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Feb 17

thomas rubs his hands on his jeans, trying to rid them of their nervous sweating.

as it gets hotter in the safe haven, and civilization gets more stable, there's more time to screw around. at least, that's how frypan put it that morning when he caught thomas staring at a group game of mother may i (something brenda introduced to the kids).

the thing is, thomas wasn't staring at the kids playing specifically. he was staring at you, playing with the kids, in nothing but a tank top and some shorts. he'd never seen you in a tank top before in his life. your tanned shoulders with scattered freckles and scars, the strip of skin that peeked out underneath the hem, and most of all: the scoop neckline. he could see your collar bones, your sternum. not that he was paying attention to that, although it was a fantastic view. he was rather distracted. he had never seen your cleavage before, after all.

he had also never seen you well rested and fed. your eyes had a new glow to them as you scooped a kid into your arms and sent her into a giggling fit. your hair looked fuller, and your legs looked stronger.

and you're wearing a tank top.

now, he's trying to busy himself with helping out. construction work is fun to him, because he likes leading a process and seeing the finished result. right now, the glade guys are working on a shelter for the pregnant women to relax in. although it's in the first phase, production is moving along smoothly and thomas is feeling optimistic about the results!

or, he would be. if you weren't wearing a goddamn tank top.

he's lifting a plank over one of his shoulders when you bring a bucket of filtered water and some makeshift cups. your skin looks smooth in the afternoon sun and all thomas can think about is touching it, just there. pressing his fingertips to the curve of your neck. getting his palms familiar with the dip of your waist and the gap where your stomach shows. letting his lips follow. on your cheek, or your jaw, or making home on your pretty thighs-

the plank he was lifting slips out of his grip and flies forward. one end lands on his foot and the other end knocks him square in the back of the head, sending him stumbling forward into the ground beneath him.

a chorus of "ooo" sounds around him from the guys, while you call out a loud "oh, shit!"

and thomas just lies there, honestly. he's mortified with himself and his head and foot are both throbbing like a bitch, so he makes the executive decision to just choke on sand and die where he's laying so he doesn't have to face you.

unfortunately, he's never been so lucky, and you're on him in a second. crouched at his side and forcibly flipping him over to face you, your eyes still have that energized glow he found that morning as you worridly look him all over for other injuries. "are you okay? jesus, thomas! you need to be more careful, you could've seriously hurt yourself!"

your fussing drowns out as he gazes up at you, your head haloed by the glint of the sun and your tank top right up close where he can see the tan lines you're getting, and the scooped cut, and wow have you always smelled this good? and he's telling his brain not to let his eyes stare at your cleavage and your chest but c'mon it's right there and god his head hurts.

"okay, up. up! i'm gonna go check you out and give you a wrap for your toes. why would you do this barefoot? you're bleeding, thomas!" you urge him to sit up and he can see now that his foot does in fact have some cuts from the edge of the wood. he blinks a few times and looks from you to the guys, all watching from a few feet away. minho gives thomas a very telling look and then glances down, like he's trying to communicate with his eyes.

thomas squints, head still throbbing and making him feel all ruffled. he turns to you and mumbles, "i'm fine, i'm okay," as your gentle fingers card through his hair, caressing the spot on his head that got hit. he lets out a small grunt, uncomfortable with the increased pounding at your touch, and flinches away.

"you're not fine, thomas. just let me wrap your foot up, at least?" you look at him with pretty, pleading eyes and your unoccupied hand lands on his knee. and of course, thomas relents.

"okay, fine." he grumbles, pushing himself to his feet. he's embarrassed of the slight limp he's sporting as you lead him off to the med hut.

and, sure. thomas' pride is a bit bruised by the whole situation and he doesn't feel very much like a protector or provider when you wrap his toes to avoid infection. but all of that is insignificant when you line your body against his, letting him lean back against the makeshift counter and finally, finally slide his hands along your hips.

"i'm worried about your head," you muse, gingerly brushing the spot that was hit. thomas admires your lashes as they flutter, humming distractedly.

"i'll be fine." he pushes your hair back, wishing you'd give him an excuse to leave his work and indulge in his daydreams. "what are you doing today?"

"I'm in charge of the reading/writing classes today." you close your eyes and breathe in deep, "most all the kids are clever, but it's so hard for them to learn. just, you know, with the strain WCKD put on their brains, i can't... thomas? are you alright?"

and thomas is listening, he really is. but you're pressing every damn inch of your body to his, and your tank top is pulled low and all he wants to do is listen, can his stupid fucking brain shut off this response now, please?

"yes," he narrows his eyes, huffing as his frustration with himself escalates. you're clearly in the mood to confide in him, and he can't figure out why the only thing his pea-sized brain can conjure up is a vulgar image of the two of you. "maybe. i... i want to hear about this, i promise. and, you know i'm well aware of the damages WCKD does to the brain-"

"oh, of course, i..." you take a subtle step back, and he realizes too late how he sounds more defensive and less frazzled.

thomas' hands pull you back into him by the hips. "no, no. i'm trying to... aurgh! i'm sorry, i'm so sorry. i can't. think."

your eyebrows shoot up as his body grows more and more painfully aware of your hands on his chest, your thighs pressed to his own, the way your lips part in a little 'o' and how your eyes look when you look up at him without lifting your chin. thomas knows he's hard, he's not a blubbering idiot. but it's never really been such an issue before. as long as he fully remembers, there's always been much more important things to think about, like keeping you and the rest of the gladers alive and safe.

but now, that's not so much an issue. and it feels like every little thing you do, every noise and expression and action, makes thomas have the same reaction.

