MATILDA

leon kennedy. 

[sseizonsha]

雨が降ろうと、槍が降ろうと. . .

AN INDEPENDENT & SELECTIVE LEON KENNEDY of Capcom’s Biohazard series. Est 2019. written by Katherine. she/her. 30+. permanent low activity.

Dynamic- and headcanon-driven interpretation. Common themes on this blog and in the Biohazard universe include body horror and violence, along with discussion of bioethics, existentialism, trauma, and loss. affiliated with: @antiibow (and all her blogs) // @drearyknight // @sls-60

carrd. - meta. - headcanon. - prompt.

[sseizonsha]

☺  What tends to bring out your muse the most? What inspires you?

Munday Meme || (accepting)

Leon is a very difficult character to write, not just because I've left his blog sit largely dusty and neglected for 80 years but because I find his mental health to be...shoddy at best, and well. It's somewhat difficult to nail the guy whose mood metronomes back and forth between cynical and idealistic; his mental state is often at a low but I've always written him as someone who would be practically dysfunctional if he did not outright choose take considerable actions to avoid coming apart. To actually live as best he can. To view the world as a vivid, bright collection of each individual person and to see each and every one of them as they all fill life's canvas together-- rather than the negligent, broad strokes of those who so often seem to hold the brush: those clamoring, greedy, filthy rich or egomaniacal and looking to play God. So for me to find muse with Leon again, I play through the games and rewatch the movies...constantly, really. I pick apart different scenes and consider everything from his body language to his word choice. I also have to parse what's Capcom jajaja-ing in our faces with nonsense and fanservice and what's truly viable for me to portray in a character. That's step one, arguably the most routine. Second, and also an arguably easy task--provided there's someone to listen--is being able to just talk about Leon. Deconstruct him with my rp partners. Brainstorm the what ifs, the aus, the filling in the blanks where fandom most often occupies. Build him up based on how he interacts with others.

Which brings me to my other go to: I reflect on his relationships. Canon relationships and NPCs who flesh out his world. Leon best survives the day-to-day by convincing himself that he has contributed to the betterment of someone's life --- and one way I can best reach him is reflecting on the various and myriad of ways others perceive him. Good and bad. Assumptions and impressions held by acquaintances, friends, lovers. I bring to him the promise that there is a story to tell and there will always be traces of the proverbial drag path (haha, if you're a Tiktok girlie, tell me you get the reference.) Even if he's forever in too deep and dark a place to follow it. Genres that most inspire my portrayal include Western Noir and Crime thrillers. I prefer exploring themes found heavily in American lit: humanity and its relationship with (or molestation of) the wilderness, obsoletism and the slow decay of morality reflected in the land and in society, the self in crisis (isolation in a crowd, voyeuristic yearning, mourning the promise of a future you never had or earned or kept, and of course, war and trauma.

Anyway as usual I do way too much! Thanks for the ask. I hope this answered ur question. :) Tell me how I'm doing based on my themes ;) @ulfhrafnx. @agentvalentine

[rpmemegraveyard]

casually sweet munday meme

♻ Any advice on improving Tumblr RP experience? ⛅  Do you believe aesthetics are another form of expression? ☮ Are you feeling happy and inspired right now? ☄ Has someone ever admitted to being inspired by you? ⚌ Who inspires you? ☸ Do you reblog from the source when someone practices reblog karma or do you follow it? ☯ Do you believe you’re a forgiving person? ☻ Have you ever made someone a promo or a positive shoutout? ♡ How many people do you like? Are there any people in particular that pop up? ☢ What calms you down after negativity? ☠ What keeps you happy? ☘ Is there anything that makes you instantly want to follow someone? ☕  Is it often you hear people complimenting your blog? Characters, writing, theme, icons, etc. ☂ What’s your best RP experience? ⚈ What sweet things tend to happen to you from time to time RP wise? ☐ What trends are you currently into? ★ What fandom do you consider welcoming? ☆ What are some the perks with the fandom you’re currently in? ♦ How has roleplaying on Tumblr improved since you started out? ⚓ Are there any small details you tend to like in roleplays? ⚡ What are the good sides with duplicates? ☀ What’s the best thing about roleplaying? ⛵ What genres do you like writing the most? ☺  What tends to bring out your muse the most? What inspires you?

[tendermimi]

Søren Kierkegaard, Diaries 1813-1855

[antiibow]

@sseizonsha 's world is blue, brown & royal purple

[chaoscripta]

Send me headcanons about my muse you think I haven’t covered yet!

