You Gotta Not

baby really hurt me, crying in the taxi. he don't wanna know me, says he made the big mistake of dancing in my storm. says it was p o i s o n. so i guess i'll go home, into the arms of the girl that i love, the only love i haven't SCREWED up.

[staincdhearts]

𝒵 𝐼 𝒢 𝒢 𝒴 ​:

         𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐑𝐔𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐄𝐃 𝐁𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐒     within his hand soon lowered to his side as hyerin motioned for him to halt his actions. and, he simply didn’t protest against her claims, accepting that it was perfectly fine that he went home with what she’d given him. trying his best not to dwell on the guilt that dared to itch at the back of his neck. because , there was a time in zig’s life where he could have given the girl before him the money he felt she deserved for the bouquet held between his fingertips. sadly, after being sent to hosu, that lifestyle had disappeared alongside his previous freedom.  ❝  only if you say so,  ❞   he stuck his offering back into his pocket. head tilted to the side slightly while his goofy grin remained plastered across his face. catching sight of her own smile barely ghosted upon her features. something which caused his heart thrum against his chest at an irregular pace.   ❝  aw shucks, you’re giving me too much credit, bro. this lil’ shop is super rad, it’s hard for me to pass up when im on my way home.  ❞ which was a lie, ziggy’s apartment was on the opposite side of the island. but, still, he always found himself coming back.  ❝  it’s cool seeing what ya got goin’ on in here, it’s a bummer more people don’t come by regularly for flowers. guess for them, it might be hard to find a use for em’ when there isn’t a special occasion. i’ll be sure to take these home and appreciate them, and next time i swing by, i’ll try to buy something extra nice .  ❞   it was a nod that followed his words, as if in a declaration of some sort. however, his attention quickly gravitated to the flowers he held as she revealed their original purpose.   ❝  anniversary, huh ?? well, these woulda made those love birds super happy. i mean, like. they weren’t even made more me, but i’m pretty stoked about getting to keep them. you’ve gotta special touch. no one makes them as pretty as you.  ❞

“ of course. you’re really doing me a favor by taking them and giving them a loving home. ” there was a slight weight of guilt in the pit of her stomach, as heavy as a small rock, but she brushed it away for something to deal with in the confines of her own home. while he had agreed to take the flora, and even looked happy to take them, she was worried a little that maybe she had overstepped as an employee. as a person, she couldn’t be more elated to see the flowers go to someone who treated them just as gentle as herself. well, she assumes that he treats them well. the times she’s seen the other come in she hasn’t had to kick him out for destroying the petals or ripping plants out of their pots. on top of it all, he seemed to just... genuinely enjoy the flora scattered around the shop, and if his earlier comment didn’t help prove that then she wouldn’t know what would. “ the flowers are pretty, but on an island with different and more exotic plants, most people tend to pass the shop. which isn’t bad, people have preferences, you know? that’s why it’s nice to see you come through and still look around. ” and while hyerin wasn’t much of a people person, she knew that without said people the shop wouldn’t do as well as it did. “ well, it’s not only that they find it hard to pick them for a special occasion it’s just... ” she trailed off, trying to think of the proper way to say this without sounding bitter or upset. because she wasn’t. the world didn’t hold onto the value of simple things anymore. it was all about money and how much something was worth to give it value. flowers were just... too simple for things like that. it was like the value of things only mattered when the price tag was beyond that of even their own wallets and it was saddening. “ people prefer golden necklaces and rings with diamonds the size of russia for them to mean something. ” her eyes trailed down to the bouquet and softened considerably. “ but no one ever takes the time to really understand the meaning of value or the thought that comes behind a gift anymore. ” whatever little bubble she’d slipped into, guard down a little, she snapped out of it just as quick. “ ah, but what do i know, right? i’m just a simple florist. ” another quick, small smile decorated her lips with his compliment, almost embarrassed from the high ( at least, what she considered high ) praise that fell from his lips. “ ah-- you’re really too kind. i just put it together and wrap a little ribon around it, but not much else. the flowers really do all the work. ” she paused, taking his sentence apart for a moment. “ would you... want a bouqquet made for you? i don’t think i’ve ever seen you pick a specific flower before or stick to one... But, if you’d like one, we could make you an arrangement? ”

