⭒ To know anything being said about me behind my back is out of envy
⭒ To be too small to find anything at a store
⭒ To have people be jealous
⭒ To be able to wear bracelets as garters
⭒ To make him touch me gently
⭒ To make people think I’ll break
⭒ To never have to cover myself
⭒ To never be shamed for not looking put together
⭒ To feel my bones hit against each other
⭒ To be able to say “I guess its just my metabolism” when asked how I stay thin
⭒ To never have gaps on button downs
⭒ To always be the smallest in a room
⭒ To never be offered someones leftover
⭒ To say “lets get something to share” and only eat 2 bites
⭒ To never feel greedy when eating at a function
⭒ To have a hunger high 24/7
⭒ To always feel my heartbeat
⭒ To never have to hide what I eat
⭒ To say yes to going out for food without feeling like a pig
⭒ To have people ask “are you sure you dont want something to eat” out of concern instead of malice
⭒ To be called fat as a joke and know its a joke
⭒ To make people think I eat clean
⭒ To feel the fat leaving my body every time I breathe
⭒ To never spill out of jeans
⭒ To have tshirts fall off my shoulder
⭒ To look thin even in big clothes
⭒ To make everything around me look bigger
⭒ To move without a sound
⭒ To be told to eat a burger
⭒ To be told im beautiful
⭒ To actually accept compliments
⭒ To never feel like people are being nice to prove a point
⭒ To never think someone is being nice to laugh at me later
⭒ To walk away from any argument knowing they’re the bigger person
⭒ To never be asked out on a dare
⭒ To never be ignored by a group of guys
⭒ To make him concerned about my health
⭒ To see stars everywhere
⭒ To focus everything on school
⭒ To redefine what food is to me
⭒ To be in control of my health, mind, and body
⭒ To never wonder if Im being excluded because Im fat
⭒ To never be the one taking the group photo
⭒ To never make a boxspring creak
⭒ To walk slow and enjoy it
⭒ To never wondering if an outfit looks good or not
⭒ To train myself to never need to look at a nutrition label
⭒ To be able to wear everything I thrift
⭒To never be worried that im bring judged for what im eating
⭒ To never think an outfit would look better on someone else
⭒ To have my bones dig into everything
⭒ To barely raise the water in the bathtub
⭒ To never feel hot in the shower
⭒ To wrap my hands around my waist
⭒ To never drop a deuce lol
⭒ To say “do you want a cookie?” in an argument and someone get mad
⭒ To be so hungry that I dont know what it feels like to feel hungry
⭒ To be allowed to be picky
⭒ To make people kind to me
⭒ To make people think I hate junk food
⭒ To never need to step on a scale
⭒ To have more room on a plane seat
⭒ To never be judged for having a soda
⭒ To never need to be weighed at a water/amusement park
⭒ To never get stares of disgust
⭒ To never be though of as low brow
⭒ To be able to walk though a thin barred fence
⭒ To never worry if anything will break under me
⭒ To never worry that my old clothes will rip
⭒ To feel like who Im supposed to be