[mcflymemes]

you're doing a great job with your blog. you're putting love into it, and the people around you can see that, and they appreciate that. you make this community better with your presence. no matter how many replies you do, no matter how many posts you make, no matter how many followers you have... you add value to this place. you are a positive addition. thanks for being here ♡

[rpmemesbyarat]

Recommend romantic candidates for my muses and see their reaction!

Note: They do not have to be ones my muses would like!

[ps1]

Biohazard 4 (PS2) Manual Booklet

[86064-deactivated20260513]

sex is cool, but have you ever watched someone’s face light up just because they saw you?

[sseizonsha]

@antiibow

[sseizonsha]

@kozach || (continued from here.) Two weeks of sitting in on interdepartmental video calls and meetings from an Airbnb in Poland wouldn't have normally met his criteria for R&R, but the view of Kraków's Main Square from his balcony had certainly helped. After sifting through the bureaucratic bullshit procedures and ensuring the department heads all red tape had been struck and handled, Leon filed his report and delivered it to his CIA contact--postmarked special clearance only. He was surprised to receive new orders: heal up and stay awhile, you've earned it. Not that he would've been much use on field anyway, what with the concussion, more cracked ribs than he could name, and a distal radius fracture. Leon hadn't anticipated the ruptured eardrum or accompanying vertigo, but it was a small price to pay for bragging rights that he'd operated an BMP-3. Apparently something about an American handling Soviet armaments still left a sour taste in the DOJ's mouth. Leon spent the time well, striking a rather easy balance between the sunny, Spring-time countryside and visiting Poland's darker pockets of history. Between the snapshots crocus bloom and Jazz on the Odra festival, he window-shopped in half a dozen Eastern Markets, sampled salted sheep's milk cheese and gorged himself on playtski with applesauce or sour cream.

All that time off, and he still had one last obligation to fulfill. With one final week before he returned to duty, Leon spent the last of his medical leave calling in favors to purposefully drop himself into the aftermath of a war zone. Considering the USGov allowed him to go AWOL on the eve of an impending joint-occupation, it hadn't been all that difficult to pull a, You owe me one.

You'd think after saving the guy's life, making good on a promise to visit--with souvenirs--and paying for his dinner, Alexander Kozachenko would be happier to see him.

Then again, maybe he should've been grateful "Buddy" hadn't shot him on sight, promise of drinks or not.

"Teaching's a thankless job," he offered back coolly, taking a scalding sip of spiked coffee between bites of pie. "Consider it a gift." Leon leaned down, pulling a small, brightly colored bag out from beneath the table and setting it within Alexander's reach. Within it, two small boxes wrapped in simple, brown paper awaited. "As are these."

[plagasaved]

PLAGASAVED ; but I know that atleast I'm not ..... alone . a semi selective & independent portrayal of Ashley Graham from CAPCOM 📳 resident evil 4 ! a look into perseverance through fear , individuality & survival. penned by Gardenia. open to other verses and oc friendly.

[sseizonsha]

Alrighty so. Have reblogged an IC prompt request. Here's a generalized hand-wavey "Pls send me hc / meta questions you may have" so I can get me juices flowing. UwU Also casual reminder that I have a Jake Muller sideblog. As well as a multimuse that has dozens of other Resi characters (incl. Claire Redfield, Deborah Harper, Bela Dimitrescu.) If you have any interest writing there, let me know and I'll send you the url.

Anyway I have to go shower and sleep. Probably should've been asleep an hour ago but haha whoops.

[rpclefairy]

𝟐𝟎𝟎 𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐎𝐌 𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐔𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒 

from this generator.

