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This is how it feels...

#to lose a mother #dealing with grief #grief #grief is the thing with feathers #i miss my mum

"You've got starlight in your hair," Sirius whispered.

They were lying face to face, the thin moonlight from the window catching in Remus’s hair. Sirius’s thumb gently brushed his temple.

Remus’s eyes crinkled. "They're called grey hairs, Sirius."

"No." Sirius’s voice was soft, insistent. He traced the silver streak. "The moon’s jealous. It's trying to claim you." He kissed the spot. "But you're mine. All of you. Even the starry bits."

#thats how me and my fiance talk to eachother :')

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Two women kissing (c. 1900s)

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Having someone you love die is such a weird experience.. Even if it's been months it still feels as if they're not gone. As if you'd just have to call or visit and they'd be there. Like they were your whole life.

I have it on my mind constantly, that she's "dead". Like "My mother is dead". But when I take a moment to really truly think about it, it sinks in. My Mother is dead. The person who I loved, who I hugged, who I cried to, who I fought with, who cared for me when I was sick, who loved me, is dead. Gone. And she's not coming back. It's as if suddenly all the air in the room has disappeared and my lungs can't remember how to breathe.

I miss her.

#dealing with grief #grief #death of a parent #mental health #tw death #tw grief #dead mom #life sucks #i miss my mum

I lost my mum a few months ago, after having a very complicated and painful parent-child relationship..

The sadness I felt before her death was sad but comforting, the anger was intense and almost freeing.. But the grief now is just a terrifyingly big, stupid blob, staring at me through my window at night - Wanting to be let in, but he's too big to fit in the apartment.. And he doesn't understand this, but even if he fit, I couldn't let him in. Because he is unbearable compared to the sadness and anger I felt before.

I feel sorry for him. He seems lonely too..

#grief #dealing with grief #death of a parent #tw death #mental health #sadness #anger #dead parent

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what if remus kisses sirius haha how weird would that be

I'm autistic and I currently feel like shit checklist

Hi there. Are you autistic? Do you currently feel like shit and don't know why? Try this checklist to see if you can Fix The Problem!

When was the last time you used the bathroom? If you answered "I don't know" or "at least 3 hours ago", go now!

Do you need a drink? Go get one if you don't have one in front of you.

When was the last time you ate? If you haven't eaten yet today, consider eating A Meal, or perhaps A Snack. Something is better than nothing, eat whatever you feel able to!

Is there something in your immediate surroundings that is bothering you? If the light is too bright, turn it off. If there is an annoying sound, make the sound stop or reduce your ability to hear it (earplugs, headphones, etc.). If your clothes are bothering you, change them.

Is your space messy? Pick one area of your room and clean it up as best you can. Clean your whole room if you have the energy!

When was the last time you did An Activity? Scrolling on social media doesn't count. Try actively doing something fun! Play a game you like, read a book, make something, or go for a walk.

When was the last time you Spoke to a Person? Consider talking to a person you like if it has been a while.

How long has it been since you did something Special Interest related? Make some time to do that today. Infodump to a friend, have a nice long research session, look at related images or gifs, make art about it, whatever works best for you!

Try stimming actively! Put on some music and dance, spin in circles, go to the park and use the swings!

If you still feel like shit after trying all of these things, you might be tired or sick. Go to bed early and get some rest. Hopefully you will feel better tomorrow!

Hope that helps :)

#autism #audhd #mental health #stimming #checklist

Caring about university and exams is just so hard when you need all your energy to fill out special international inheritance forms and send translations of your mums death certificate all over the place. And when you're having bad dreams about it every night..

I just don't think its fair that I have to be doing this at 23. It's not fair.

#tw death #death of a parent #mental health #university #exams #i think my depression is coming back