"you can't think?" you prompt, as he feels you press harder against his erection. you must not feel it, then. thomas tries not to roll his hips into the relieving release of pressure.

"i can, i can." he sucks in through his teeth and tries to gently pry you away. your subtle resistance confuses him, and he hates that he'll have to tell you if you don't figure out soon enough here. "i just... i'm, um, really sorry. that you have to start below ground zero with the kids."

there's a lengthy pause of silence as you stare up at him, like you're waiting. he waits too, hoping there'll be some kind of hint to what else he should say to get you talking again so you can both move on from this mortifying ordeal.

instead, you seem to deflate slightly and take a step back. compared to before, and now lacking the sweet press of your body on his, it feels like a mile between you.

"okay." you sigh, tucking some of your hair back. thomas watches with a level of confusion and guilt he can't even fathom. "well, i should head back. it'll probably be time for me to gather the kids soon."

he stays stuck against the counter with an unmistakable boner right up until you're about to push the curtain out of the way and leave. only then does he regain his composure enough to stop you, pushing off of the counter and taking a couple of steps nearer to you.

"wait."

you turn to face him eagerly, eyes wide and wanting something he can't place. thomas swallows thickly.

"i have to tell you something. because i hate not being honest with you. and... you can be as mad as you want, okay? i promise i won't get upset."

he watches the doubt seep into your body language. "...okay."

and it all comes tumbling out of his mouth.

"i can't stop thinking about you. like- in these terrible, horrible ways that i like. and i feel so bad because you have no idea, but it's just- god, when you wear that top. all i can- everything- the only thing i can focus on is your body. and your hair, too. and your legs. and your lips, a lot. and all i wanna do is... it's so bad. i'm sorry."

thomas wasn't aware of how terrible he felt about thinking about you compromisingly until he voiced it, but when he meets your eyes again... he's completely thrown by your expression. you look- not hungry, that's not the right word. but somehow it is, with the way your eyes rove over him and back up again, how you take a few steps closer. your face is slowly melding into that expression you always get when he flatters you. like, all pretty and flustered with eyes that say more more more.

"you're sorry about it?"

he blinks. "yeah. i just, i don't want you to be in any position you wouldn't want to be in. even in my head."

you nod, of course. because that makes sense. but that's not what your face is saying. he watches as your eyes dip down shyly. "thomas, i... i've been having similar thoughts."

"oh."

well, this changes things.

you've been thinking about thomas? like that? on top of you, behind you, under you? panting and begging and sweaty and jesus christ, he's hard as a rock.

"tell me." his voice comes out as a command, instead of a question. you respond before he can correct himself.

"t-tell you what i've been imagining?"

god, imagining makes it sound so purposeful. thomas can see it in his head; you, in your bed, imagining him doing things to you. making you squirm and whine and plead. he has to know. thomas doesn't know a lot of things, and he loves learning them. but his favorite puzzle has been you. and this is another thrilling piece.

"yes." he can barely get the word out fast enough, closing the distance between the two of you so he can guide you to press up against the rickety counters. he would totally have you perched on them, if he trusted the workmanship at all. but this will do, for now. "what have you been thinking about me?"

"it's probably worse, thomas. i don't want to make you uncomfortable." you sound sincere, but he realizes too late that this is you throwing his words back in his own face, showing that it may have offended you when he apologized for wanting you that way.

he kisses his teeth, meets your eyes. "promise it won't. i'll understand. we can do an exchange, yeah? a thought for a thought."

you huff out a laugh. "what, like a trade? are you bargaining for my dirty fantasies of you?"

his dick twitches like it heard your words instead of his head, and he nods. leaning down close, he lets a smile slip across his lips. "yeah, that's a perfect example. we can value them; the more outlandish the fantasy, the more pricey it is."

"and if you have no fantasy pricey enough to match mine?" you tilt your chin up so your plush lips are a breath away from his, and he listens as your voice dips to a sultry hum. "how will you repay me?"

thomas pretends to think, hmm's in wonder. in the meantime, his hands roam from your waist to your hips, growing confident enough to almost reach lower before he responds:

"guess i'll have to find some other way, then."

your lips meet, and thomas gets a few kisses in before he grows impatient and slides his tongue gently across your bottom lip. you only encourage his demanding mouth, pulling him closer by the back of his neck and letting his tongue press against your own.

thomas loves making out with you. it's only happened twice before, and both times he found something new that made you whimper-whipmer!- and it made him feel like he could rule the world. he's never been egotistical, but there's something about the way you pull a bit too rough on his lip with your teeth or how your mixed saliva catches at the corners of his mouth that makes him think he'd be a great father, and a perfect provider for you. when you suck on his tongue, he groans and his hips flex forward. he doesn't even realize his stupid dick is searching for friction until he breaks away to kiss at your neck and leaves you room to talk.

"thomas, you're-" you pant as he litters open-mouthed kisses against your soft skin. "you're hard."

"mmhm, told you." he rakes his teeth along your collar bone before his mouth finds your ear. "been so distracted by you lately. can't go to bed without touching myself," you moan quietly. he about cums right then and there. "thinking of you."