[staincdhearts]

𝕊 𝕀 𝕐 𝔼 𝕆  ℕ ​:

“you’re quite tall… i doubt a snack would do much on you,” she mumbled honestly, one thing she knew was that by being tall was that even when she put on weight it wasn’t as obvious as if she had been shorter. his comment enough to assure her that she should get him something besides the coffee. “can i ask for a favor though? could you order for us?” now her nervousness was obvious as they rushed to the coffee shop, not really fancying the idea of being the one to speak to someone who would most likely react negatively about her presence on the shop. “i really don’t do well at ordering anything,” she bit her bottom lip as she stood closer to the male, “i’ll owe you one.” her own reactions happening involuntarily, she was now walking behind him and her eyes were fixated on the floor, the sight of the full cafe was enough to get her anxious about their reaction the moment she walked in.

even if the comment hadn’t really been meant as a compliment, jae took it as one anyways. anything that wasn’t said negatively could always be counted as one if you tried hard enough. or just didn’t care, which he didn’t for the most part. “ you want me to order our drinks now? man, who knew something so simple ended up with me doing all the grunt work. ” again, not that jae cared. as long as he wasn’t paying for any of it. but his musings came to a stop when she said that if he did, she would owe him. “ oh? ” his eyes lit up as a flurry of ideas started to stream through his mind on what he could possibly ask her for now. “ you should really be careful with your words, you know. because that’s a promise now. you can’t say no to anything i ask, then. deal? ” not that jae would actively ask the woman next to him to do anything illegal. he had some decency in him, as little as it was. “ and don’t worry, i’m not going to make you steal a pocket a watch or anything. mostly because i don’t think you could do it without freezing in the middle of the floor. ” his words were meant more of a joke, despite the fact he truly did believe that that would happen with the other.

[gotham-daily]

[staincdhearts]

𝒩 𝒴 𝒳 ​:

         𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐑𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐍 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐃 𝐅𝐄𝐌𝐀𝐋𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃𝐍'𝐓 𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐏 𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐋𝐄𝐓 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐆𝐀𝐙𝐄 𝐑𝐎𝐀𝐌 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑 over the female opposite to her. the gaze itself somewhat scrutinizing, the only thing somewhat shielding this being the way she had pressed her cheek up against danbi’s collar of curled fluff and nuzzled there soothingly as the pup relaxed against her. there was just something about the other that seemed so familiar, something about the way she seemed to so deliberately pause over her words, select them ever so carefully before she dare spoke at all. as if they all held the weight of the world, as if any slight communication of more than the necessary would let slip something too private to be given so easily. it almost felt like looking out at what resided inside of her own body, all the secrets and discomfort and frustration it kept barely coiled up tight. ❝ you’re almost making me think you have a little too much faith in humanity. but you’re here in hosu, so that seems doubtful. believe me, there’s no such thing as ‘good’ people ❞ she chuckles cynically but seems to take a second to let the other woman’s words wash over her before she nods slowly and deliberately in understanding. ❝ that’s fair enough. i suppose they do the same thing anyway, and towels are going to warm you through a lot faster than a drink ❞ she rationalized, more to herself than anything. truth be told, nyx felt as though the other said more in her silence than in the few sentences they exchanged. it always seemed to penetrate that little bit longer than average, as if the female always had a lot more to say than she felt it wise to express. ❝ it’s the worst. i may even bathe the poor sod when i’m home at this rate ❞ she jaunted merrily. ❝ strong perfume on top of a good fabric softener seems like the way to go. the ocean can be soothing, but it’s one of those things that always smells better fresh❞ she hummed, somewhat nostalgic smile overtaking features as she thought of salt water evenings sat simply inhaling that scent and watching the world go undisturbed, trying to find some peace of mind. ❝ i’m a big lover of being by the water. i think it speaks in a very pretty manner. like anything in life, the ocean either chooses to embrace you or take you under and stifle you just as much as you choose to try and master it. you can’t control it but somehow it doesn’t make you feel powerless, like most other things would. surrendering is actually kind of blissful ❞ the other hadn’t meant for her words to get so deep and detailed, but it seemed there was some balance this way. what the other did not say in so many words, nyx seemed to make up for. 

