RAYRAYRAYYY

MENTALLYILL SCHIZOAUTIST SYS SOLDIER ✚ FIELDMEDIC ARTIST . . . COINER

[st4rfuckerr]

KENNETH / RAYMOND ☆ — [ or kipper, marylander, fitzgerald, hudson, beckett, rodger, kennedy ]

— he h1m his? ██ [REDACTED] (???) [DATA EXPUNGED] gunfire aid medic gauze

— kenochoric panmascx xenohoarder

— faggot oriented&repulsedaroace afamilial+platonoid statuserosion universtrist objectum

— mentally ill schizofreakazoid uncannyrace horrorangel

— permateendult liminalage && angelage/young

— infp-t eii 2w1 251 sp2 melancholic-sanguine 1L1e2f3v

STANCES . . .

— radqueer rabiesqueer radfleur xenoweirdness radfic cleverinclus absurdqueer altruqueer weedqueer sealqueer radmed radreform idontcarqueer idgafqueer cakequeer joyqueer rebornqueer anonyqueer bunnyqueer citrusqueer oceanicqueer agapequeer deceitqueer (dangerous)madpunk beastpunk

— big three + consang = anti contact (transid exempt) . . . consensual contact otherwise / anti noncon harm

DISORDERS . . .

cis ; lvl2autism adhd bpd npd dpd ppd szpd ocd osdd1a cptsd chronicmotorticdisorder pmdd dpdr hypersexual maladaptivedaydreaming speechsounddisorder fluencydisorder arfid sensoryprocessingdisorder auditoryprocessingdisorder visualsnow astigmatism miscphobias unstablethermoregulationsyndrome synesthesia chronicillness(dgbi)

— symptom-caused ; tennitus photophobia dyspraxia echolalia rejectionsensitivedysphoria

SPECIES . . .

misc ; nonhuman inhuman humanoid thing (uncanny)angel savior divine (false)prophet anomaly ??? observer (incomprehensible)horror selkie prey (light)entity brockenspecre eldritch(horror/god) shadowfigure alternate stilllife cornerfolk corruptmainframe cyberentity software hardware code malware www .com html programming cpu virus trojan wiring cables powerlines transmissiontower windturbine fumikiri satellite

concepts ; sacrificiallamb scapegoat puppet jester martyr nothing shadow void unknown weird null endless infinity 4d isolation fear paranoia kindness love delusion liminality uncanniness latin everywhereattheendoftime (bio)hazard scopaesthesia solipsism

INTERESTS . . .

main fandoms ; guts&blackpowder centaura deadahead lexington&concord whizzbang lastdawn ourexecution horizonblue happyworldwithhappypeople themoonirotbehind lethimgo drawnout badthings searchingforaworldthatdoesn'texist recallahollowheart itzskeet_playz brandonworks backrooms theoldestview peoplestilllivehere drnowhere (oniondweller's)ongezellig thewaltenfiles teachthecat rabbitmaidensoftworks 17776 faith:tut

broad ; psychological horror analog/digital horror roblox + minecraft args/psych horror games military/war strange webcomics and webseries of all kinds

TRANSIDS . . .

natal&cis ; paranoid insecure nervous clumsy silly hyper talkative jealous loving happy joybringer unstable sensitive adored adorable smart genius gifted perfectstudent optimist devotee (pers)nice (pers)harmless (pers)kind delusional psychosis-prone auditoryhallucinations musician trombonist contrabassist concertband orchestra marchingband artist chronicallyonline white nhs southern eastcoast lingualenglish neatwriting militariacollector plushiecollector itabeyaroom glassesuser shscarred superioritycomplex victimcomplex martyrcomplex empath clairsentient omniverted harmed abused bullied groomed harassed dehumanized

