Mer's universe

Excentric close to her 40s who's learning to live with her anxiety and BPD. Married, housewife, mother of rats, introverted. Pansexual and feminist witch. Can't say I didn't warn you and when the day arrives I'll become the sky and I'll become the sea and the sea will come to kiss me for I am going home nothing can stop me now

[geesewitch]

A Tarot guidance spread!

1. Your primary concern

Your primary concert

What’s your motivation? Why are you looking for guidance?

Area in your life you feel anxious about

Elements in your situation you may not be aware of

Info you need to know to overcome your apprehensions

This card will help you feel comfortable letting your anxieties go

Advise you how to move forward

How it’ll work out if you follow this plan

Got this from Practical magic: a beginners guide to crystals, horoscopes, psychics & spells by Nikki Van De Car

[larimar]

📷: : @rami_astro

[stardustocean-archive]

Well hello world

[thesesummersonspoet]

THOUGHTS THAT GO THROUGH MY HEAD WHILE WRITING:

i need a snack

maybe i should just check tumblr

[at my OCs] will you guys please get along for five minutes

i wrote a whole sentence, i deserve cake

wow i’m a genius 

never mind this is garbage 

well that’s enough of that, snack time

[grided]

[ninanailedit]

I only ever want to paint tropical nails now. Is that so wrong?? Using all @cndworld Vinylux polishes 🌺

[stardustocean-archive]

I’m alive \o/

But honestly, today isn’t a good day.

I didn’t sleep well and I woke up feeling like crap and definitely needing more sleep. I took my meds, I had breakfast (i still need to make myself a coffee)é I put a clay mask in my face and I’m going to be taking a shower once it’s time to remove it. Hoping it will help a bit with my mood. 

The last few months have been something. I finished my 1st group therapy and I got an evaluation to see what were my needs after that. I’ll be starting a new group therapy coupled with individual therapy soon. 

I went on a week vacation at my inlaws with my husband at the start of july. It was great and I got to rest a lot. It was so hot too so we were thankful for their new house having central AC. We slept so well then too, like all the stress of everyday life was gone. I didn’t get headaches from trying to get a diversified menu for our meals and I spent a lot of time in my bikini in the swimming pool, which helped me feel good about myself. 

Then from the 20th to 22nd, I went to Toronto with 2 girl friends for a little road trip. Slept at a decent motel, went shopping and went to the zoo. Ate good Chinese and Korean food, The 8 hours drive wasn’t even stressful. But damn, it felt good to get out of the car.

Came home and it was another heat wave. It’s been so hot and humid for the past week here. And just to make eveything SO MUCH BETTER, our AC officially busted and we can’t afford a new one.

Anyway.

I’m alive.

And today’s not a good mood day.

So I’m going to shower soon and try not to think too much.

[stardustocean-archive]

I didn't have to fly across the world to see some beauty. If you've never visited the province of Quebec (and Canada in general), you are missing out. #quebec #canada #sunset #nature #landscape #sorel #bird #photography

[stardustocean-archive]

When its so beautiful outside you dont need a filter. #quebec #canada #beautiful #landscape (at Parc des Chutes-de-la-Chaudière)

[stardustocean-archive]

One last walk for a glimpse of the sunset before we have to head home in the morning. #vacationmode #sorel #quebec (at Parc Regard-sur-le-Fleuve)

[stardustocean-archive]

I lovemaking myself new bags. This one can zip!! And the tassel was bought at Joann when I visited Arizona last september. #sewing #seamstress #bag #diy (at Quebec, Quebec)

[stardustocean-archive]

Dinner time. Salad with some maple and black pepper sausage. #food #foodporn #eating #noms #dinner (at Quebec, Quebec)

[stardustocean-archive]

Today... #selfies #selfiesaturday #selfie #muotd #motd #moi (at Quebec, Quebec)

[stardustocean-archive]

I walked a lot today. But it was the first time in a couple months i went by the river today and I gotta say, it's gorgeous. I need to move to a neighborhood with more trees. I need more nature and calm in my life. #quebeccity #quebec #natureinthecity #today (at Quebec, Quebec)

[stardustocean-archive]

Weekly preparation of medications. I'm hoping that with my weight loss and therapy l will eventually no longer need most of those. I also shoot insulin at night and take one inhaler twice a day for asthma + i have the emergency inhaler and a painkiller i take often so i can actually get out of bed without too much pain. #life #medicines #diabetes #diabetic #workingongettinghealthy (at Quebec, Quebec)

[stardustocean-archive]

Fix some of my old clip-in hair extensions to fit with my current hair colour. Kinda feeling this sweet pastel look today. #selfies #selfie #selfiesaturday #moi #pastelhair #lavenderhair #greeneyes #makeup #muotd #motd #selftaught (at Quebec, Quebec)

[stardustocean-archive]

Fixed some of my clip-in hair extensions to fit with my new hair colour. What do you think? (at Quebec, Quebec)