HER HEART &. SOUL

independent selective woloc. as adored by rii.

[starmagicked]

#STARMAGICKED.

✧ PRIVATE &. SELECTIVE BLOG for a FINAL FANTASY XIV original character. as lovingly adored by RII. established march 2023.

a study in  —  wanderlust , overcoming your trauma / past , womanhood & embracing one's sexuality , finding family in those you care for , healing in the form of love &&. reaching for the stars.

about || rules || navigation || interest check || permanent starter call

[starmagicked]

moved to @outffoxed

things are mostly set up over there, i just gotta find the time to finalize everything and start rping, but i will be over there from now on. <3

[starmagicked]

moved to @outffoxed

things are mostly set up over there, i just gotta find the time to finalize everything and start rping, but i will be over there from now on. <3

[starmagicked]

sorry for the silence!! been busy irl and i'm slowly moving things to move blogs! i will post when i've finished moving everything over and when i'm ready to make the switch :3 threads will be moved over as well!!

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In regards to Miles

TRIGGER WARNING: nsfw themes, coercion, manipulation

Below is a documented testimony of my experience with Miles / reapcrbunny. The events that take place are incredibly current, occurring between March 25th-April 18th of 2023. Best viewed on desktop, but I will paste a text-only version under a read more for mobile users.

I'm primarily posting this as proof to the fact that Miles has not changed his behaviour. He is still continuing to pressure boundaries and see how far he can get. If you have any questions, you're welcome to send an ask, an IM or request my Discord.

4/18/23 - reapcrbunny testimony

WRITTEN 4/18/23 TRIGGER WARNING: nsfw themes, coercion, manipulation, mentions of grooming & csa Hi, I’m Rii / starmagicked and here’s my

Hi, I’m Rii / starmagicked and here’s my experience with Miles / reapcrbunny. You can consider this a callout if you wish, but I rather it be considered a testimony. I originally was going to post this to the XIV RPC Discord, but it got too long and Discord is weird with images now, so I opted to make a doc.

For transparency's sake, I’m an adult. I’m 24. I wouldn’t go to the lengths to call what I went through with him grooming, but I definitely felt coerced. Also, I live in America under CST, so times/dates might be different to Miles & others involved.

A little bit of context on my end, I recently went through some very personal issues before joining this RPC. I’m vulnerable, lonely and thrived off of the attention Miles gave me. It doesn’t help that I was very isolated from the community since I’m very new, and I’m sure writing with Miles warded some people away. Miles was the “closest” person to me in this RPC (which isn’t saying much since we met a month ago) so I felt very pressured to be on his side. It’s why I agreed to do a lot of the things that happened between us, and why some of my screenshots may be damning from my side.

I first joined the XIV RPC at the beginning of March, and Miles first reached out to me March 10th, 2023 after filling out my interest check. I was hesitant to even follow him back, considering I had read his rules & the callouts, but seeing he was a prominent figure in the community, I fell into the idea that he had changed and moved on. We didn't start actively talking until March 25th, when he accidentally filled out my interest check again. Right away, he initiated pre-established romantic shipping, which at the time I didn't mind since I love shipping and was excited to do it.

Next couple of days were on/off, but three days later (March 28th) he broached the topic of nsfw, at first asking if he could share nsfw screenshots of Dahlia. I agreed and it opened the floodgates for him to send me a doc of Dahlia's kinks. I shared some nsfw headcanons of my own initially, and afterwards he asked if it was okay to talk about nsfw concepts with Dahlia and Rilha, to which I consented. Later that night, I agreed to meet him in game and he asked to call. I was hesitant at first since I'm pretty socially anxious and I had only known him for a couple days at this point, but I agreed eventually. (It was also 12-1am for me, and I live with others)

A few days later, Miles initiated sexual roleplay in DMs with me after asking to show some nsfw art of Dahlia. (April 1st) It didn't last terribly long, but was initiated again later on in the night out of a random talk. It continued into the next day which is when I started to get some cold feet about it. The second roleplay was dropped, but then the day after that (April 3rd) another one started. A fourth one was started April 7th, but I was starting to grow a bit uncomfortable with the frequency at which they were occurring. 