❛ close your eyes and hold out your hands. ❜ ❛ what are you smiling at? ❜ ❛ i can’t leave you alone for one minute, can i? ❜ ❛ was it you? did you do all this? ❜ ❛ i don’t know how you do this every day… ❜ ❛ that is not an appropriate question to ask a lady you’ve just met. ❜ ❛ i’m not sorry. ❜ ❛ i did warn you not to trust me. ❜ ❛ do you remember anything? at all? ❜ ❛ you’re lucky you’re cute. ❜ ❛ why don’t you just kill me? ❜ ❛ did you hurt yourself? ❜ ❛ i could show you the way. ❜ ❛ i don’t feel so good. ❜ ❛ you owe me a dinner. a very nice dinner. ❜ ❛ don’t go. please. ❜ ❛ you wanna know what your problem is? ❜ ❛ i’m here to drink alone. ❜ ❛ don’t run away from this. ❜ ❛ i’m just saying, murder is an option. ❜ ❛ i didn’t realize you were in so much pain. ❜ ❛ i guess it runs in the family, huh? ❜ ❛ you wouldn’t understand. ❜ ❛ we’ve been through a lot. i think we should just lay low and take it easy. ❜ ❛ dangerous to be out so late. ❜ ❛ i hope you haven’t been standing out in the cold this whole time. ❜ ❛ i made a mistake. ❜ ❛ am i not good enough? ❜ ❛ i’m going to get you out of here. ❜ ❛ why did you bring me here? ❜ ❛ aren’t we in a good mood today? ❜ ❛ don’t shut me out. please. ❜ ❛ the storm’s getting worse. ❜ ❛ i never meant to hurt you. ❜ ❛ you’re about as intimidating as a butterfly. ❜ ❛ have you come to laugh at me in my miserable state? ❜ ❛ here, take this. you’ll catch a cold. ❜ ❛ this is the part where you leave. ❜ ❛ why are you talking like we’ll never see each other again? ❜ ❛ you stepped on my foot! ❜ ❛ you’re not a very convincing liar. ❜ ❛ we’re in completely different leagues. ❜ ❛ how did you find me? ❜ ❛ i don’t need you anymore. ❜ ❛ rough day today? ❜ ❛ snap out of it! ❜ ❛ you look better in my clothes than i do. ❜ ❛ why are you still here? ❜ ❛ can i ask… what happened? ❜ ❛ are you saying you care about me? ❜ ❛ i won’t let anyone hurt you. ❜ ❛ it’s not stealing if it was mine to begin with. ❜ ❛ well, this is where i live. ❜ ❛ we’re not so different after all. ❜ ❛ how long have i been asleep? ❜ ❛ no more lies, no more secrets. ❜ ❛ can you forgive me? ❜ ❛ i thought you… i saw you get shot. ❜ ❛ why are you really here? ❜ ❛ i wish we never met. ❜ ❛ you look like you need a hug. ❜ ❛ would you run away with me? ❜ ❛ see? i’m not just a pretty face. ❜ ❛ we can stop them. i can help you. ❜ ❛ what now? i’m tired. ❜ ❛ i didn’t want you to see me like this. ❜ ❛ i can’t do this without you. ❜ ❛ if you tell me yours, i’ll tell you mine. ❜ ❛ are you threatening me? ❜ ❛ did you ever care about me? ❜ ❛ treat me like the princess that i am! ❜ ❛ i’m not leaving you. ❜ ❛ why did you come? ❜ ❛ i need your help… and you need mine. ❜ ❛ i wish i could hate you. ❜ ❛ i see you don’t recognize me. well, it was a long time ago. ❜ ❛ you’ve lost a lot of blood. ❜ ❛ i had my suspicions, but until now i wasn’t sure. ❜ ❛ there’s nothing left for me here. ❜ ❛ that is… literally illegal. you’re describing something illegal. ❜ ❛ wait. i’ve heard that sound before. ❜ ❛ just try to hang on. ❜ ❛ so why’s it so important anyway? ❜ ❛ i’ll stay in tonight, thanks. ❜ ❛ we can’t keep going on like this. ❜ ❛ in about a minute, you’ll be sorry you didn’t listen to me. ❜ ❛ is this seat taken? sorry, it’s a bit crowded here. ❜ ❛ you can’t leave me here alone! ❜ ❛ i’ll believe it when i see it. ❜ ❛ why are you laughing? this is a very serious situation. ❜ ❛ i bought two. here. ❜ ❛ i’ve seen you before, walking by. ❜ ❛ why can’t i come with you? ❜ ❛ c'mon. aren’t you worried what might happen if we go? ❜ ❛ walk with me? ❜ ❛ it’s very rude to stare. ❜ ❛ how many times have i told you? you can’t visit me here. ❜ ❛ we can’t fix this. can we? ❜ ❛ are you going to kill me? ❜ ❛ it’s not like you can stop me. ❜ ❛ it’s not safe for people to see us together. ❜ ❛ take me with you. ❜ ❛ some risks are worth taking. ❜ ❛ let them go. take me instead. ❜ ❛ what do you want in exchange for it? ❜ ❛ is being drunk an excuse? ❜ ❛ promise me you won’t overreact. ❜ ❛ how can i possibly trust you? after all you’ve