about you oppa, I care about you more than you know. The only reason I decided to agree to the little arrangement was so that I could become your friend and get to know you more. At least that was what I had hoped for. I was dying on the inside the whole time you went on about her!” I confess, my feelings spilling over as Hyung Jun tenses noticeably in my arms.
“I-I never knew…….” He says shocked. “That’s because the whole time not once did you ever ask about me, you were too blinded by love to even give a damn,” I say softly. Hyung Jun goes quiet before I feel my arms being removed from around his waist. He turns around and looks me in the eyes, his reflecting pity and sorrow. “I-I can’t,” He starts before I cut him off. “I wasn’t expecting you too, but I couldn’t let it eat me up anymore,” I say coldly, shocking him as I move back.
“Like you said our relationship is over and done with. You can go back to your life and I’ll go back to mine.” I state and move past him opening the doors and walking out of the company. I realize I still have recording and dance practice to do and look back at the door seeing Jun sanding there. I hold my head up high and push the other door open and walk to the recording studio as Jun fumbles with his words trying to stop me.
Once I'm near the recording room I make a B-line for the bathroom and shut the door, locking it. My legs give out from under me and I slide down the door covering my mouth as I sob and bunch over, my heart aching. A knock on the door sounds and I flinch covering my mouth more as someone sighs. “.....(Y/N)-ah...I'm sorry...I really am..it's not right, we're both hurt. Let me take you out to lunch hm?” Hyung Jun asks, sorrowfully. I stay quiet until I hear Young Saeng scold him, dragging him away. Standing up on trembling legs I turn on the light and slaps cold water on my face with trembling hands.
The music blares at the record party for SS301's new release while I make my way through the crowd towards Young Saeng oppa. “Oppa~,” I say in a sing-song voice as he turns and smiles. “(Y/N), hey are you enjoying yourself?” I hear him ask over the loud crowd. I nod and smile, “Have you seen Kyu Jong oppa?” I ask as hands go over my eyes and I hear chuckling. “Hmm, I don't think I have~” He replies and I chuckle. “That's alright oppa, I think I've found him,” I say and feel the hands over my eyes.
My hands brush over the bony fingers and over the slim hands. “Let's see......” I trail off and twitch my nose in concentration. “Kyu Jong oppa,” I say after a minute of deliberation the rumble against his chest and the small exhale against my ear lets me know I'm right. I chuckle when he pulls his hands away from my eyes and wraps them around my waist. I sway back and forth in his arms and lean against his chest. “How are you enjoying the party?” He whispers in my ear.
“It's okay, but I'd rather be at home with you. It's too loud here.” I complain and giggle as Hyung Jun walks by and goes to the refreshment table. “We'll go soon, but since it's for my group I have to be here a bit longer than I usually stay at these things.” He says and I nod. “It's okay oppa,” I say and feel my tummy rumble. “I'll be back,” I say and turn in his arms and kiss his cheek. He lets me go and I walk to the bathroom.
I splash cold water on my face to try and wake me up some before checking my phone for the time. Sighing I place my phone back in my purse and open the door to walk out of the bathroom. “Hey.” I look towards my right and see Jun standing there. “What's up?” I ask as he walks closer to me, he stays quiet for a few seconds and I raise my eyebrow.
“I've been thinking about you....for awhile and I can't stop beating myself up for hurting you.” I tense up and frown at him. “Why are you telling me this?” I ask as I wrap my arms around myself. “I know you're with Kyu Jong and I'm happy for you, but like you, I have to tell you how I feel in order to move on.” He says and I shake my head. “You can't just come over here and tell me you have feelings for me,” I say and he smiles softly. “Well, that's what I'm doing.” He says and I go to walk away until he catches my arm. “Yah, let me go,” I say sternly.
“I'm not done, can't you at least tell me how you feel?” I hear him ask as I scoff. “You want to know how I feel? How I feel about what oppa? How I feel about you hurting me, about you walking over here and telling me you feel bad and now you have feelings for me despite the fact I'm with Kyu Jong? I've moved on and you should too.” I say before moving my arm out of his hold. “I don't think you are...I see the way you act with Kyu Jong, you're using him to mess with me, get back at me.” He says. “You're just so fucking full of yourself aren't you. Do you hear the words coming out of your mouth? I'm using Kyu Jong to get back at you, that's the worst thing I've heard all day.” I say. “Why are you getting so mad if it's not true then?” He asks and I scoff.
“Because it's stupid!” I exclaim and he smirks. “No, what I think is that you're getting upset because you still have feelings for me, but you don't want to admit them to yourself because you're with Kyu Jong and you couldn't stand to break his heart like I broke yours. You hate yourself for still having feelings for me after what I did so you throw yourself at Kyu Jong to make up for it and convince yourself otherwise hoping that your feelings will all go away. I know it, Young Saeng knows it and so does Kyu Jong. He doesn't have to stay here, in fact, he's already left.” I look around and see no sign of him or Young Saeng. “Fuck you, you don't know a damn thing.” I seethe knowing he's right.
“Oh but I do.” He says. I stay quiet for a few minutes. Hyung Jun saying nothing as I go over what he's said and feel tears in my eyes. “I'm horrible,” I whisper, my cold facade falling through. “No, you're not..he knew you would never like him so he never got attached.” I shake my head. “How can I use someone though? It's not me..” I cry and feel his arms go around me and hold me as I cry in his chest. I feel fingers smooth my hair down before I feel a kiss on top of my head.
“If you feel bad about it you could always apologize. I know that doesn't make up for it, but you could talk it out with him.” I nod and sniffle. “I'd feel better if I do that,” I admit and feel a small bit of the burden on my shoulders fade away. Hyung Jun pushes some of my hair behind my ear and cups my face. I don't think as I stand on my toes and leave up pressing our lips together. After a minute I move back leaving a small space between our lips. “Thank you,” I whisper and feel him smile. “I'm sorry for taking so long to confess.” I shake my head. “It doesn't matter. You're here now.” I say and kiss him again.