the feeling of being watched was something hyerin was all to intimate with. it was easy enough to know the stare of someone who was waiting for an opening, a moment to see a small weakening point just to dive in and attack in. was the other female doing that? the burning heat of her gaze making her ten times more aware that she felt her fingers twitch, if only the slightest-- the need to hold something to be grounded slowly blooming at them. “ would it be such a bad thing to have a little faith in the human race at this point,” she asked, truly curious about the answer. half the people she’d come to meet were so bitter about the island, so ready to curse it to hell and back, to hope for it to sink into the very ocean that surrounded it. hyerin knows that whatever their reasons were for wanting it were just as valid as the one where she didn’t mind the island. it wasn’t the best. it probably would never be, but it would always be better than the memory of empty hallways. a lonely breakfast table. the demands to be perfect, perfect, p e r f e c t-- hyerin closed her eyes breifly, reigning in the swell of emotion that seemed to creep up on her unexpectedly. too much. it was too much to show at once and this wasn’t the time, nor the place to lose that self control she’d worked so hard to keep. “ thank you, for the towels that you’re going to lend me. I can wash them at my place and return what i used, if you’d like. as for your pup... ” her eyes trailed to the shivering mass of fur and felt her lips curve at the corner. “ i think he’d be happier about being in warmer water than the ocean. the water wasn’t the warmest when i picked him up.” but she listened as the other explained how to rid the smell and nodded. “ i usually hang my clothes out to dry, so hopefully it’ll help with the smell, thank you. i usually don’t try to swim out in my day clothes, ” she tried to joke, the words coming out awkward even from her own mouth. but it didn’t seem to stick for long as the other started to speak of the ocean in a way that... could be described as almost poetic. almost like it was a love-- maybe it was. everyone had their own thing. maybe for her, it was the ocean. just as her own garden was for her. “ it sounds like i haven’t been looking at it properly enough then. it’s calming out here, but there’s still a fear of being swept up, i suppose. the unknown has always been scary to humans. we’re still human, just with a little special something. if i could see it through your eyes though, maybe the fear of it wouldn’t be as prominent. ”

[staincdhearts]

ℤ 𝕀 𝔾 𝔾 𝕐 ​:

          𝐙𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐘 𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐓 𝐇𝐄    might pull his hair out as he watched jae shake his bouquet without care, gaze catching onto every petal that fell to the ground. and, though the male had been raised on the ideas of love, not war— to love thy neighbor. never had anyone said anything about loving an aggravating roommate. hearing the other speak, keeping his inner peace was getting harder and harder by the second.    ❝  what does it look like ?? it looks like you’re a mad man, my dude !!  ❞  brows knitted together, answering a question that may have been rhetorical.  because it was quite obvious what jae had in mind. ziggy’s flowers looking as if they were about to meet their fate. a tragic end . a demise that consisted of a tale written about how they’d be sent out the window where gravity would do her work, plummeting them to the ground.   ❝  bruh, you’re straight hatin’ cause those peonies smell rad as fuck !!  ❞   he protested against jae’s claims, unable to believe here the other was. calling hyerin’s work of art a MONSTROSITY.   ❝  they totally, like,  spark up the place. look at those colors , broski !!   they were carefully put together and everything.. and … i got no idea what you’re on about, them not looking bomb.  but yes. they’re mine.  so , you better stop playing around jae. cause i swear on my surfboard, if you throw them out the window—-  ❞ 

“ if i throw them out the window, what? you going to bite me? you going to toss me out the same window? i’d like to see you try, shark boy, ” jae countered, uncaring if he cut into the other’s words or not. he wasn’t even that upset, in all honesty. but seeing his normally level headed ( air head ? ) of a roommate finally showing some semblance of emotion that wasn’t concern or straight up joy was refreshing. and over some small bouquet of flowers that. it made him only the slightest bit curious as to why these damn things were so special. “ they smell terrible. for one, none of these flowers should ever be put together again for the sheer smell alone. i feel like i’m going to vomit every time i get a whiff of it. and the wrapping? what is this? a valentine’s gift? you planning on giving these to a girl or what? because let me tell you, she’s going to smash these in your face and then throw up on your shoes. ” maybe jae was taking this a little too far, but he wanted to see just how worked up he could get the other, if only for his own entertainment. he lifted the bouquet once more and moved back to the window. “ i’m doing you a favor. just buy a necklace, trust me. now i’m throwing this out and you’re next if you take another step, got it? ”