"m-me too." he can hear the nervous stutter from a mile away, and he smiles, pausing against your skin for a moment.

"tell me what you think of." he kisses your neck, long and soft and slow. just once. and then lifts his mouth away enough to speak again. "when you touch yourself."

he can hear you swallow, feel your heart flutter like a bunny. he doesn't know why, but he likes it. and he doesn't feel bad about it.

"it's bad." you exhale, like you don't want him to hear you.

he pulls back so he can tower over you a little, narrows his brow with concern. "it's alright. tell me."

you pout and glance away before your mouth opens again, but you don't protest any further. good girl.

"i... i like the idea of, um, you." you catch your bottom lip between your teeth for a moment as your eyes flit around the dim hut. "you... all over me. just, out of nowhere. most of the time i imagine me in the middle of hanging the laundry out to dry, or prepping for my class, or tidying or something. and you just come in and push everything out of the way and take me, no questions or comments. i know how you look at me sometimes, when there's people around. there's times i... i wish you'd just tell them to get out and act on whatever you're thinking."

he watches you swallow, so tuned into your posture and movements. listening to every word like it's a sacred truth. you take a breath and continue.

"the other night... i was in the shower late. after i helped out with the fertility house. i touched myself." you confess, and thomas notes how you refuse to meet his head-on gaze. "i was thinking of you coming in and using your... your fingers, um, on me. looking at me in that way you do, with your hair wet. making me tell you all the bad things i thought when i saw you, sweaty and working hard."

you're flustered and shy when you finish, chest rising and falling at a more rapid pace than before. thomas tilts his head as he watches your face, being sure he's keeping contact at every point between your bodies. being sure you know he's not scared of you or your wild imagination. being sure you can feel how much he loves it.

"i'm sorry." your voice is a whisper of insecurity.

thomas quickly snaps out of his silence, gathering your precious face in both of his calloused hands. "no, no, no. don't apologize." he pleads, forcing you to look at him finally. your eyes are swimming with worry and unsureness, and thomas wants to swat your thought spiral away like it's a fly. "never. never apologize for telling me something so lovely."

he pushes your hair back and kisses your cheek sensually. when he feels you melt into him a little, he continues onto your other cheek. before he can reach your mouth, you speak in more hushed whispers.

"i was afraid you'd think it's gross."

he laughs just a little at that, but mostly because it's the most unrealistic thing he's ever heard. pulling back, he finds your eyes and holds their focus with a look of sincerity. "l think the idea of you feeling good because you're thinking of me is the best thing that's ever happened to me."

"thomas, you saved society from a government domination and a deadly virus."

"yes, and you touched yourself at the thought of me." thomas can't help it, he kisses you roughly. takes you in the way you described; ravaging and sloppy and selfish. it feels good. he laps in your mouth and he likes how uncouth it is. like he's defiling you from your lips downward. "i bet you looked so pretty. all helpless and begging for me. that's..."

that's gonna make him finish in his work jeans, for sure. holy fucking shit, you're the greatest thing that's ever happened to thomas. like, seriously, just the idea of you covering your mouth in the shower, arching your back... all because of him?! everything in him is screaming to bring your fantasies to life. but he wants to respect that invisible line, between imagination and reality. you never exactly said you wanted him to do that, just that you thought of it.

thomas kisses your temple and slides a hand down your body, coming to terms with the boundary he just realized was probably there. "i'm so glad you told me."

but he cant help some of it, you're just so kissable. so he allows himself one indulgence, and kisses you slowly.

"you're beautiful." he murmurs against your lips, feeling you shiver lightly at the unprompted flattery. "so pretty. and smart. you know that?"

"thomas," you swallow, but your hand grips his neck and pulls him closer. "please."

what you're asking for, thomas has not an single clue. but when you use that tone, he'd kill a man just for you.

"yes," he matches your desperation and kisses you hungrily. "anything, yes."

thomas' grip on your hips becomes bruising as you begin to make out more explicitly, sounds of smacking and gasping and quiet sighs filling the med hut quickly. you move your hands from his hair to the front of his jeans, undoing the button without breaking your lips. thomas is grateful for the relief, as the strain was becoming unbearable the harder he would get. you're just so goddamn considerate, he'd be an idiot not to give you anything you asked for and more.

his mouth has a mind of it's own as he kisses down your neck messily, carefully guiding your head to the side enough to give him wide access so he can find your spot. it only takes him moments to make you squirm, and he spends considerable time there.

your hand, still at the button of his jeans, begins palming at his erection heavily. thomas hums, meeting you halfway with his hips before he stutters his movements and stops himself. he's embarrassed at how bad he wants the friction, the pressure. who knows what you want? just because he likes how your hand feels pressing on his dick doesn't mean you want him humping into your palm like a dog.

you whine discontentedly (even though he was so sure you liked how he was marking your neck!) and hook your fingers into the waistband of his boxers, tugging him into your body ruthlessly. he pulls back to look at you, confused. what do you need? he'll give it to you, whatever it is. but he needs to be sure he's got the right idea first.

"what is it?" thomas frowns down at you, rubbing your hip affectionately.

you huff, tugging at his waistband again. "thomas, i want... i-i... i need...-"

an eruption of innocent laughter interrupts you. both you and thomas whip your heads to the curtain separating you from the rest of the world, frozen in place as you listen for who's nearby.

and, to both of your dismay, there's children setting up their own game of mother may i just outside the med hut. not exactly a great place for a steamy-make-out-turned-something-more.

thomas is the first to move, sucking in a breath and running his hands up your sides. "well."

you worry your lower lip. "yeah."