done. ❜ ❛ how long have you been standing there? ❜ ❛ why did you wake me? ❜ ❛ i’m not here to talk about my feelings. ❜ ❛ you were going to leave without saying goodbye? ❜ ❛ for some reason, i’m attracted to you. ❜ ❛ promise me? ❜ ❛ it’s nothing, i’m just tired. ❜ ❛ i feel safe with you. ❜ ❛ i don’t need your help. ❜ ❛ i think i have a bit more experience with this thing than you do. ❜ ❛ no way, i’m not doing that. ❜ ❛ i do care. ❜ ❛ you snore in your sleep. it’s adorable. ❜ ❛ i have a spare bed. ❜ ❛ you’re very kind. some day it’ll get you killed. ❜ ❛ you’ll always have a home with me. ❜ ❛ of course i care. you’re my family. ❜ ❛ you shouldn’t insult people that are bigger than you. ❜ ❛ i never wanted to hurt you. ❜ ❛ i swear it wasn’t me. ❜ ❛ we can just sit here, you don’t have to talk. ❜ ❛ did you miss me? ❜ ❛ this isn’t just about you. it’s about what’s best for all of us. ❜ ❛ you can never admit when you’re wrong! ❜ ❛ is this what you wanted? ❜ ❛ what are you doing out here by yourself? ❜ ❛ sorry to put you through that. i guess i owe you one now. ❜ ❛ the only time you talk to me is when you need something. ❜ ❛ i’m still learning. ❜ ❛ if you have something to say, spit it out. ❜ ❛ you… don’t like me very much, do you? ❜ ❛ i’m on your side. ❜ ❛ i risked my life for you! ❜ ❛ whatever you’re going to ask, the answer is no. ❜ ❛ you can stay with me. ❜ ❛ i just need time. ❜ ❛ please don’t do this, don’t act like you care. ❜ ❛ who the hell invited you? ❜ ❛ what? no witty remark? nothing clever to say? ❜ ❛ i just wanted to say i’m sorry. ❜ ❛ think of it as a compliment. ❜ ❛ do you ever stop being so serious and dull? ❜ ❛ it’s rare to see your kind around here. ❜ ❛ you remember me. that’s good. ❜ ❛ you’re a terrible flirt you know. ❜ ❛ are you kidding me? we’re not ‘fine’! ❜ ❛ right now i wish i was dead. ❜ ❛ i guess i should’ve told you. ❜ ❛ you’re not alone. i’m here. ❜ ❛ you’ve been so quiet. what’s on your mind? ❜ ❛ knowledge is power. ❜ ❛ you scared me. ❜ ❛ well, what’s so strange about that? ❜ ❛ don’t look at me like that. ❜ ❛ i want to be there when you get what’s coming to you. ❜ ❛ just who do you think you are? ❜ ❛ you look… amazing. ❜ ❛ we’re safe, aren’t we? ❜ ❛ you know, i really hoped i’d never see this place again. ❜ ❛ don’t touch me. get away from me. ❜ ❛ i thought you’d like this. ❜ ❛ it’s too dark, i can’t see anything. ❜ ❛ what’s that smug look for? you think you can do any better? ❜ ❛ who did you piss off this time? ❜ ❛ you should’ve thought about that before you got into a fight. ❜ ❛ i only wanted to help. ❜ ❛ you knew and you didn’t tell me? ❜ ❛ you don’t scare me. ❜ ❛ wow, look who remembered my existence. ❜ ❛ change isn’t easy. ❜ ❛ why did you help me? ❜ ❛ why do you hate me? ❜ ❛ i can’t even trust myself anymore. ❜ ❛ i was making sure you weren’t dead, since you never called. ❜ ❛ you look awful. what happened? ❜ ❛ are you here to kill me? ❜ ❛ you know you aren’t allowed in here, right? ❜ ❛ was that a friend of yours? ❜ ❛ two years later and you haven’t changed. ❜ ❛ you look like you just saw a ghost. ❜ ❛ nobody tells me what to do. ❜ ❛ you’re too scared to do it, aren’t you? ❜ ❛ come on. it can’t be that bad. ❜ ❛ i hope to repay your kindness someday. ❜ ❛ just let me do this for you. ❜ ❛ why were they coming after you? ❜ ❛ how many people have you killed? how many? ❜ ❛ how much do you value your life? ❜ ❛ you don’t know when to give up, do you? ❜ ❛ don’t lie to me. ❜ ❛ i’m not sober enough to talk about this. ❜ ❛ have a drink with me. ❜

[wovi]

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joy sullivan

[sseizonsha]

re9 discussion under read more

Hmmm. Tbh I don't know if I should bother writing the entire essay of a rant bouncing around in my head. This isn't to yuck anyone's yum bc if you enjoyed Requiem, I'm really and truly envious. I didn't hate everything about it...but I'm afraid this was one of the weakest games in the entire Biohazard franchise. "Trusted Companion charm" Lol.

[geryone]

DEAR GOD. DEAR BONES. DEAR YELLOW., Noor Hindi