— cisdelu ; (religious)savior messiah religiousimportance jesuschrist chosenbygod starseed heaventoearth angel halo angelwing(scars)

trans ; (pan)military wartime soldier combat/fieldmedic armydoctor medicalpractice underagedsoldier technician radio(intercept)operator homecominginitiativevictim killedinaction awol warwounded hearinglossdue2beinginwar rougesoldier corruptedsoldier bootcamp drafted jrotc combatstressreaction shellshock warneurosis battlefatigue veteran runaway rosary dogtags havinghandler/owned/controlled tradhusband priest altarboy (patron)saint chaplain reverend christian churchgoer prayerreciever bartender translator americanpatriot whistleblower asl lingualhebrew linguallatin lingualgerman lingualrussian soviet brokenenglish messycursive taiga&tundra caneuser crutchuser su1c1d3scars burnscars cigburns boostshscars darkerscars identityloss badleg/legmuscleweakness/limp bloodyfootprints teenagedirtbag 2000solderbrother/y2kteenboy sharpercainines snaggleteeth dead2x legallydead missing johndoe corrupted/(godly)sentientnpc analoghorror arg argcult robloxadmin spawnist retrorobloxhorror radqueerfamous (bloody)snowdeath frostbite/hypothermia chronicnosebleeds eyebags faceless headwings facialcrest halo angelwings corporealflux ribinjury polytrauma spinaltap coughingblood alcoholic smoker mentalhospitalpatient/revolvingdoorpsychpatient hospitalized icu tapegagged latchkeykid mute semiverbal tetrachromacy traumaticbraininjury (drivento)su1c1de gunshotsu1c1d3 shot madnoter slurredspeech vasovagalsyncope survivorsguilt masshysteria (driven)insane panhallucinations trumanshowdelusion lightningstrikesurvivor haunted falsehope manipulatedkiller dbmc tbmc sleepparalysis programming gulfwarsyndrome chronicwastingdisease arctichysteria polarmadness mkultravictim indoctrinated worsetrauma aphasia harmedforcreepiness harmedforguilt innocentharmful angelharmed angelharmful mirroredtrauma largeheadcount morefictives workaholic leader limitlesspatience scary physicallyharmful violent angeroutbursts/angerissues saviorcomplex inferioritycomplex nocturnal crepuscular tapetumlucidum antipsychotics medicated4adhd hateincapable2hatecapable ushankawearer emetophilia amab universefluid accentfluid phonevoice distorted/overlappingvoice

— scent ; military soldier reload assaultrifle luck fear dread sweat musk angel wetdog catsmell pine topsoil dirt mud dust seawater creekwater campfire rain snow winter alcohol cigarettes ash petroleum burntwire static chlorine metal blood oldbooks oldchurch antiquestore nursinghome basement hospital

tris ; british french german russian european slavic balkan nordic scandinavian celtic seal bunny deer kitty chinchilla facialblindness stockholmsyndrome uncannyvalley lingualfrench religiousparanoia medicaltrauma

spite ; misandrist cisphobic binaryphobic heterophobic antianti postradqueer

faux ; missing hunted targeted stalked watched agefluid(<15)

null ; hated problematic controversy edgy abandoned sleep relaxed stupid bully mean hurtful guilty footprints real (pet)allergies

perma ; youngadult teendult highschooler soldier inuniform camo rosary dogtags messyhair polite punctual goodmanners significantlyaboveaverageintelligence goodimpression loved kind nice admired praised adored caredfor affection pitied narchigh happy joking unserious manic panwinner best othersjealous envied intox drunk tipsy high dreamlikestate sedated poisoned harmed abused groomed neglected victim underclassman eastcoastamerican pure holy psychosis helpless brainwashed delusional hallucinating anxious inpain wounded bruised sprainedankle aching (bloody)bandaged sh shscars (musician)wristpain anklepain bruisedknuckles bruisedlegs bruisedarms chokingbruises shakyhands unhealedcuts addicted gunshotwound starving shaking scared disordered unstable dazed dissociated dehumanized sexualized mentallyill harassed panharmed stuttering gentletone bleedingout bloody(due2beingfieldmedic) redlowhealthscreenvision sick (mentally)ill exhausted overworked traumatized sleepdeprived starving underweight scapegoat nightmares limp caned vertigo baggyeyes guilty apologetic (disorder)fucked(/nsx) hidingsomething freezing hypothermia blizzard winter liminal(space) undercontract armed

