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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Ginny & Georgia (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Marcus Baker/Ginny Miller Characters: Ginny Miller, Marcus Baker Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Author Is Sleep Deprived, Introspection, Non-Linear Narrative, Sexual Content, Slice of Life Summary:
Marcus, Ginny, and their five senses.
chapter eight of some winters will never melt by lannistarks is up!
‘Woah, Ginny, hey, slow down,’ Max voiced, and I felt her hand graze my arm. But I needed to leave. Marcus was right behind her.
‘Give me the car keys,’ I demanded, trying to slow my breathing.
‘Ginn—’
‘—Marcus, please.’
He paused, brows furrowed. ‘Let me come with you, at least.’
‘No, I, uh, I think I need to be alone for a minute,’ I swallowed. ‘To scream, maybe, or cry.’
chapter six of empathogen by lannistarks is up!
Bubbe won’t like that. But Abby can’t stay cooped up in the four walls of her bedroom forever. She has to get out. Live life, breathe air, or whatever Carly sang. Her conversation with Grace whispers back to her. It was nice being out with the girls today. It reminded her of old times. When Joey’s nipple was being numbed for the piercing, they’d all giggled and taken pictures of the shop and Abby had wondered if this was waiting for her all along, if everything had reset over the summer or something and she’d been miserable for absolutely no reason. But the stares have been real, she internally argues. I’m not imagining that. She brushes the thoughts away. ‘Yeah, sure,’ she softly smiles.
chapter two of bad idea, right? by lannistarks is up!
reference: this is the antonia gentry look I was talking about in my end notes!
empathogen updates (act two) will resume next week monday !! in the meantime, I've posted the first chapter (of 3) to bad idea, right? it's a marginny future fic + it's not the fic I posted about when I said I was drafting something, that one's entirely different ! some winters will never melt will also finally have an update next week !
happy reading (I hope) !!
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/3 Fandom: Ginny & Georgia (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Marcus Baker/Ginny Miller Characters: Ginny Miller, Marcus Baker Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Angst with a Bittersweet Ending, Introspection, Mental Health Issues, Unhealthy Relationships, Future Fic Summary:
He lets out a humourless laugh, head springing back up. ‘Don’t therapise me, kid. I hate that shit.’
‘I’m not—Jesus, Marcus. I’m here! I’m trying to talk to you. What the fuck has all your therapy been for if you think having a conversation deeper than the range of a teaspoon is me trying to therapise you?’
Or: Ginny once told Marcus she didn’t want to be like her parents. It turns out some things really are just in her blood.
empathogen by lannistarks on AO3
- follows ginny miller, marcus baker, abby littman, and max baker living in new york and attending grand army high school
- explores the four characters above and their relationships with each other, their families, and peers
- dives deeper into some of the supporting characters who don't get a lot of personal shine in canon such as austin, norah, padma, bracia, hunter, wolfe, sophie, tris, and silver. even the random one-offs like riley, scott, and kate.
- explores fun teen shenanigans (because those are very important !!)
excerpt #1:
‘I’ve been meaning to say hi,’ he says, massaging the knuckles on his right middle finger. ‘Just haven't had the chance. I met your mom, though.’
She fights the urge to roll her eyes, instead offering a tight smile. ‘She can be really friendly.’
He tilts his head. ‘She wasn’t that friendly,’ he hums. ‘Asked me for weed, actually.’
‘Yeah, well, she can also be kind of a bitch.’ Jesus, Ginny. The words slip out faster than she can process them—it’s just natural, thinking that her mother is a bitch. ‘Do you wanna be reimbursed or something?’
He lets out another small smile. ‘I just wanted to say hey.’
excerpt #2
‘I wanna be not here,’ she whispers. Closes her eyes. ‘I wanna be Donna.’
Donna Sheridan, of course, sans pregnancy. She wants to just pack a suitcase and fuck off to somewhere far away. Find her own Kalokairi. She wants friends she’ll be excited to see well into her forties, friends she’ll do dance routines with and laugh with and have forever. She wants love. Pure and white-hot and dizzying. A love that tastes like summer rain.
‘You?’
Eyes still closed, she hears a sharp intake of breath from Abby.
‘I wanna live. Be alive.’
excerpt #3:
Max furrows her brows. ‘What’s that supposed to mean?’
‘Let’s see: I’ve got a deaf husband, a delinquent son—’ Marcus lets out a disapproving ‘Hey!’ on that note, ‘—and a lesbian daughter. They’re really religious people, honey, and I respect it, but I’m not sure I’d feel safe, and I most certainly don’t want to deal with their judgment.’
‘You’d feel judged?’
‘Don’t put words in my mouth, Maxine,’ Ellen warns. She doesn’t have a stern bone in her body, though, so it comes out all light and wobbly. ‘Feeling judged is not the same thing as feeling ashamed. I’m not ashamed of my family. But are you telling me that you’re one hundred percent comfortable when you’re there? Do they even know you’re gay?’
Max gulps. Gently places her fork on her plate. ‘I don’t see why they’d need to know.’
excerpt #4:
Abby lets out a yawn. ‘I had cheesecake at Ginny’s yesterday.’
‘Oh, yeah, your new mystery friend,’ Nancy hums. ‘Toss that nutmeg in there.’ Abby does as she says.
‘She’s not a mystery friend. You’ve literally met her.’
‘Briefly, and fleetingly,’ she emphasises. ‘You dragged her away so fast I didn’t even get her last name.’
A huff. ‘It’s Miller.’
‘You’ve just been spending a lot of time with her lately. I never even hear about Max and Norah anymore, which is weird because according to Bev, Norah and Max are still close.’
