The stars died so that you could be here today

"Spinning, shooting, shattered star, Is it lonely where you are? Is there a comet in your heart? Have you turned your absence into art? Sighing, shining, splintered star, Once so near and now so far, Is there moonlight in your hair? Do you close your eyes to stare? Fading, fading, faded star, You are still my favourite scar, Screaming out into the night Reflecting back the darkest light Precious, precious, precious star I keep your light inside a jar Are you a stranger here on Earth? Are you the measure of your worth? Twinkle, twinkle, fallen star What if love is all we are?" Iain Thomas, ”Intentional Dissonance”

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A matcha appreciation post.

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February, 2019

Chinese New Year Gatherings - Wee Nam Kee; Harbourside Building; Brass Lion Distillery; Me.

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You think that things became better when in fact they didn’t. You only became oblivious to the bad as you sought escape and refuge in the outside world.

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January, 2019

The weekend - lazing with Ash, checking out my favourite watch, and frozen yoghurt

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One evening after work, J went for a run at Labrador Park whilst I walked as I was having a bout of stomach cramps. The skies deepened to a paddlepop palette as sunset came and went.

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untitled by fatmagultekin on Flickr.

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This was a big storm and he might as well enjoy it. It was ruining everything, but you might as well enjoy it.

Ernest Hemingway, For Whom the Bell Tolls (via bookmania)

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Roaming around Telok Ayer one day

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1. Red and White 

2. Low Yong Moh dim sum breakfast 

3. Gated 

4. Birds flying high 

5. Second hand bookstore opposite our hotel that I wish I had the time to visit  

6. La Gran Mentira 

7. Massive queue at the famous chicken rice ball stall 

8. Morning 

9. Temple light

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Sunsets in Malacca

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To have loved and lost Some say that you were lucky to have loved But my god Is it painful Please will you take the pain away.

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Tanjong Pagar Railway, May 2016

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I was breaking up with her. We were both crying and I tried to console her, saying “It’s going to be okay.” She said, “I know it will be, I just wish it could have been okay with you.”

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“I’m sorry this didn’t work out” to which she replied, “Me too.” That was it. I left while she cried in her hands. I know why I can’t forget that one. We were still in love, but it was over.

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Running thoughts

1. You were always a lesson, from start to end. Thank you for teaching me that I should never settle; Not for the safe love, nor for the uncertain love (if I may call it that). 

2. I thank all my lucky stars that I was in Bangkok when everything happened. That I could wail and sob my guts out in a room all to myself, with no one to question to me, no one to pass off-handed sarcastic remarks to me, and no responsibilities to care about. I thank you also, for not continuing to keep me hanging on a string, as someone once did. That was absolute cruelty, and those feelings I will never shake off. 

3. Some days I feel like I’ll never be whole again. All the people who have left my life, whether by their choice, mine, or others, have taken a piece of me with them. My heart aches for all these missing pieces, and some nights I wished I could have them back, and that I never knew this sinking feeling. 

4. If I had a boat, I would sail to you Hold you in my arms, ask you to be true Once I had a dream, it died long before Now I'm pointed north, hoping for the shore

5. 感觉必然重要，但是感觉并不能当饭吃。不知道是相信感觉仍然在而只是时间不对，还是承认你的感觉已经不在，会对自己好一些。

6. Today I am reminded why I am disillusioned with the concept of marriage and children. You were right that it is my entire upbringing, and some things will never change. 

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