At this point I had joined the RPC Discord, and we had plans to watch a movie April 8th, so I got some reprieve from the rp for a day, until Miles asked to continue it. I agreed, even though I wasn't feeling that into it anymore. He also at one point asked me to send nsfw asks, which I did, despite being a bit hesitant to openly write smut on the dash. I ended up sending him pretty innocuous ones to hopefully lessen the blow.

After the 9th, the rps stopped after I stopped replying to the last one and changed the subject and started talking about other things. April 15th was another movie night (or morning for me, lol) and while I initially intended to wake up for it, I overslept a bit. I had seen in the server that Miles had been venting about some stuff that happened in XIV, and I asked if he was doing okay since he said he felt stressed about some stuff. He then asked if we could call and do some content in game, and I agreed. During the call, I mentioned that we were missing the movie, and he said he opted out of joining for the movie due to aforementioned issues from XIV, and also because the previous morning at Aries and Fiery's wedding there was some people who didn't like him and he felt awkward being in call with them. This was all in call, so I can't remember the exact wording, but it was the first time I heard of people feeling uncomfortable with Miles in the server.

(Side note, he also applied for a commission from me during this call, which I know came out to be a financially abusive tactic he does to his victims.)

In between then and when the callout was posted, there was one small incident of Miles trying to initiate sexual rp again, but it was brushed off rather quickly and wasn't pursued. At this point I was getting pretty uncomfortable with the sexual aspect of our writing, so I was relieved when it was dropped.

I want to be transparent about something here, I was the one who alerted Miles to King's callout - having not known that the behaviour was current or that I was experiencing it first hand. I was under the impression he had changed and learned, like so many others, and he was the only one I was relatively "close" to in the community, so I felt like I owed it to him to let him know. He continued to tell me this narrative too, and I ended up softing King since I was prepared to take Miles' side.

Around this time was when Miles posted about the callout in the RPC Discord. I ended up going to sleep, and woke up to Miles asking if our ship was okay, as well as his rules update and a random nsfw post. He saw me online once I woke up and I clarified I was okay with the ship because if you don’t include the sexual coercion (which was the entire ship, tbf) I was. I was starting to become a bit uncomfortable with the situation at hand blowing up, but I stayed quiet.

Later that night is when the argument blew up in the Discord, in which Miles was forcibly removed from it. He immediately came to me about it. After talking to an outsider close friend about it, I ended up lurking the Discord’s channels into the night, before feeling bold enough to share my own experiences with him. Reading what everyone had said regarding his behaviour made me feel safe to come out about what I was going through with him, and how I felt a bit pressured into being on his side.

After talking with everyone in the server and sharing experiences, I ultimately decided to cut contact with him this morning. Thankfully, he took it rather well. I had washed my hands of him, but I still feel a bit damaged and used from everything that happened, especially after hearing everyone else’s testimonies regarding him and his behaviour. I initially wasn’t going to say anything regarding the sexual aspect of our friendship, but as more and more came out, I felt inclined to share my story, especially with all the support of others in the server. Someone pointed out that while I said I consented, if I felt uncomfortable and coerced, it wasn’t actually consensual.

I know ultimately, my role in this doesn’t look good because of my initial siding with Miles, but I felt manipulated and coerced into siding with him. I was isolated from the rest of the community (which wasn’t necessarily his fault, more of my own) and had no real idea what was going on. I blissfully ignored the red flags because I felt flattered by the attention.

I wanted to share my story to reinforce the fact that his behaviour is current. This happened recently, within the past month. I’m not one to do callouts like this lightly, but the running idea that his behaviour was in the past is false. He is a repeated offender and I was another victim to his manipulation and coercion.

If you would like any clarification on my testimony, you’re free to DM/IM me for more information and I can try and provide what I can.