PARAS . . .

misc ; (auto)masochism andropal boyloser hiero impudic omo/uro autocapri autoexsanguinate autohemo autooulo automolopa auto(narko)biasto autosomno intoxico autoassassino asphyxio automentunsta autounaisi uniform bondage powerimbalance taboodynamics moonlightaam

objectum ; earlytech retrotech mainframes supercomputers transmissiontowers radiotowers spacetech securitycameras trains synths trombones contrabasses marchingbanduniforms spotlights washlights lightingcontrolconsoles mixingconsoles fighterjets militaryaircraft warships tanks militarymachinery weapons firearms axes militaryuniforms marchingbanduniforms religiousobjects/places nationflags oldtelephones alcohol(containers) cigarettes vintage retroamerica night corporations nighttimecityscapes sadness fear

#⠀⠀⠀⠀LETTERS FROM THE FRONT LINES —⠀🪖 [ general / misc ]

#⠀⠀⠀⠀GREEN BOOK —⠀🩺 [ art / coinings ]

#⠀⠀⠀⠀RADIO COMMS —⠀🎖️ [ asks ]

#⠀⠀⠀⠀RADAR PING —⠀💥 [ reblogs ]

STRAW.PAGE . . . PRNS.CC . . . SYS INFO . . . ALL IDS

[nyaqueerdump]

Adonepiage

a term for those who identify as nepiage (1-4) due to being Adophilic

Adopedage

a term for those who identify as pedage (5-10) due to being Adophilic

Adohebage

a term for those who identify as hebeage (10-14) due to being Adophilic

Adoephebage

a term for those who identify as ephebage (15-19) due to being Adophilic

[xxyaoitron9000xx]

being a fictive and finding a character that makes u go Ohh theyre literally me is v funny

[xxyaoitron9000xx]

and then they inevitably become part of u

[mousegirlheart]

weird how abled people don't want you to have supports because it may Annoy Them. no, you can't have a shower chair, it'll get in my way. no, you can't put subtitles on, im here to watch a movie not read. because the needs of the disabled are somehow lesser than the wants of the abled.

[dykexehanort]

Hi. This is really nerve-wracking for me, so please be patient. I'm opening art commissions. I only take payment on CashApp because of the fact I do not have a State ID, and cannot access literally anything. Paypal randomly put me into debt and refused to let me pay it. So. 👀

(Not really important information but the character is based on the TransFujoshi flag. Isn't that neat?)

PRICES —

Sketch — 1.25 USD - 1.75 USD, based on the complexity of the character.

Coloured Sketch — 1.75 USD to 2.25 USD, based on the complexity of the character.

Lineart — 2.25 USD to 2.75 USD, based on the complexity of the character.

Flat Colour — 2.75 USD to 3.25 USD, based on the complexity of the character.

Shaded — 3.25 USD to 4.25 USD, based on the complexity of the character.

I will not draw (Primarily due to skill deficiency) -

1. Mecha

2. Furry / Anthro

3. NSFW

4. Gore.

I reserve the right to deny specific requests as I see fit.

Please DM me on here if you wish to inquire.

[st4rfuckerr]

i just wanna say thanks for making your contact stance so clear, i'm new to the community (or at least new to posting in it) and i feel like i'm walking on eggshells because people don't make their contact stances clear and i worry about accidentally platforming someone who supports nonconsensual abuse, your blog is like a breath of fresh air

bwahhhh of ccourse !!!!! ^__^ i&m someone who's really paranoid of how i&m perceived and how my& beliefs are taken so i& try 2 make it as overt as possible ,,, even how it stands now i& get worried