"i... i can't really, um." thomas clears his throat, eyes roving up to the ceiling. his neck and ears pinken with mortification. "you go first. don't wait up."

"oh. did you not want to walk together?"

"no! no. it's not that. i just can't... really... go anywhere. right now." he murmurs, eyes dropping down before quickly meeting your own.

your eyes fall down to his unbuttoned jeans. you blush. stare. glance back up. "ah. i see. well. i will... see you at dinner?"

"yes, of course." he smiles sweetly at your understanding.

as you begin walking away, thomas grabs your wrist and tugs you back in, kissing your hand.

"i had a lovely time. you're a great nurse." he kisses your hand again for good measure before releasing you for good, watching you walk out of the med hut and look back twice.

☆

thomas rubs at his jaw absentmindedly, mind full of upcoming plans and responsibilities. the bonfire dances in front of his eyes, casting a warm glow on the haven and everyone gathered around it, eating dinner and conversing and being alive again. it's the perfect background noise for him, the buzz of safety and happiness and health. he hadn't heard it before they created this place.

his plans for reinforcing the makeshift counters in the med hut to support human weight is harshly interrupted by minho, plopping down next to him on the log he's sat on.

thomas glances at minho and his overflowing plate. they both nod shortly to one another. thinking that's the end of the interaction, thomas lets his mind wander again. they'll need to put supports underneath, some sort of beams...

"newt and frypan have a bet going." minho speaks with his mouth full.

"oh, yeah?" or maybe having them fully touch the floor, that way there's extra storage space. cabinets aren't too much work with enough hands.

"yep. if you screwed in the med hut, newt doesn't have to do chores for a week." minho picks something out of his teeth. "honestly, i thought i was the only one who noticed. tried to warn you, man."

"wait, what?" thomas blinks, turns to face minho. "you... what?"

minho takes an analyzing look at thomas' features, squinting his eyes in slight disgust. "dude. none of us are blind."

thomas is still clueless. his face must give him away, since minho goes from sorta-grossed-out to totally-making-fun in seconds. "oh, man. you don't know what i mean, do you? curing serum didn't help you remember the talk?"

"i... don't..." thomas glances around them, making sure no one is nearby to overhear. minho barks out a laugh.

"come on, thomas." minho takes a big bite of his food and nods over thomas' head, eyes flicking to someone behind him. "she showed up and it was like all the blood in your brain rushed to your..."

minho meets thomas' eyes.

"little friend."

thomas flushes, glancing over his shoulder just in time to see you press your ear to the belly of a heavily pregnant woman, smiling excitedly. "minho, tell me you're the only one who noticed."

"whatever helps you sleep at night, man." minho stuffs his mouth again, clearly unperturbed as thomas swings his head back around to gape at him. "so did y'guys get busy 'r not? we're all kinda waiting around to find out. hey, you gonna eat? food's running out fast."

"i'm good." thomas lets his eyes wander back to you as you converse easily with a few of the older women, your tank top riding up just enough to give him a peek at your lovely tummy. "uh, hey, minho?"

"yeah?"

"you... so..." thomas is slow to form words at the sight of your gorgeous hair flouncing about. "you think she'd want to do that? i didn't know... i thought it was, y'know, a guy thing."

minho laughs, clapping thomas' shoulder. it takes him a moment to verbally answer as he swallows his food, but his nodding makes thomas' heart stutter.

"oh, it's a girl thing too. trust me, they're having the same thoughts, if not worse. why do you think she took you all the way to the med hut just for some bruised up toes and a head konk? she's trying to get you to do something."

"i mean, my foot could have gotten infected. and i did hit my head pretty bad." thomas rubs the lightly sore spot as minho fixes a glare on him.

"thomas, you've been shot, drugged, stung by a griever, and jumped off a collapsing building. i really don't think some cuts and bruises are anything to worry about." minho wipes his hands on his jeans, his plate clean of any food. "besides, i bet she had to get all close and personal just to take a look at you?"

"i mean... yeah." thomas shrugs. he hadn't really thought much of it, but... well, you did press up against him, and bat your lashes in that way you do... and when he told you what to do...

oh. oh!

you were- oh wow, the whole time?!

thomas blinks rapidly at the ground, and then at minho, and then at you. and when his eyes meet yours and you smile softly, he feels like an idiot.

"yyyyyeah." minho pats thomas' shoulder lightly as you begin approaching, and thomas can feel his whole body warm. minho leaves with a "good luck, dude," and thomas can barely breathe while the whole world melts into nothing but youyouyou.

"hi." you take minho's place, and you look softly radiant in the glow of the bonfire.

"hi." thomas sighs out, stuck on every movement and shift you make. do you still want that? do you still want him?

"you didn't eat." you observe, adjusting the strap of your top.

"mhm." thomas tracks the motion, flicks his eyes back up to yours. "did you?"

your eyes narrow just slightly at the unintentional deflection, and he's enamored by the crease in your brow. the pout of your pretty lips. the way you look so perfect, he just wants to wreck you, a little. you didn't just want to imagine it? you actually wanted him to...

"yes, i did. are you not hungry, or...?"