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Good evening / morning, Rii! I just wanted to thank you for that post you just made. A friend of mine, Abyss, was trying to...well, get me to see the truth because I've personally on and off rped with and known Miles for years and just...I've tried to defend the fact people can change. It's not I wanted to defend 'Miles' directly, it's that...I'm someone who has been slandered by out of context things cut specifically to attack me, to villainize me, so anytime someone tries to change, I try to help them. Abyss was scared this would damn all the work I am putting into bettering my OWN image...

So they fought hard to get evidence that I wanted. It was killing them, and you gave exactly what we were wanting. Both on discord, and now a full post here. And im on anon because...well, like I said, my reputation is one so badly ruined most don't like me. So It was best to do this to offer my appreciation.

Thank you for the evidence and your story, truthfully. You helped me keep one of my closest and most important friends.

i’m really glad. i know recently a constant discussion has been whether this behaviour is current or not, and i wanted to spread awareness that it is current and happened to me recently. i don’t mind sharing my story so long as it helps others stay away and potentially save more victims grief.

[starmagicked]

In regards to Miles

TRIGGER WARNING: nsfw themes, coercion, manipulation

Below is a documented testimony of my experience with Miles / reapcrbunny. The events that take place are incredibly current, occurring between March 25th-April 18th of 2023. Best viewed on desktop, but I will paste a text-only version under a read more for mobile users.

I'm primarily posting this as proof to the fact that Miles has not changed his behaviour. He is still continuing to pressure boundaries and see how far he can get. If you have any questions, you're welcome to send an ask, an IM or request my Discord.

4/18/23 - reapcrbunny testimony

WRITTEN 4/18/23 TRIGGER WARNING: nsfw themes, coercion, manipulation, mentions of grooming & csa Hi, I’m Rii / starmagicked and here’s my

Hi, I’m Rii / starmagicked and here’s my experience with Miles / reapcrbunny. You can consider this a callout if you wish, but I rather it be considered a testimony. I originally was going to post this to the XIV RPC Discord, but it got too long and Discord is weird with images now, so I opted to make a doc.

For transparency's sake, I’m an adult. I’m 24. I wouldn’t go to the lengths to call what I went through with him grooming, but I definitely felt coerced. Also, I live in America under CST, so times/dates might be different to Miles & others involved.

A little bit of context on my end, I recently went through some very personal issues before joining this RPC. I’m vulnerable, lonely and thrived off of the attention Miles gave me. It doesn’t help that I was very isolated from the community since I’m very new, and I’m sure writing with Miles warded some people away. Miles was the “closest” person to me in this RPC (which isn’t saying much since we met a month ago) so I felt very pressured to be on his side. It’s why I agreed to do a lot of the things that happened between us, and why some of my screenshots may be damning from my side.

I first joined the XIV RPC at the beginning of March, and Miles first reached out to me March 10th, 2023 after filling out my interest check. I was hesitant to even follow him back, considering I had read his rules & the callouts, but seeing he was a prominent figure in the community, I fell into the idea that he had changed and moved on. We didn't start actively talking until March 25th, when he accidentally filled out my interest check again. Right away, he initiated pre-established romantic shipping, which at the time I didn't mind since I love shipping and was excited to do it.

Next couple of days were on/off, but three days later (March 28th) he broached the topic of nsfw, at first asking if he could share nsfw screenshots of Dahlia. I agreed and it opened the floodgates for him to send me a doc of Dahlia's kinks. I shared some nsfw headcanons of my own initially, and afterwards he asked if it was okay to talk about nsfw concepts with Dahlia and Rilha, to which I consented. Later that night, I agreed to meet him in game and he asked to call. I was hesitant at first since I'm pretty socially anxious and I had only known him for a couple days at this point, but I agreed eventually. (It was also 12-1am for me, and I live with others)

A few days later, Miles initiated sexual roleplay in DMs with me after asking to show some nsfw art of Dahlia. (April 1st) It didn't last terribly long, but was initiated again later on in the night out of a random talk. It continued into the next day which is when I started to get some cold feet about it. The second roleplay was dropped, but then the day after that (April 3rd) another one started. A fourth one was started April 7th, but I was starting to grow a bit uncomfortable with the frequency at which they were occurring. 