[staincdhearts]

𝕋 𝔸 𝔼 𝕊 𝕆 𝕆 ​:

Sure Jae may know how his body reacts when getting a tattoo done, but that’s because Taesoo is the one who is doing the tattoo and is the professional between the two of them. He has more knowledge than Jae when it comes to doing tattoos and things that people may not be aware of. “There’s a few more like making sure you have everything properly sterilized, knowing the tattoo ink you have isn’t going to give you an allergic reaction later, making sure you’re not puncturing your skin too deeply because you’ll end up in pain and risk getting an infection while if the depth is shallow you’ll cause the tattoo ink to bleed out, and avoiding cross contamination between the needle and your blood.” At Jae’s suggestion of him watching over him, Taesoo doesn’t feel too confident he should let the younger give himself a tattoo. Even if he was watching, he didn’t trust the equipment mostly that came with stick-n-pokes. “I still don’t think you should give it a try. Doing a tattoo isn’t so simple you know. It’s not just being able to draw something on yourself. You have to keep in mind of a lot of things too like which areas have more fat or less compared to others and which skin areas are thinner than others on your body to determine if it’ll be painful or not for you. As well as knowing how not to harm your body in the process.”

with every bad thing that taesoo kept listing off, it made jae more and more likely to want the stick-n-poke. not because he was scared, but now because it just seemed like too much work to actually handle the thing. how was he supposed to know how deep was too deep but also not shallow? and if he did harm himself in the process was it going to be something he had to be actually worried about? because he really didn’t feel like going to the emergency room over something as small as some... inked infection. as far as it came to most things jae did, he really didn’t want to take the time out of his day if he did mess up. “ so you’re telling me that i should just stick to spending a couple hundred for each tattoo basically, ” he said, not really upset, but more dismissive. that had been a whole waste of time all to be told ‘no’ in the end. “ i mean, don’t get me wrong. i don’t think the work you do is cheap or anything, ” he added in quickly, not wanting to piss the other off or lose the somewhat decent bond they had. “ but it really dents into the pocket, y’know? i’m just a lowly cafe worker. this stick-n-poke was supposed to be the saving grace and all too. now you’re telling me i could basically die from it.... isn’t that illegal to sell then? ”

[staincdhearts]

i hate spectrum so much this is the seventh time my Internet has gone out for absolutely no reason and they can’t fix it until tomorrow I’m gonna F I G H T !!! anyways i am super super sorry about this but tomorrow FOR SURE I will be getting on

[staincdhearts]

Ill be on in a few hours I promise !! ive just been super busy and not feeling all too well on top of it so I’ve been sleeping a lot !! but expect some replies !!

[sowonis]

uwu

[kimsowon]

a model ♡

[gyeeom]

yugyeom x superintern ep2

[gukiejjk]

jungkook’s reunion with yugyeom is always the sweetest

[badwolfoswin]

Winston, you’ve been staring at this girl for 5 minutes. Please tell me you’re checking her out, otherwise you’re a serial killer, which would explain a lot.

[staincdhearts]

𝒥 𝒜 𝒩 𝒢 𝑀 𝐼 ​:

the other had her thinking, wondering if there could be anything like that on the island. she didn’t doubt there were good people, everyone she had met up until now had not been inherently bad but who would think to rebel or be bad around a government that would punish you? it was probably a death wish— and although she was always very vocal towards her hatred about the government and the people in power, she also knew about her chances and probabilities of making it out alive if she ever tried. “i’m not saying we are bad, but the people who control this and who put us here are. what different is this to a dictatorship? we can’t leave, we can only make a life here… no one even knows if we’re alive or dead.” she gave the other a shrug, it was hard to be optimistic after everything she had been gone through since her childhood, how could be there be good people when she was followed through an entire country even though she held no threat against the government. “those who chose to side with the government, i don’t blame them either. it’s survival of the fittest but— its the whole thing behind it. why do they have to comply in order to have more freedom?” jangmi scratched the side of her head as she looked down before shaking her head, “no one here is fighting it. what’s the point? it’s not like there’s actual freedom here… of course, i gave up hope on this place, what is there left to be hopeful about? i’m going to die here, i’m trapped here.”

