a veritable clusterfuck

a system blog. we don't have a name for our system we just are.

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hi we remade we’re at @remnantsystem now (it’s not letting me tag it but w/e)

so this blog is no longer going to be updated

because we moved.

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Nora and I switched places between Shawn and Ryan.

-Ren

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mercury keeps asking when the wedding is and honestly it makes me really mad because he doesn't ask sun around Blake or let us tease him about emerald and like

I guess I'm going to have to hold myself in alittle more again because ren is HERE NOW but not like HERE here he's in Ryan's datemates system and I'm SO HAPPY

but at the same time

he doesn't know how I feel because he's kind of oblivious.

how do I tell him without ruining what we do have

-nora

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riley left because jacob left and someone else kinda slid into the spot where jacob was and it made riley really mad and hurt and upset and he spent days stewing on it and now he’s gone too because he wasn’t happy here anymore

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im going to murder ryans dad and burn his house down like i did mine

FUCK HIM AND FUCK ANYONE WHO TRIES TO STOP ME

this man deserves to be torn apart in the most violent way possible

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when your host has sudden incredibly bad dysphoria and nobody knows who should take over instead because a lot of us are trans also and the dysphoria is starting to bleed over

and the two that are most likely to do it ryan doesn’t want fronting

because one of them it takes too much of the body’s and his energy for him to front

and the other one can’t read and ryan wants to talk to people.

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Ryan got sent home from work tonight because his blood sugar bottomed out and he got sick.

he crashed (sleep crash not sugar crash again) a few minutes ago so we're taking care of the body until it's in fair enough shape for the body to sleep.

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fuckin pleased with myself. I knew emmie would come if I bothered enough B]

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IT’S MY BIRTHDAY. I’m seventeen now!! ^3^

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also this is really gay

every time ryan thinks about shawn ve gets fluttery and swoony and the feeling kinda bleeds over and

man.

makes me miss nep a lot. hahaha.

blake too but not as much as nep.

it also makes jake miss romy.

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also i got to hang out with yang from @nerdeer system this weekend and it was a shitton more fun than i’ve had in a while.

i mean dudes don’t get me wrong i love hangin out with ruby and nora and penny

but it was a lot of fun to hang out with someone else familiar, y’know?

also on friday night penny finally realized that hey, the moon here isn’t broken and her and ruby’s reactions were great.

it was like

penny: ruby... is the... ruby: yes it is, my friend. yes it is.

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ryan’s gonna email a guy he talked to at a con this weekend about commissioning him for a clip on version of my tail. i’m too fuckin’ excited.

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PENNY IS HERE!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!

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tfw ur kwami is ur headmate now too

hello plagg

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update: definitely a ki.ntype. but not one as strong as tony or jaune. like. a secondary kinty.pe.

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this week on “headmate or new kintype” please welcome our special guest

ad,rien a.greste/ch.at n.oir

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Ryan is so unhappy at his dad’s house. I wish there was something more we could do.

A lot of us have been trying to take some of the weight off... I’ve been fronting, Nora’s been fronting, Clint’s been fronting, and so have Souji and Kanji and Usagi.

Ryan’s bitterness and anger and frustration at his dad just keeps bleeding through to all of us. Clint and Khatar have been able to handle it the best.

Honestly it just makes me really, really sad. I wish Ryan had a dad like my dad.

Ryan said ve wants a dad like Kanji’s dad but Kanji said no, because his dad passed away. Ryan said, “Yeah, exactly,” but that just felt so mean and so hurt and so... I don’t know.

I brought up what if Ryan could meet my dad and ve is so scared it hurts and we all feel it. He said, “What if Taiyang is like my dad but you and Yang haven’t realized?” and lashed out some more and said really mean things. But this isn’t about me or my dad.

Ve is scared and holding it all in because ve feels like it isn’t as bad as it could be and that ve’s making a bigger deal than it is, even when Dave yells at ver to get a job, which is like every time he sees ver now, even more than once a day. Like ve’s not trying, and ve is. And it’s not even suggesting in a normal tone like Ryan tries to pass it off, but real, actual yelling about how Ryan is taking advantage of him and wasting all his money. (even though dave goes to waffle house like five times a week i mean cmone dude yourwe wasting your own money -clint)

We just want Ryan to be safe and happy again. So we’re doing our best to help ver out but like I said it’s not a lot.