At this point I had joined the RPC Discord, and we had plans to watch a movie April 8th, so I got some reprieve from the rp for a day, until Miles asked to continue it. I agreed, even though I wasn't feeling that into it anymore. He also at one point asked me to send nsfw asks, which I did, despite being a bit hesitant to openly write smut on the dash. I ended up sending him pretty innocuous ones to hopefully lessen the blow.

After the 9th, the rps stopped after I stopped replying to the last one and changed the subject and started talking about other things. April 15th was another movie night (or morning for me, lol) and while I initially intended to wake up for it, I overslept a bit. I had seen in the server that Miles had been venting about some stuff that happened in XIV, and I asked if he was doing okay since he said he felt stressed about some stuff. He then asked if we could call and do some content in game, and I agreed. During the call, I mentioned that we were missing the movie, and he said he opted out of joining for the movie due to aforementioned issues from XIV, and also because the previous morning at Aries and Fiery's wedding there was some people who didn't like him and he felt awkward being in call with them. This was all in call, so I can't remember the exact wording, but it was the first time I heard of people feeling uncomfortable with Miles in the server.

(Side note, he also applied for a commission from me during this call, which I know came out to be a financially abusive tactic he does to his victims.)

In between then and when the callout was posted, there was one small incident of Miles trying to initiate sexual rp again, but it was brushed off rather quickly and wasn't pursued. At this point I was getting pretty uncomfortable with the sexual aspect of our writing, so I was relieved when it was dropped.

I want to be transparent about something here, I was the one who alerted Miles to King's callout - having not known that the behaviour was current or that I was experiencing it first hand. I was under the impression he had changed and learned, like so many others, and he was the only one I was relatively "close" to in the community, so I felt like I owed it to him to let him know. He continued to tell me this narrative too, and I ended up softing King since I was prepared to take Miles' side.

Around this time was when Miles posted about the callout in the RPC Discord. I ended up going to sleep, and woke up to Miles asking if our ship was okay, as well as his rules update and a random nsfw post. He saw me online once I woke up and I clarified I was okay with the ship because if you don’t include the sexual coercion (which was the entire ship, tbf) I was. I was starting to become a bit uncomfortable with the situation at hand blowing up, but I stayed quiet.

Later that night is when the argument blew up in the Discord, in which Miles was forcibly removed from it. He immediately came to me about it. After talking to an outsider close friend about it, I ended up lurking the Discord’s channels into the night, before feeling bold enough to share my own experiences with him. Reading what everyone had said regarding his behaviour made me feel safe to come out about what I was going through with him, and how I felt a bit pressured into being on his side.

After talking with everyone in the server and sharing experiences, I ultimately decided to cut contact with him this morning. Thankfully, he took it rather well. I had washed my hands of him, but I still feel a bit damaged and used from everything that happened, especially after hearing everyone else’s testimonies regarding him and his behaviour. I initially wasn’t going to say anything regarding the sexual aspect of our friendship, but as more and more came out, I felt inclined to share my story, especially with all the support of others in the server. Someone pointed out that while I said I consented, if I felt uncomfortable and coerced, it wasn’t actually consensual.

I know ultimately, my role in this doesn’t look good because of my initial siding with Miles, but I felt manipulated and coerced into siding with him. I was isolated from the rest of the community (which wasn’t necessarily his fault, more of my own) and had no real idea what was going on. I blissfully ignored the red flags because I felt flattered by the attention.

I wanted to share my story to reinforce the fact that his behaviour is current. This happened recently, within the past month. I’m not one to do callouts like this lightly, but the running idea that his behaviour was in the past is false. He is a repeated offender and I was another victim to his manipulation and coercion.

If you would like any clarification on my testimony, you’re free to DM/IM me for more information and I can try and provide what I can.

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i've said my piece already to others, but i figure i post about it on here as well since i don't have the time or energy to cleanse my blog. i'm no longer writing with miles / reapcrbunny and cut ties with him regarding the situation that happened recently.

if anyone felt uncomfortable by my interactions with him, i'm genuinely sorry. i know i wrote with him a lot this past month, so i understand if people were off put by my engaging with him.

i'm still on a semi hiatus-ish in regards to school, and that won't change bc man this semester is catching up to me. but this will be the only time i speak about this publicly.