"i'm starving." his voice drops an octave, and you bat your lashes almost on impact of the tone shift, glancing away from him.

"oh, well, there's still some fish left, and i think some corn-"

"i don't want that." he swallows, you look back at him.

he gets it now. this isn't confusion, it's not hesitance. this is a game of chess for you, and you want him to check you. to snatch up everything and leave you helpless and needy, and then finish you off.

respectfully, of course.

"but you said..." you start, and trail off when he shakes his head just slightly.

"no, i'm starving." his fingertips brush against your knee, slide barely onto your lower thigh. he holds your eyes the entire time as he caresses your knee, thumb tracing a circle. "are you?"

"thomas," you breathe out a flustered laugh, glancing around. "anyone could see."

he shakes his head again, holding your eyes when you return to him. "'s okay, we can head to bed early. if you want."

he watches you consider, deciphering the offer he's laid out. he's not sure how you do it, always reading him like a book, but it only makes him want to show you his appreciation. which... is leading him down a similar mindset. jeez, he really won't be able to shake this, will he?

"alright." you nod your head to the women you were speaking to before. "let me go say goodnight. i'll meet you...?"

"my room." he hums. it feels so illicit to sneak off like this, pretending- even to each other- that you're just tired.

thomas couldn't be further from tired if he tried.

"okay, yeah. okay." you smile shyly at him. "i'll... yeah."

and just like that, you stand and part from him. the lack of your presence makes everything seem blurry and boring, and all thomas wants to do is fast forward to the moment he has you alone. instead, he dusts off his lap and stands, scanning the beach for any watchful eyes.

minho, arm slung over the shoulders of a girl from a different sector, raises his drink to thomas and mouths, 'me too.' the girl wiggles her eyebrows playfully at thomas.

thomas nods awkwardly, pressing his lips together. other than that, he's sure no one suspects anything from the two of you having an innocent conversation. and so, he sets off.

he's out of the beach and the light as soon as possible, making a silent escape to the safety of the dark trek back to his secluded hut. he decided to keep the one that was built further away from the community enough to give him time alone; dealing with the pressure of leading the survivor colony was enough to make him want to lock himself away for a few hours everyday. plus, he liked to be up early and hated bothering anyone. especially since you're a fan of staying up late and sleeping in, and he can't stand to interrupt your rest.

the way your lashes brush against your cheeks, how you drool a little and always deny it, how sweet and heavenly your cheek looks when it's pressed against the pillow...

great, now he's thinking about you pressed into his pillow, mouth open just to gasp since he's going so hard for so long. you whine his name.

holy shit, he has no idea what he's doing.

thomas scrubs his already messy hair. sure, he's thought about this a million times. he's familiar with his right hand, he knows female anatomy, he’s had the talk! but understanding it from the outside and experiencing it from the inside…

from the very inside...

swallowing, he makes his way into his hut with shaky hands and a confusing heap of arousal clouding his brain. he wants this so, so bad. but he needs to do it right.

he fluffs his measly pillows, straightens his blankets. checks the stability of his bed, does a quick smell check (clear)... what's supposed to happen? he just wants to devour you, honestly. to live out every single idea your pretty little head conjures up. he's getting a little dizzy just thinking of it. but, y'know, outside of tackling you like a bear in heat, is he supposed to... say something?

he wants it to be so perfect that nothing comes even close to comparing. he wants to make you sob with satisfaction and see stars and feel how intensely he feels about you. is there something he can do to convey that?

unfortunately, thomas doesn't have time to write a speech, seeing as he can now hear your soft footsteps not too far off. he messes with his hair and feels his nerves thrum with excitement and anticipation. oh god, he wants you.

"how's your head?" you speak quietly when you first arrive, ducking into his humble abode. your prescense snaps him out of his spiral, making his stomach swoop and his mind fuzz out for a moment.

"uh." he swallows, hesitates, before reaching out to pull you close. your skin is so soft, warm from the firelight. "it's fine."

you giggle at his clearly dumbfounded expression and move pliantly as he wraps you in his arms and buries his nose in your hair. "i probably smell like fire and smoke. not too romantic, sorry."

"you smell amazing." he murmurs, taking a deep breath in. it's true. your scent is addicting to thomas, especially when your skin is slick with perspiration and your natural scent is clear. he could inhale it for days and not get bored. "so good."

"alright, okay, you dog!" you laugh, and it only spurs him on, attacking your neck with his nose and making you shrink back from the feather-light sensation. "stop! it tickles!" you shove at his chest to no avail, as he presses you further into him the more you push and laugh. his sniffing turning quickly into kisses, peppered from behind your ear to your collarbone and back again, despite your shrieks of protest and fits of giggles.

"i can't stop," thomas growls excitedly, backing you towards the bed with little to no effort. "my girl tastes as good as she smells."

his hands on your hips are pressing, firm. he wants you make you feel his strength. when he pulls back to meet your gaze, he watches the effect take place. your eyes have a playful glint, like you're exhilarated to not be in control. he feels equally as exhilarated to be in control. then again, you hold all the influence. he only wants this so bad because he knows you want it too. otherwise, it's no fun at all.

thomas stops the two of you just as the backs of your knees touch the edge of his bed, and a silent moment of charged eye contact occurs. he feels like he's falling, his stomach dropping out from under him. his hands are starting to wander, all on their own.

"is your foot alright?" you chirp. thomas blinks.