this topic was truly something that had the cogs in hyerin’s mind turning. along with the growing anxiety seeping under her skin. she didn’t want to overstep and talk out of turn, mainly because... well, she hadn’t really thought much into the topic of why they’d been brought here. maybe for the safety of others? that seemed likely, the faint memory of her own transportation to the island falshing through her mind. “ i’m not saying that you’ll die here, ” her features scrunched into a wince, the words harsh even to her own ears. “ just... this island doesn’t have to mean bad. you keep tying negative things to this island. but... the island itself isn’t what’s evil. ” she spoke her words carefully, hoping that what she said wouldn’t upset the other, but also to show that while she understood her own dilemma, that there were ways to still have hope in. “ there’s plenty of people here, the good ones,who probably feel the same as you. they want off, this feels like injustice. and honestly, if you think about it, we could overthrow the bad people if it were... that bad. but is the reward... is it something everyone wants, or is it the selfish wish of a few? ” she felt like she was babling now, spewing too much out of her mouth and there was no stopping. it was weird because... this was new. the no filtering, the slight difference in her hesitance. she was letting herself slip into the argument way too quickly. “  i... not that the wish is selfish. that’s-- sorry. i just... i mean to say, that you view this island as prison, but... have you ever wondered that for some it’s also their safe haven. a fresh start. yes, the... bad people, are bad. no doubt, but there’s no stopping us, as a society, from reform either. so... wouldn’t that make us just as bad? ”

[staincdhearts]

ℤ 𝕀 𝔾 𝔾 𝕐 ​:

✦ .   ˚  &. —     @staincdhearts​  . ˟

            𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐍 𝐙𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐘 𝐇𝐀𝐃    come home, there was an obvious pep in his step. a smile made of knifepoint canines which dared to sparkle brighter than it typically did on any other given day. but perhaps it was due to the bouquet he’d brought home that evening. a flower arrangement made by the girl who worked at the shop he frequented regularly, as of late. and, when he arrived at the apartment, it was obvious that he’d been on cloud nine. setting his prized possesion on the table until he’d found a proper place for them, he’d only left the common space of the shared apartment for but a few minutes. however, when he returned , never had he expected these change of events. seeing jae with the flora he’d been given. there his roommate was, ready to send them flying out the window.  ❝  THE FUCK, BRO !!??  ❞  zig yelled out in a panic. anger quickly taking over his features.  an odd sight for a visage that was typically draped in calmness. yet, this was drawing the line. despite how he often tried to keep zen, there was no point in battling the aggravation he currently felt.  ❝   the hell do you think you’re doing  ??  give those back, jae. ❞ 

dinner had been what jae had anticipated when he heard the front door open. or at least groceries to make dinner, but what had greeted him was a colorful atrocity sitting center on their dining table. the colors had immediately made him nauseous just from the brightness of them clashing against the color scheme of their apartment. “ who the hell... ” upon walking closer, the smells from the flora had made him wrinkle his nose, finding the aroma way too sweet. the bundle of green looked completely out of place in their home and while he had allowed many things to slide with the rest of his roommates, he’d be damned if he let them start ruining the aesthetic in place of their home. which is why he’d been completely surprised when he heard ziggy’s yell as he was leaned halfway out of their living room window, the bouquet wrenched back in his hand and ready to toss the horrid thing into the night. “ what am i doing? what does it look like, ” he said, shaking the flowers carelessly in his hand, uncaring of the fluttering petals that fell loose. “ i’m throwing this monstrosity away. first off, it’s stinking the place up and two, i’ll be damn if these peonies are going to clash with the yellow scheme of the kitchen. ” but seeing the other’s face, contorted in something akin to... anger, it stopped him. “ what? don’t tell me these are yours? you’ve got questionable fashion choices, but don’t tell me you really thought these looked nice? ”