‘Mom,’ she groans. ‘It’s not a big deal, okay? People change. Friends move on.’
Her heart does this little thunder in her chest. Roaring like something’s trying to come out.
excerpt #5:
People had called it the perfect role for her, and it was only in the eighth grade that she realised they meant that she was spoiled and aggressive and generally unpleasant to those who weren’t her best friends or something. Yeah, well, maybe you guys just don’t know what real passion looks like, she’d wanted to go back in time and scream in their faces. Chin up, Maxi, Abby had said in the spinning teacups when Ellen and Clint had taken them all to Coney Island to cheer her up, and they’d shared an ice cream sandwich as Norah chose an old-fashioned corndog because Bev doesn’t like it when she has dessert before dinner.
excerpt #6
He takes a moment to compose himself. Thinks of cold water and grey rainclouds and, God, he’s such a douche—he thinks of Padma. Pretty, super understanding and forgiving Padma who’ll write the greatest heartbreak songs of all time about him and when she’s famous she’ll tell her fans not to hunt down her loser ex but they’ll find him and give him dirty looks, anyway, and maybe a tomato will be thrown his way and he’ll probably deserve it. He looks up at Ginny, and her brown eyes seem to brim with tears.
empathogen by lannistarks on AO3 !!
https://archiveofourown.org/works/78782206
a little later than I thought but chapter five (the new/very much extended and revised version) of empathogen is up on ao3 !!
‘Do you need a hideaway?’ Ginny asks. She tilts her head. ‘Or do you, like, want me to come over?’
She doesn’t really want that. It’s nothing against her. It’s just, even when she was in MAN, she didn’t like everyone spending too much time at her place. Norah’s house was—is—shiny and grand and Bev keeps things pristine. Max’s place is cosy and it looks like the perfect place for the perfect nuclear family. But Abby’s is sometimes messy and it doesn’t have the most inviting decor and even though she’s often alone, it’s not in the cool throw-a-party-while-your-folks-are-gone way. The Littmans live on takeout and Nancy only cares to be a whizz in the kitchen when her parents come over. Abby should probably learn to cook or something. Bubbe’s always nudging her towards cooking lessons. Probably thinks it’s embarrassing that she can’t make anything other than bacon and eggs and anything that can be made into a decent meal with the Air Fryer.
‘That’s okay,’ she voices. ‘I’m gonna be at my grandparents’ the rest of the week, anyway. Spend time with them and help ‘em finish packing.’ That part is true.
i'm just proofreading the chapter I'm uploading in a couple of minutes and just for clarity: I’ll be honest—I don’t love that the previous chapter five was so short (3593).
It feels like it massively disrupted the momentum. I don’t know if you’d notice it as a reader, but I definitely feel it from an editing perspective. So, I’ve re-arranged some things and tacked the old chapter onto the new one to create an all new chapter five.
but I made it too long (lol) so now this current one will be split to keep the pacing on a good narrative beat. you obviously won't know the difference with that one.
if you left a comment on the original chapter five, I'll copy and paste it into the new comment section in case you wanna reference it or anything.
I hope you enjoy this chapter !!
been very busy the past few days but empathogen chapter six will be up tomorrow (08/04) or thursday (09/04) !! very excited for this one !!
chapter five of empathogen is now up on ao3 !!
‘You’re saying you wouldn’t feel shitty if she found out about this? That she wouldn’t?’ ‘Jesus, Ginny,’ he mutters. The way he says it—like, sort of defeated but almost whining, begging (petulant, like it should be his God-given right to kiss girls who aren’t his girlfriend-not-girlfriend)—sticks with her. She feels it down to her toes, in her bones. Gravity shifts, lips on lips. His hand is on her neck, holding her to his face, and she falls—God, she falls.
I’m never gonna get the chance to kiss a guy this hot ever again.
empathogen chapter five will be posted either this evening or tomorrow !! it's kinda one of those chapters that, as much as you edit and shift narrative beats, don't seem to come out the way you envisioned, but I'm trying, lol.
with the chosen pivot, I think it's highly likely (no absolute promises, though) that there will be a double update this week, so one on monday (if it's not up this evening) and another on friday :)
one day I'll keep to a regular posting schedule ! not today, but one day !
empathogen will be updated sometime towards the end of the week! life is just kinda life-ing right now and I'm gonna be really busy in this coming week + i've had a headache every day this week :(
drafting something for marcus + ginny and this is the vibe !!
soundtrack:
flightless bird, american mouth by iron & wine / the loneliest by måneskin / somewhere only we know by keane / when we were young by adele / i'm like a bird by nelly furtado / vienna by billy joel
chapter four of empathogen by lannistarks is up on ao3 !!
Marcus takes another fry and she eyes his tray.
‘You literally have your own right there.’
‘Yeah, but other people’s fries always seem to taste better than your own. Isn’t it funny how that works?’
She grabs two fries from his tray. They taste fine. ‘We need a larger data pool. And we need to keep track of our findings over a longer period of time.’
‘Got it, chief.’ They both chuckle.
Abby rolls her eyes with a groan. ‘God, you guys are so weird. Oh, and get this, Bubbe’s literally texting me right now. Who the fuck taught her to text?’
She turns to Marcus again. ‘Hey, so—’
this is why we don't edit chapters on the same day we intend to post an update or at least so close to the set time 😭😭
the new empathogen chapter is gonna be out in a couple of hours (it'll be tuesday morning [ended up being afternoon] for me). I didn't expect to be so busy today and I'm feeling very sleepy right now, way too sleepy to finish editing the chapter. and it's very dialogue heavy, so I need to be wide awake. see you guys when I see you <3 <3