"it's fine." he dismisses it quickly. his fingers tuck under the bottom hem of your tank top and he tugs on it gently. "i like this shirt."

you tilt your head. "so i've heard."

"it's nice." and then his hands roam again, running along your ribs and then your back with a relaxing pressure to them. as if he's trying to press the feeling into your memory. he finds the outline of your bra and traces it on your back, wetting his lips. "when'd you get it?"

your bodies sway in unison, and he watches your mouth as you speak. the words comes soft, but tinged with feeling thomas was unprepared for.

"last night." you breathe, your brow furrowing as you recall. "some of the girls wanted to trade, and i hated watching them walk around in the same clothes they were given by WCKD. it's so... unfair."

thomas frowns, eyes tracking your features as they melt into something empathetic, sorrowful. he brings a hand to your face and caresses you gently, frustrated that his hands aren't softer, that he's not built with the delicacy you deserve. he tucks a strand of your hair back and cups your cheek, meeting your eyes.

"always thinking about everyone else." thomas states as he runs his thumb across your skin. "I wish you’d focus on what you want."

you let out a disbelieving snort, giving thomas a look. "said the pot to the kettle."

he tilts his head, squinting. "what?"

"it's... never mind, nothing." pressing your soft, perfect hand over his rough one, you turn into thomas' palm. "kiss me again. please."

and thomas is never one to turn down your requests.

he zeroes in on your plush lips this time, trying to go slow enough as not to scare you. he gets lightheaded kissing you like this, so completely alone with all the time in the world and a bed right behind you. he wants to savor you, to drink your skin and lips and hair and scent in and all the same he want to pin you down and force you to beg and whine his name and tug on his hair.

he keeps it slow to feel a sense of self control. his lips slide against yours seamlessly as he guides you by the jaw to tilt your head in cadence with his own, and the way you melt into him is just perfect. he’s obsessed with the way you relax into him, drowning out all his other senses. content with just kissing you for hours and hours, if that’s what makes you happy; anything to make you feel good.

too bad his heart and his dick are fighting for control. his hands slide under your top and across your stomach, finding their way to your bra clasp. his pants are uncomfortably tight already, his body clearly unused to his current situation.

"how..." he mumbles against your lips, fumbling with the hooks. "sorry, i..."

you let out a hushed laugh, pulling away from thomas enough to look him in the eyes as you reach around and unclasp your bra from under your tank top. he watches with parted lips as you pull off your top slowly, and then let your bra slide down your arms.

he swallows, seeming overly focused on holding eye contact.

"thomas," you slowly grin, "you can look."

he sighs with relief as his gaze dips down to your chest, pretty and perfect and all for him. his hands graze up your sides and cup your breasts, and he lets out a small "oh."

"fuck," thomas blurts, meeting your playful look with a pitifully needy one. he swipes his thumbs over your nipples experimentally. "i..."

"is- um, is it what you were expecting?" you reach out and rest your hands on his sides, just to touch him.

"better, somehow. i don't even... wow. can i-?"

"yeah. yes. 'course."

he licks his bottom lip and nibbles it softly as he examines your face, being sure that you're okay with his eagerness. he liked the tank top (no, fuck that, he loved it), but pressing his mouth to your breasts is so. much. his heart is thumping as he sucks and then nibbles softy on your hardened nipple, causing you to whine softly.

the sound alone makes his pants impossibly tighter. he switches to your other side and his movements become a tad more demanding as he tries to draw another sound out of you. and when he sucks harder than before, he's successful. you tilt your head back and whimper.

your pleasure is the hottest thing thomas has or ever will see. he steps back.

your eyes snap open and you look a bit confused and very disappointed at the suddenly ended moment. he raises his brows at you.

"since when do you sound like that?" he challenges, a cocky smirk growing on his face.

you press a hand over your eyes. "jesus, do you want me to be silent? i've never felt this before!"

"no. definitely not silent. i like it." his confidence is growing by the second, and thomas slowly sinks to his knees in front of you. "i wanna hear it again."

"oh." you huff as he kisses your tummy, running his hands up and down the backs of your thighs. his fingers slide carefully under the waist of your shorts, almost casual as he looks up at you. you nod, looking flustered and wanting and all the things he loves to see.

thomas slides your shorts off slowly, kissing along your panties. he can smell your intoxicating scent and the velvety soap you've been making, drawing him deeper into a daze for you. he looks up to find you already watching him, eyes wide and lips kiss-swollen.

"lay down?" he pats the backs of your knees softly. you oblige his request without question and lay on his bed, propping your head up on his pillows.

he returns to soft kisses over your only article of clothing left, realizing the accidental power imbalance he created when he glances up to admire your naked chest.

"oh, baby." he mumbles, sitting up on his knees over you on the bed. you hum in response before he tugs his shirt over his head and tosses it across the room. "sorry. i forgot i had clothes on."

it was an honest comment, but it made you laugh. he smiles sheepishly.

"i dunno how you could. i would assume this is causing some annoyance." you sit up, sliding a deft hand over his painful hard-on. he watches your hand as it glides down his leg.

when you drop it, thomas flicks his gaze back up to your eyes. "you don't have to stop."

