Lita forced a small, reassuring smile through her tears at Ronni’s offer to check in on her kids for her. “No, no, that… you don’t need to do that,” she said with a shake of her head. “They’re in good hands with their dad and my parents, and I can keep an eye on them from a distance still. And I’ve put you through more bullshit than you deserve already, so you don’t have to have anything else to do with my… baggage.”
At least Ronni was willing to accept a ride home. While it wasn’t too terribly far from their current location, Lita was still grateful for the window to hopefully at least make it clear how sorry she was. It wasn’t often Lita fucked up in her life — or her afterlife — but when she did, it was practically NUCLEAR. Surely, she could find something to say to at least take the edge off this whole disaster.
She couldn’t find the words until they were almost to Ronni’s place. “Not everything was a lie, you know,” Lita began softly while pulling up to Ronni’s. “The way I feel for you..? That’s the truth. My taste? My style? That’s all really me. I am truly an only child. I REALLY did grow up in San Francisco.”
Lita’s eyes were brimming with tears again as she looked at Ronni with remorse straining her features. “I fucked up with you. Big time. And I cannot apologize enough to you for that. I’ll give you all the space and time you need, and you know how to reach me if you do want to talk again. If you don’t, then please take care of yourself. You’re amazing and you deserve someone wonderful and worthy of you.” She wanted to reach out and caress Ronni’s cheek but knew that wouldn’t be appropriate anymore. Instead Lita could only muster a sad smile.
it was strange. ronni didn’t see lita’s problems as baggage. even now, her kids were her kids. her husband was... well, who knows? because she was dead, but not gone. so would that make him a widower anyway? no. honestly, he was probably still just HER HUSBAND. all she could do was respect the other’s wishes, though. if she didn’t want ronni involved, ronni would stay away. “okay, but if you change your mind, i’ll do what i can. that’s not fair to them, either.”
the drive was much too silent for far too long. ronni HATED seeing lita cry, so she tried to distract herself by looking out the window and counting the houses. she’d do that when she was walking to and from work some mornings so she’d know exactly how many were left until her destination. she didn’t realize how much of a comfort it had become to her.
when they were almost to her house-- and ronni had lost count of the homes along her path-- lita spoke and even though her voice was soft, she was startled by the sudden noise. her significant other’s plea for understanding where there already was some-- far too much, honestly. ronni couldn’t help but sympathize. she could even admit that she believed lita was still stella at her core. the conversations they’d had, the truths they’d shared, it was probably all a true reflection of who was behind the mask-- but not the full truth. that was enough to hurt for a long time. “I KNOW.”
as the tears started again, ronni extended a shaking hand to lita’s face to wipe away some with her thumb. “please don’t cry.” she wasn’t sure what she was doing. she wasn’t ready to forgive the other woman, but she didn’t want things to end on a sour note like this. crying in front of her apartment and then... just a goodbye. “it’s going to be... okay.” maybe that was her own lie, she couldn’t tell yet. “maybe not us together, but... we’ll be fine.” she corrected. “i will call you eventually. i WILL.” with that promise, she couldn’t bare to be in the presence of someone she loved and didn’t trust as much as lita. she climbed out of the car and disappeared into her apartment.
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