she was all used up

HEYY!! pan, and new to tumblr!! she/they + multi fandom!!!

[starwalker58]

Hey!!! Introduction!!

hi all who see this!

I’m not normally someone who talks online, but I’m really hoping to meet some people and hopefully make some friends!!

I am under 18, so please keep that in mind. I don’t mind talking to anyone but IM NOT AN IDIOT. any sort of weird comments will ignored

my FULL fandom list is here :3 (uncompleted but updated)

likes

reading, rainy days, birds, punk, wildlife, films

dislikes

fascism, ICE, dictatorships, non-communication and needless hate.

hobbies

reading, (hopefully writing soon, used to get bullied for it but hopefully starting again), classic literature, BIRDS, photography, performing, volunteering, badmington etc

honestly idk why my blog has so much space theme I don't have a paticular interest so probably will be redesigning at some point. but hey yeah this is a very condensed version of me

[starwalker58]

NOOOO WHERE DID THE TENNA PFP GOOO

Wait i remember how I already did this

And how I already mentioned how I did it before

and that I made this remark two times in the past...

I think i have some memory issues idk

he's gone. disappeared. just like your memory.

poof.

jk jk he's on his tv show with spamton now living happily ever after the end gay gay salesmen yes hahahaha they're together

[starwalker58]

mmmm yes this recolour feels more like me. and adora too. I love my boy tenna but i've always felt really similar to adora. maybe a bit less emotionally awkward though. maybe not. i really struggle with identifying with characters since i have absolutely no perception of myself or what i "truly am like" honestly freaks me out a bit probs why i self sabotage etc BUT its ok because adora is now here. also tell me why every pinterest pfp hates seeing adora happy as shera :( theyre all so solemn like girl shes badass ok yes bye

[arlo-mike]

based on the reactions on my original post, i feel as though this is more accurate

[starwalker58]

also currently actively procrastinating physics revision 😛 my exam is TOMORROW 😛 irs not that I dislike physics but lowkey our subjects are so BORINNGGG I know that’s there’s so much more interesting subjects and I’m praying for better ones next year

but for now I DISLIKE PHYSICS >:[

[goustcop]

I love debate. I love activism. I love fighting for human rights. I love Trans activism and parties at the polls. I love organizing for what I believe in and helping the people who dont have the energy to fight themselves. And most of all, I love pride and being queer, and how all this celebration started from activism. And that means the things I organize and create can one day touch the hearts of millions.

[starwalker58]

urgh I’m a chronic perfectionist and basically hasn’t done much/if any amount of art in i dont know how long because none of it is “good enough” so I don’t bother, but I’m trying to find creative outlets and going on tumblr always makes me want to create fan art and learn how to draw again. But actually doing it is SO FRUSTRATING!!!! I know that’s obvious but I literally have 0 fun trying to learn how to draw and it’s just frustrating. I dont know how to relearn that it’s ok to be bad at things??? I have no motivation after trying to draw now because genuinely it’s just making me get really overwhelmed 😭🫩

I am so awestruck by this incredible fan art and even though I LOVE ART it makes me itch inside because of how annoyed I get with it. I seriously don’t know how to enjoy it and keep going with it because I just want to cry 😭😭😭 it’s been on my mind for ages and I literally dunno what to do. Keep going I guess?? Even posting stuff on tumblr makes me feel anxious 😭😭 I used to write a lot when I was younger but I can’t really remember what was said but I know I used to get talked shit about my art??? I was a kid 😭😭😭 but it’s apparently had an effect on me haha along with the other traumas and memory problems ❤️❤️ yay fun times

Anyway kind of a rant because I’m sat by my laptop about to cry and yk I find solace in tumblr now ok bye

[myaatwins]

here’s this while i’m still processing the movie

[starwalker58]

Are you perhaps interested in kerbal space program (this is an attempt to yap about ksp i love it. Lets me live a fantasy of space exploration)

i have NO IDEA what that is but i'd LOVE to listen to you yap about it go ahead i'm sat

[starwalker58]

posting on my laptop feels like Tumblr Premium for some reason I feel like i'm a Real Tumblr User

[starwalker58]

urgh sometimes I hate being neurodivergent because nobody has truly understood me and I’m so tired.

it’s so hard needing to be social but getting drained easily. it’s HARDER to explain to others. Sometimes I wish I could just be invisible a couple of days. Having a big family AND seperated parents is actually so difficult.

and when people do try to give me space they do it so aggressively? “I thought this was what you wanted?” I do not know how to transfer my feelings to you but if I could, you’d understand.

I’m tired of being surrounded by people but not supported by any of them

[starwalker58]

DELTARUNE I JUST SAW THE ANNOUNCEMENT IM SHAKING YES YES YES IM SO EXCITED CANT WAIT TO DISSECT THE TRAILER WHEN I GET HOME JUNE 24TH????

[zoehcomedy]

yknow i think the only thing that could make portal more terrifying is if GLaDOS spoke only in business speak 

like you’re already being watched over by a sarcastic and not so vaguely evil AI, but now imagine if she sounded at every line like she was about to ask for the PowerPoint presentation on Microsoft Teams

“Kindly ensure that you euthanize your companion cube — it cannot continue for the rest of this test, nor does it want to.”

[starwalker58]

I loved your post in the Portal community :)

awww thank you!!!!! I’m trying to reach out to more people about my interests and portal has been on my mind lately…

[apufferfishy]

"Don't you get tired of reading the same scenarios of BloodyMary fanfic again and again?"

No.

60% of all Bloodymary fanfic: Grace and Rocky find a submarine floating in space...

Me: A SUBMARINE? tell me more

60% of all Bloodymary fanfic: Simon iron lung is there

Me: omg Simon iron lung is there

[starwalker58]

okay I’ve been on tumbr for about… a month altogether now? I think?

It is WILD

one min I’m interacting with people in the same fandoms as me or meeting new moots (hey guys this is awesome) and in like two seconds I see someone getting harassed in comments or pro grooming posts

as I’ve said in previous posts I’m pretty offline so I’m not used to talking online or even seeing anything online so this is CRAZY to me

just wanted to share my thoughts lmao what is going on 😭

[burneddirectory]

i hate being so lonely