Starbound

I was good, really good

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Not the time phoebe.

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The real looser is me when I was trying to live a full life on an empty stomach

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How do I explain that I wish my chronic illness was terminal

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I hate when my disability leaves me disabled

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When you’re getting bad again and nearly passing out every day but you don’t have anyone to talk to because you don’t want to be a burden because you don’t want to be the person who’s always struggling

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And I will wait by a phone that never rings because what if this time I’m wanted

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I’ve lost my will to live

My hobbies don’t interest me and nothing I do brings me joy anymore. When I talk it feels mechanical and hollow.

I don’t want to die but I also don’t see a point in living.

I feel like I’m just here for decoration

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I have no passion anymore.

I don’t get excited about things, I don’t have things I want to do anymore and I don’t enjoy my hobbies anymore. Everything is just a thing I do to kill time

I think I don’t enjoy life anymore

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Do not be ashamed of where you come from or afraid of where you will go

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I’ve lost my husband (boyfriend) to war (tech week) he’s on the front line (stage managing)

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All roads lead back to the loneliness that sits deep in my chest