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delicate--being‌:

Candice knew this was so hard for Jared and she felt bad for him that he had to go through this struggle. He loved Vince, so that should be enough, but it was a lot more complicated for him. “I’m not trying to make it sound easy, just giving you the guidelines that you need to express your love for him and make him not your closet lover.” She was stunned hearing that Vince asked him to move in, and he said yes. “That’s amazing! You’ll be living here! And not just for Vince, but I can see you more often as well, so this is a great thing. It is definitely a step in the right direction.”

Jared knew he just had to let his guard down and be himself, let the world see what he felt for Vince. “I’m going to try my best.” That was something he meant, something he could agree to. He would try his best to be the person he knew that Vince deserved for him to be. “Yeah I’ll be closer to the two most important people in my life.” Vince and Candice were the people he was closest to and getting the chance to see both of them more was a positive that was for sure.

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{ Jared & Vince }

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delicate--being‌:

Vince had been thinking about asking Jared to move in for a while now, but he was too scared to ask him. He didn’t know if he wanted to push the relationship to another level, but hearing Jared say yes made the hugest smile come across his face, “You would?” He pulled him in for the deepest kiss, it was full of passion and love because he knew he was madly in love with Jared. “I love you so much Jared, and I can’t wait to be in the same space with you all the time. I am the happiest when you are around.”

Jared nodded his head again, “I would Vince.” He had never thought about wanting to live with someone before Vince but he was confident in his agreement to do so. “I love you too. I have for a while now and I can’t wait to be able to fall asleep and wake up to you each and every day.” He’d never wanted to let someone so close before and yet here he was and he couldn’t be happier.

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{ Jared & Vince }

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delicate--being‌:

Vince could only laugh at Jared’s comment, “I’ll own that, I like distracting you.” He would never get enough of kissing Jared, it was what he loved the most when they were alone together. He knew he needed to be patient and let Jared figure things out, but he had moments of wanting more, and this was one of those moments. Everything felt so good, and the sounds of their kisses filled the room. Vince pulled back and looked Jared with the utmost sincerity in his eyes, “Move in with me.” He blurted out not knowing how Jared would feel about that, but he missed him when he was gone, and although they didn’t live too far from one another, it was still bad. He wanted him close to him.

Jared loved it when Vince would distract him, he loved the way Vince made him feel. He had never felt this way about anyone before and he knew Vince was his forever, he just had to be able to let everyone else see that. He continued to kiss Vince, pouting a little when he pulled back. Though the question took him by surprise and right away the pout turned into a smile and he nodded his head, “I would love nothing more than to move in with you.” The prospect of seeing Vince all the time was more than he could ever ask for and he knew he wanted to fall asleep and wake up next to the other male.

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delicate--being‌:

Candice knew that Jared knew more about her than he was letting on, but she wasn’t going to make this about her, he needed a listening ear and she was going to be that for him. “You can, all you have to do is try really hard to get out of your own head. You can’t live by what other people expect from you. If Vince is everything that you say he is to you, then there is your answer. Fuck the outside opinions, follow your heart and give the man you love all of you, inside and outside of your four walls.”

Jared nodded his head, he knew she was right and he wished it was as easy as she was making it seem. He was trying, there was no doubt there, but it was a hard road one he was going to have to get used to. “You make it sound so easy but I don’t even know where to start.” He paused for a moment as he looked at her. “Well I guess I kind of do. He asked me to move in and I said yeah so maybe actually moving my stuff in is a place to start?” Phrasing it as a questions wasn’t necessary since he already knew the answer.

[merlinsprat]

favorite pairings of 2015 (as voted by my followers) 21. ian/mickey - shameless u.s.

[gleasra]

I think childhood is something you really don’t appreciate until it’s been taken from you.

Ellen Hopkins, Childhood (via gleasra)

[kybee1497]

Modern Bellamy Blake

[sunsetquotes]

You deserve good things and I want to be one of them.

Ellen Hopkins (via sunsetquotes)

[thequotejournals]

She is madness, sanity. She is hell, and paradise.

Ellen Hopkins, Perfect (via thequotejournals)

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{ Jared & Vince }

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delicate--being‌:

Vince loved when Jared would pull him into his lap, it made him smile so hard. He could feel his fingers going up and down his back as he tried to watch the movie. He could feel Jared’s eyes on him, “You are really bad at pretending to watch a movie.” He said without taking his eyes off the screen, but the smile spreading on his face showed he was enjoying it very much.

