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//TRIGGER WARNING// vent blog P.S. I'm the worst I'm sorry.

[stalklng]

Unfortunate ly ik still alive

[stalklng]

Until now, i still fewl uttsely hopeless.

[stalklng]

Hi im still absolutely mentally ill! I had a break down and i want to cut myself to shreds and rip all of my hair out

[stalklng]

May 6

I want to kill myself, life is falling apart. Im being criminalized for wanting things to be okay. Its okay. Im stubborn, nothing good will happen in my life anymore. Everything is falling apart.

[alisonzai]

[stalklng]

Still here with depression

[stalklng]

Living is ???? What i dont need to do that

[stalklng]

Im so stupid cause im starting to cut again i fricking relapsed oh my god im. STUPID AF

[stalklng]

Honestly I'm so freaked out cause of all these horny boys in the PH and I want *** beside me so he can protect me and tell Me everything will be ok and so they could back off !!!! I only get hit on here in the ph cause apparently i meet the "beauty standards" (basically looking like Chinese or Korean)???? HONESTLY I D O N T I'm ugly af but they scare me when they follow us and say hi and compliment stuff and i should just say thank you but I don't want to entertain them and make them think I'm interested , And I used to just be able to walk around at night without worrying and I thought I'd be ok like that here again but because of these horny af boys imma just.. Stay away and maybe cry... Is2g I'm being such a coward but I have 0 exp with anything about guys

[stalklng]

I want to vent so much about my love for *** but,, it might be too weird,,?? sighs

[stalklng]

I want to be worth something to you!!! It's such a selfish request because there's millions who wants the same but I want to be the reason why you smile, the reason that makes you warm, the reason that keeps your head high, the reason that makes you not want to give up; but then again, I can't do anything, I'm just a fan

[stalklng]

me: I'm so afraid losing everyone, 99% of my major negative emotions stem from the fact that I am terrified that I'm going to end up alone

brain: so...why don't you......destroy your relationships

me: what

brain: yea just like. cut everyone off

me: are you even listening

brain: *making little scissor motions* snip snip

[criticisms]

when you start splitting

[stalklng]

Hello I want to die and I hate myself and I'm never good enough and nothing matters and I can't find happiness

[stalklng]

I'm a fucking idiot for believing that I'll be happy with you but YKNOW what I'm still finding small reasons for possibilities that I can be with you

[poeticsuggestion]

I don’t think anyone wants me.

[xsuggestion]

I know no one wants me.

[confessionsuggestion]

I don’t want anyone to want me.

[clingysuggestion]

why won’t they want me as much as I want them?

[sensitivesuggestions]

But if they wanted me would I be good enough to make them stay?

[stalklng]