"neither do you." your features are focused in a way he's not familiar with, like you're determined to match his confidence. a thrill runs up his spine when you tilt your head challengingly. he smirks, and you match it with one of your own. your hand resumes palming him through his jeans, and you undo the button and zipper seamlessly.

the relief is immense. he stands up when you begin sliding the pants down his thighs so he can finish the job for you, and when you scoot forward to tug his boxers off after, he gasps.

the cool air is less shocking than the sudden sight of his dick. he's slightly embarrassed and very flushed on both heads. his mouth opens when you wrap your hands around the shaft and gently pump him once, experimentally.

"what... feels good?" you watch him through your lashes for a positive response. thomas feels as if his brain is fully submitting to his lust, at this point. "like this?"

he nods helplessly as you begin jerking him off agonizingly slow. you're an accidental tease and he's content with going insane just like this, that is until-

"fuck, holy fuck." he rambles out the moment your lips press an innocent kiss to his tip. his hands feel absolutely useless at his sides and there isn't a single filter from his brain to his mouth anymore. nor is there a filter between your mouth and his cock. you kiss every inch of him as soon as you hear his muffled moaning, spurred on by the sound of his desperation.

"y-you can't," he leans his head back and squeezes his eyes shut, clamping a hand over his mouth when you take him deep inbetween your lips. your tongue swirls around curiously and he shakes his head. "stop, please, please."

you halt immediately, pulling your lips away and dropping your hands. he looks down at you dizzily. you look up at him guiltily.

"not your fault." thomas mumbles with what little consciousness he feels he has. his hand cups your jaw comfortingly. "i didn't want to end this early. i'm... um, i'm sensitive, i think."

"you think?" your smile rests thomas' heart. good, you're not upset. he breathes out a small laugh, stroking the back of your head and leading you up to his face, where he kisses you softly.

you respond easily, and thomas takes that as you being comfortable. thank god, because he needs you relaxed and happy and every positive emotion there is to feel, otherwise he can't take this any further. he just couldn't do it.

you pull him by the neck and lay back down, guiding him to hoover over you. he's definitely nervous, completely out of his depth now. sure, WCKD educated them on health and the technicalities of intercourse, but he's got no clue how to find your sensitive spots and he can't picture the graphs that were presented to them.

he pulls away from your ongoing kiss, thumbing at your panties. "where, um..."

"it's okay." you whisper quietly. your eyes are all glassy and needy and he wants so badly to make you feel good. "you can take them off."

"no, no-" he furrows his brow, "well, yeah, okay. but i don't know how to... what to do, exactly."

"you don't know how to have sex?"

"i remember that part. but i want to make you feel... the way i did, first." he begins sliding your panties down your thighs as he explains, "i know you have a sensitive spot, but i can't remember where it is. show me."

you nod down at him while he kneels back and takes in the sight of you, fully exposed to him. his fingers slide through your wetness and he quickly finds your opening, pressing a finger inside you. "i remember... this one."

he crooks his finger and presses against a spot inside you, making you sigh. you visibly relax further into his cushions and try to close your thighs, but he catches your leg by the knee.

"not from the class i was given, though." he works the spot teasingly as he speaks. "minho gets a little too detailed when he's drunk. says this can make you cry."

his eyes flick up to your face, and he watches you while he teases you from the inside. "show me where it feels good."

"right there." you whine and nod. he chuckles quietly at you.

"no, not this spot." he slides his fingers out of you, leaving you empty and frowning at him. "show me where you touch yourself."

going quiet at the subtle callout, you take his wrist and guide him to press his middle finger against your clit. he circles it carefully and you squirm. "here. i usually... try not to go too fast, too quick. i build up."

"usually?" he raises a brow, grinning evilly. "i guess you have a lot to tell me, huh?"

you throw an arm over your face, partially because you're embarrassed at the accidental admission, partially because he's making slow, small circles against your nerves. "thomas. don't tease me right now."

"i'm not." he lies, scooting forward so that he's bracketed by your legs and sliding a finger back inside you. his finger on your clit never lets up as he starts opening you up for him, mesmerized by the sight of your slick folds.

"y'so pretty. jesus." he barely picks up pace and watches for your reaction, narrowing his eyes at your arm covering your face. "hey. let me see you."

"so much." you sigh as your arm falls. you're flushed and pleading, looking properly pent up. "your fingers are so much longer than mine, i can't ever..."

"mhm, feels good?"

"so good, yes. so good." you arch your back when he uses more pressure on your clit. he smirks proudly.

thomas has you squirming under him after he finds his way around your anatomy. he doesn't know what he was so worried about, it's not so difficult to have you how he wants you. certainly not as difficult as some of the other guys describe it. you're wet and needy and getting closer to the ledge, if your whimpers and whines are any tell, so thomas lets up on his touching and kisses your knee.

"can i...?" he mumbles against your soft skin. you huff at the abrupt ending to the pleasure but meet his eyes with a smile.

"please hurry up and get inside me."

per usual, you never have to ask him twice. he climbs over you and presses a kiss to your forehead before lining himself up.

thomas does his best to go slow, and he stops shortly after pressing his tip into you. he's going insane in his head, overwhelmed with how good it feels. he hears himself whimper in the back of his throat and your eyes snap up to his when you register it.

"that was... um," he huffs with embarrassment. "how are you feeling?'

"i'm alright," you mumble, "just... go all the way."

you don't have to ask twice. thomas sinks into you and his jaw goes slack. later, he's not sure how he didn't come immediately, because he sees stars when he first buries himself to the hilt in your perfect pussy.