Jared chuckled and looked at his boyfriend, “what can I say? You’re just a very distracting person.” He kissed him deeply loving the time they were spending together, he loved all the time he got to spend with Vince, it was all perfect to him. He let his hands run down the other’s sides moving to kiss his neck, he wanted to make the other feel as perfect as he felt in the moment.

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delicate--being‌:

Candice gave him a “boy please” look, “Come on J, you know I don’t date, I have hookups.” She joked even if it was true. She wasn’t one to sugarcoat things. She listened to Jared talk about his upbringing and she could understand his reasoning, it was something she had to deal with for becoming a stripper. “I know that Jared, and it is a lot to get past, but we have to put our parents out of our heads. You are an adult, living in your own place, paying your own bills. He can’t control what you do. I had to do the same thing, my mom and dad were really conservatives and would die if they knew what I did for a living, but I refuse to let them control me, so I am doing what I want and come to find out I am really good at it.” She smiled and took his hand in hers, “You have to decide if he is worth taking back that control.”

Jared let out a soft chuckle as he looked at her, “I don’t know. Maybe you had a date before a hook up. I don’t know your life.” He laughed as he said it keeping his eyes on her for a moment while he listened to what she was saying. “I just wish I could give him everything he deserves. How do I move past it all so I can just give him everything he deserves?” He sighed for a moment and looked down again, “Vince is worth everything. I’ve never felt this way about anyone before. I can actually see myself building a life with him and I know he deserves the world.”

[mastersurf]

“What’s the point of being a hero when everyone thinks you’re a villain?”

Ellen Hopkins, Smoke (via mastersurf)

[bittenbyimagines]

The 100 Aesthetic: Bellamy Blake

[learningthroughmistakes-deactiv]

“HOW

do you define a word without concrete meaning? To each his own, the saying goes, so

WHY

push to attain an ideal state of being that no two random people will agree is

WHERE

you want to be? Faultless. Finished. Incomparable. People can never be these, and anyway,

WHEN

did creating a flawless facade become a more vital goal than learning to love the person

WHO

lives inside your skin? The outside belongs to others. Only you should decide for you -

WHAT

is perfect.”

Ellen Hopkins

[anicklebittome]

Totally hooked

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{ Jared & Vince }

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delicate--being‌:

It was moments like this that Vince knew in his heart of hearts that Jared was the one for him. No matter how hard things got they always found a way to make it right and this was no different. As hard as it was for Jared to be open in public, Vince knew that how he acted in private was his real self. He melted in his kiss and kissed him back to show that he knew he was serious about what he was saying. Once he pulled back he looked in his eyes, “Now let’s get to watching this movie.” He smiled and clicked on the movie.

Jared smiled and moved to get comfortable on the couch before pulling Vince into his lap. He would at least actually pretend to watch the first maybe five minutes of the movie. Okay so maybe he didn't last that long before he was running his fingers along Vince's back, his eyes on his boyfriend rather than the movie.

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{ Jared & Vince }

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delicate--being‌:

Vince believe Jared, he knew that he was really trying to make an effort, but he still had some ways to go. He wasn’t going to focus on that, all he wanted to do was focus on the present. He leaned in and kissed his cheek, ‘I know you will.” He got up to go and put on some clothes, “Make sure you get me some lo mein noodles.” He winked and headed into the room. He put on a pair of pants and a t-shirt and headed back out to meet Jared on the couch. “So are you ready to pretend to watch a movie?” He laughed and plopped down next to him putting his hand on his leg. “For the record you know I know that you’re trying right?” He wanted him to be sure that he was aware of these issues and how hard it was for him to be open.

While Vince was gone Jared ordered the food and gave his credit card information so it could be paid for before it was delivered. Once it was ordered he moved to sit on the couch, smiling with his boyfriend reappeared. "I'm more than ready to pretend to watch a movie." He looked over at Vince hearing the statement and nodded his head. "I know. And I promise you I am trying. I want to be with you so badly and you make me so happy. I don't know what is wrong with me but I am trying." He let his eyes meet Vince's and he moved to kiss him deeply to show him that he truly meant what he was saying.