[st4rfuckerr]

i? love working @ night but i? sometimes wish it wasn't in a theater (like. theatrical performance theater not movie theater) becuz i? would love 2 have an earbud in and listen 2 liek the caretaker infinity frequencies crossing bridges etc etc jjust like liminal unsettling ambiance ........ but even if i? did the mics and sound effects and music would drown it out and ruin the experience T_T

[st4rfuckerr]

I didn't realize you were the same guy on Pinterest and I had to do a double take... Your flags are very cool & I've hoarded half of them ◉⁠‿⁠◉ thankyou for your service —R

gahhh 1 am simply an archival account !!!!! make sure 2 support the actual creators T_T !!!! 1 don't wanna take the credit 4 their flags ,,,,, (though some of the stuff on there 1've made mys3lf ! it should state so in the description) bbut thank you nonetheless ^_^"

[sk8rhd]

man there is literally just people on radqblr. grown ass people with actual jobs. people that like genuinely have lives and aren't just loser high school students like me. and then theres the beings that arent even PEOPLE like thats so fucking awesome

[st4rfuckerr]

i #hate being a headmate that exists just 2 hold paranoia T_T you triggered me 2 front right be4 we went 2 bed of course we're gonna have nightmares — 🌀

[cisnpd]

﹙✦﹚ XENOGENDER RADQUEER

or xenogender radqueer

﹙✦﹚ a flag for xenogender beings who are radqueer, often who feels outcasted in most trans and xenogender oriented spaces. it is not inherently an ideology.

[verymanyrats]

radqueer space flag, inspired by that nasa pride flag. happy pride everybody!

[solarifle]

"we have to accept the fact that the r word is coming back" NO WE DONTTTT NO WE DONT

[obnoxic0rpse]

god i love being avoidant and immature and just blocking creaturez who disagree with me or criticize me whatsoever. aw dont like me? gonna point out an obvious flaw in my childish opinion? eeeheehehe guess what i can dooooo :P

[broconn]

the thing all radqueer boys have to identify as....,,,..,, permachainedup or something.....

[st4rfuckerr]

we saw ur post abt phobias and ur so so right. we had (and some of us in sys still do) a very , very severe phobia of bugs . ALL bugs , including worms , butterflies , "harmless" bugs. it was so bad we would constantly ask someone else to check our clothes and body for bugs after coming in from outside , before sitting down outside , before entering a car , even before we would put clothes on if we hadnt worn them for a while. if we saw a SINGLE bug near something , we refused to use / touch that item or enter the building it was in until we were SHOWN it being killed or removed. even hearing a bug buzz nearby made us panic and we would have to have our entire body shielded by someone or something else to feel safe enough to move again.

and even still we were called dramatic for it and told to get over it . we did , for the most part , but only due to severe dissociation. i really wish everybeast would understand phobias arent silly quirks , theyre DEBILITATING , especially when its things u cant fully get away from like bugs or microorganisms or other animals .

!!!!!!!! YES YES YOU& GET IT !!!!!!! RETWEET RETWEET RETWEET

[perma-vessel]

I& just remembered Jay's statement about anyone who disagrees , and it's not the desirable fantasy he thinks it is , it's actually funny he thinks anyone could willingly become his pet , while every space kept kicking him out like a pest . On a serious note , that admission is yet another proof that he isn't putting any effort in recovery , at this point everyone should avoid interacting with him in any manner , all sorts of attention are what keeps him sticking to the community like a leech .

For a moment I& was confused on how is Jay still present , the fact that no matter how many goodbyes he tells he stills come back , probably to keep himself relevant , then I& remembered the people that tolerate him simply because they don't care about " past " allegations when they're still ongoing , even the past ones haven't been fully acknowledged to the extent they deserve , and the ones that publicly admitted they want him to groom them , trust me& you don't want that to happen , it's not the fantasy turned consensual scenario you think it would be , you can do better than a predator who spread CSEM and is still attempting to enter relationships with malicious intentions .

This turned into a semi messy rambling , it's just tiring how apathy is used as an excuse to buddy with him , the inability of certain beings to take the harm he caused as a legitimate issue and not a chance to validate their transharmed identity .