[staincdhearts]

𝕋 𝔸 𝔼 𝕊 𝕆 𝕆 ​:

Well, he did want to know what they were going to be doing today just so he’s aware. He doesn’t like being clueless of what’s going on and not being prepared for whatever Jae had in mind for them today. Though, he gets surprised hearing that Jae wants to know how he decided his career as a tattoo artist and opinion on stick-n-pokes. He’s guessing that the younger must be interested in the tattoo world. “Oh, being a tattoo artist wasn’t my first career choice. Originally I wanted to be a graphic designer, but when I was brought here I realized I wasn’t really going to go far being one since I can’t branch out to other companies and people outside of here with all the restrictions. So I figured to go try another job relating to art and decided give being a tattoo artist a try and here I am now. As for stick-n-pokes, I wouldn’t recommend it especially since anything can go wrong at any given moment. If you have no idea what you’re doing or and knowledgeable of how your body is going to react while and after getting a tattoo done, don’t go for it.”

hearing the other’s history really hadn’t been what he wanted, and more than once jae had debated on interrupting him. the thing of it was, he did enjoy taesoo’s company-- especially his artwork. he can count on his own hands how many times he’s stepped into the others shop to get a few pieces of ink himself. the last thing he wanted to do was piss the other off or make it so he wasn’t allowed back into the shop. “ well, i know easily how well my body takes to getting one done since i’ve been to your place. ” he pointed out, even making a gesture to his body. “ so, if that’s the only, like... big thing, a stick-n-poke is fine right? i mean, they have those professional kits and everything. ” even so, a small dip of worry settled in his gut as he took in taesoo’s words. “ well, what if you just watch over me? tell me what i;m doing wrong and all? it’ll be just like making a tattoo. just... hands free. ”

[staincdhearts]

𝕃 𝕀 𝕃 𝕐 ​:

Everywhere lily looked, she was in desperate search of an escape route. She couldn’t put up with the six foot hunk of meat her father had put on her as a babysitter for much longer. So she went MIA for a couple days, didn’t mean her dad had the right to watch her every move 24/7. All she wanted to do today was go out for a bit, explore what was new at the mall, and by the look of it she couldn’t even go to the restroom alone without supervision. “Do you really need to follow me in there?!” Lily snaps at the man trailing her. “Since you’re here, how about you make yourself useful and hold this for me until I come back out.” She doesn’t give him much of a choice before she’s shoving the shopping bag into his chest. “Thanks.” As soon as she’s in the restroom she’s locking the door behind her. Dammit. She hadn’t really thought this far. This was going to be her only chance to get away from him so she had to make the most of it. Only question was where the hell was she supposed to go. She couldn’t go home- that’d be the first place they’d go looking for her and then this would’ve all been for nothing. Time was running out and she needed to make a decision. Without really thinking it through, the dark fog is flowing out her hand and she’s stepping through. The paranoia of getting caught or having someone follow her through the portal makes her look back as she closes it, accidentally making her bump into someone on the street rather roughly and fall down.

for someone who’s lived on an island that housed people with unique quirks, many would think jae would be used to normal of life being that of the abnormal. and he should, being her for almost half his life, but there were certain things even he couldn’t pull off. like when he was pissed off, his face easily giving away just how close he was to snapping. and while he wasn’t one to easily jump to anger-- it was such a nasty and reckless emotion that caused one problem too many-- he couldn’t help but feel the growing ire boiling beneath his skin. it certainly didn’t help when he felt something collide into the back of him, throwing off his own balance and making him stumble over his own feet. “ oh for fuck’s sake-- ” he hissed out, barely catching himself. “ what’s the big deal, you blind ass... ” whatever insult that had started to slip from him mouth came to a slow halt as his eyes followed down to mass of limbs sprawled along the floor. but it wasn’t that he felt bad that he stopped, it was because of who was at his feet. a hollow ache thumps at his ribs and he’s quick swallow it down, pass it off as his stomach hurting and quirks an eyebrow up at the female. “ if i had a bit of warning, i’d have caught you in my arms. maybe. you look like you landed pretty hard, so maybe you would have just taken us both out. ”