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sorry for the silence recently. been kinda out of it but i got a tattoo yesterday !! under cut bc endwalker spoilers uwu

it's venat's sword!! :D my artist did an amazing job at recreating it ♥

[somnolentsuggestions]

looking up at night and realizing omg !!!!! stars !!!! - i dont think i’ll ever outgrow that

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god sent you from heaven.

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school is starting to kick my ass a bit ... :' ) i might get a bit slower in replies. ( or i should .. bc i have work to do. wails. )

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oh !! if any mutuals would like my di.scord, feel free to add me at Rii#6969 - i'm always down to plot and chat :3

just pls let me know who you are sobs... and pls only mutuals!

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school is starting to kick my ass a bit ... :' ) i might get a bit slower in replies. ( or i should .. bc i have work to do. wails. )

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when i get home i’m gonna finally sit down and write an ancient verse for rilha.

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i'm a liar.

[azemana]

Whether it was the inner beast that Curious Gorge spoke of or his own resolve, something inside Ardbert had snapped when he saw Rilha, turning him into something feral. He could only hold himself back for so long; maybe it was the soft brush of her tail against him when they passed each other that became the last straw. Of course, there was no way he was about to do something about it in plain view-- the nearby closet would have to do.

Cramped as the space was, it was kind of perfect in a way. The lights were low, and he'd positioned them so she could, of course, leave if she wanted-- he just prayed she didn't. "The things you do to me..." he muttered to her before pulling her into a burning kiss. He felt he would likely run out of air before he let her go.

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hazel hues widen as she's pulled into a passionate kiss, a squeak echoing from the back of her throat before she relents into ardbert's embrace. ears flat against her head, cheeks blazing red, she kisses the warrior back ferociously, matching his intense desire. when rilha had gently teased him with her tail, she didn't expect to have him snap. however, she wasn't going to complain. the passion in her heart for ardbert was a burning fire, and to finally get to kiss him so hungrily was all she could have ever wanted.

❝ h - ha . . ❞ she pants between kisses, hardly able to get a word out. softly, she attempts to pull away, nose brushing against his softly. ❝ sh - should we be doing this ?? ❞ the miqo'te gazes up at him with doe eyes, which silently scream for more, despite her protest.

[reapcrbunny]

―    ﴾  𝚗𝚜𝚏𝚠  𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚙𝚝𝚜  ﴿   :    𝐋𝐄𝐒𝐒  𝐂𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐘  𝐄𝐃𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍. | @starmagicked -- [ STRIPTEASE ]

( 🐇 ) SHE HAD ONLY turned around for a mere moment -- but turning back around in confusion her eyes widened. oh. her cheeks grew warm, a blush painted on pale features as she slowly found herself in her chair. her ears were upright, gaze not falling away from rilha as she stripped for her. she was beautiful, as she always was and she . . felt like she had been GIVEN A GIFT.

< TURN AROUND . . > perhaps it a little cliché to want her to do a little spin for her but . . she wanted to see ALL OF HER.

WAS THAT A crime ?

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rilha obliges dahlia, giving a wink as the last piece of her garments are dropped to the floor. standing on her toes, she does a spin, hands gently caressing her hips and thighs as she runs them up her body. gracefully, she takes a step closer to dahlia, legs crossing in a pose as she gazed at her newly found lover.

❝ like what you see ?? ❞ the miqo'te gives a sly grin, one of her hands reaching up to hold her cheek as she gazes down at the veena in front of her.

[starmagicked]

@reapcrbunny said — ❛ comes up from behind her, picks her up and gives her a beeg hug ❜

unprompted ( always accepting )

❝ w - waah !! ❞ the miqo'te yelps out, being picked up from behind by surprise. feeling dahlia press her close, she relaxes against her lover's form, ears twitching.

❝ you coulda warned me. ❞ she huffs playfully, a pout painting her features despite the fact dahlia can't see it. her face flusters from the affection, though, secretly enjoying being held.