"fuck," he breathes, dropping down to bury his face in your neck. "oh my god."

he's in bliss, inhaling your scent while he slowly rocks just barely to press his tip further into you again and again.

"thomas, mmm, hurts-" you gasp out. he snaps to and stumbles back up on his hands, sliding halfway out of you quickly and feeling you both pulse at the sudden sensation.

"sorry, shit, i'm so sorry baby. are you okay? i-i got carried away. i shouldn't have..."

you shake your head just slightly, a hand pressing against his chest to shut him up. he clamps his mouth shut and waits patiently as you pinch your brow together and breathe through your nose.

"it's okay," your voice is higher than usual, soaked in arousal and pain mashed into one. "you're just... bigger. than, y'know, average."

he waits a moment as you breathe, but he can feel a twinge of jealousy seeping in, even if he's halfway inside your lovely cunt and about to be more.

"...how do you know the average?"

"thomas," you roll your eyes, a good sign in terms of how much pain you're in. you're never over animated when you're hurting. "you have a big dick. i'm not talking about any other specific comparison."

"oh." thomas' pride flares in his chest, and he glances down at where you're connected. he props himself up with one hand and uses the other to massage your hip, feeling slightly guilty and slightly proud that he's rendered you helpless like this.

it's just so perfect, how you spend all day helping out everyone else, and now he gets to finally lay you on your back and help you. he licks his lips as he moves just slightly, just to see how your body responds so readily to his. how you clearly feel so much of it, giving him the incentive to make you feel good.

"okay," you sigh just as he feels you begin to relax around him. thomas meets your eyes, and you nod slightly, lips parted. you're perfect, he almost says. but you interrupt him before he can.

"thomas, fuck me."

and you both know he's eager to please.

thomas groans when he slowly sinks back into you, eyelids fluttering closed momentarily. his voice wavers when he tries to speak again "you- oh, god."

you moan right after, back arching slightly off of the bed as your hand goes to grip at his hair. his movements start out slow for your sake, trying to keep enough mindfulness to make sure it feels overwhelmingly good and not overwhelmingly painful. the hand that's not propping him up over you goes back to your clit, matching the pace of his circles with the pace of his hips. you sigh out his name and he twitches inside you.

thomas had no idea two people could be so close to each other. physically, of course, you two are connected, but he feels like you're putting your own claim on him when you tighten around him and whimper how good it feels. when you tell him to go faster, it feels like his brain is melding with yours, like he could stay here forever and feel totally complete. he gasps into your ear and rambles out something or other about how perfect you are, but he can't even hear himself over the roaring in his ears that is just you you you, you, you,you,you,youyouyouyou.

"fuck, thomas, feels so good, gonna-" you writhe pleasantly under him and he presses your chests together.

"yeah?" he huffs. "gonna cum?"

"yes," you meet his eyes and look totally wrecked. he humms loudly and kisses you to muffle a particularly loud moan building in his throat. "please, let me-"

"'m gonna, don't worry baby." he whimpers quietly as you arch under him again, his name leaving your mouth like a prayer. it makes him dizzy and he feels it in his stomach, the chord between you bending, snapping apart.

you roll your eyes back when you finish, and the sight paired with the way you grip his cock like a vice makes him release, almost too stupid to pull out.

almost.

"fuck, so good," he gasps as he hurriedly pulls out just in time to cum outside of your body. you whine at the sudden pullout, and he pops his fingers in his mouth to suck your wetness off of them before cupping your face. "sorry, i know, i know. can't get you pregnant right now."

his dick twitches at the thought.

"...but we can talk about that." thomas mumbles. you breathe out, still nonverbal after your own release. "are you okay?"

you nod, smiling up at him with eyes full of exhaustion. "sooo tired."

your voice is a little shot, probably from the whining and gasping and moaning (that he cannot stop thinking about), and thomas feels a tinge of worry in his chest.

"okay. let me clean up and you can go to sleep. okay? i'll bring you breakfast tomorrow morning, so don't freak out if i'm gone when you wake up."

you nod again, pulling him gently by the arm so he'll kiss you one last time. "i loved it. y're so hot, thomas."

he laughs bashfully and kisses all over your face, feeling your lashes flutter. he knows he needs to get some pants on and grab a rag, but it takes all of his willpower to get him away from you. he kisses down your breasts, your stomach, your thighs. he plants his last kiss to your ankle before peeling himself away. "i'll be right back."

he stumbles out of his tent, shirtless and wracked with euphoric exhaustion from a night that had been long coming. the bonfire is dim, and few people are still out when he makes his way back over to it. after scoring a damp rag and two waters, he runs into gally.

gally presses a hand to thomas' bare chest, his face filled with unrestrained disgust.

"half the bonfire was looking for you. next time, i'm not covering your ass. i'll let them hear all of that."

thomas blinks.

"oh. thanks."

gally wipes his hand on his shirt as he pushes past him, grunting in leu of a response.

thomas is mildly embarrassed that he was so incredibly horny he snuck off without saying goodnight to anyone, but his mind is still preoccupied with getting you comfortable, so he leaves those feelings at the bonfire.

you're fast asleep when he returns, but you wake when he gingerly cleans you up.

"did anyone say anthing?" you mumble when he climbs into bed to spoon you.

"nah." he kisses your shoulder. "i was pretty discreet."

you hum happily and wiggle a little closer to him, falling asleep while he softly rubs your hip.

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