I'm wasting away my dudes

[statichazydreams]

My phone pings and I open it blushing and smiling like an idiot in love, my sweet friend looks at me and asks with a teasing smile, "is it your crush?" I laugh like the maniac who's wasting their life away as I am and look at the email with the ao3 eniemes to lovers fanfiction update and sigh like a young maiden in love and nod my head, "yup"

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[slutdge]

gonna try to get some tasks done today

[slutdge]

[zenwannabe]

a dude came into the library stoned out of his mind and was like, “do I need a library card to look at books?” And I said, “to take books home, yes. To look at them, no” and he looked so relieved. bro was staring at a fish encyclopedia for like an hour and then just left.

[chronicallyonlinesworld]

[chronicallyonlinesworld]

[iikelyy]

[iikelyy]

nobody lol

[borderlinexcrazy]

any room can be a panic room if you just give me a fucking second

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[neiyuu]

Fluctuation between mania and dépressive episodes is like asking yourself every moment of the day in which state you are at the moment. Only to find out you where in a depressed episode for a long time and only to understand it once youve reach mania again.

Or to sum it up: its like waking up one day feeling good and understanding that you were, in fact, in the Bad place.

[furiousgoldfish]

abuse is addictive due to brain’s hormonal response to extreme stimuli and it’s still not the victim’s fault if they crave abuse or feel restless and anxious without it, it does not mean they wanted it or deserved it, they’ve been hurt so much their brain is damaged by it, nobody on this planet consents to brain damage or wants to cope with feeling absolutely dreadful all the time and craving pain so much while feeling guilty and ashamed for feeling it, it takes ages to stabilize and have your brain hormones regulated properly again but it can and will happen so just keep hanging in there, you are healing all the time no matter what you do

[theinariakuma]

Life Update

So, everyone can ignore this. Just me kinda proud of myself at moving forward.  I’m getting out of a very abusive family situation in about a month. Its taken years to build up the courage and ability to crawl out of this and try to get away from this situation. Its difficult to think about and do, and everyone who has done so or will do so are amazing. 

I’m leaving and never looking back when I do. I have an amazing group of people who have been supporting me, helping me take this day by day, and honestly without them I’d never have been able to do this. 

So, with some time and healing once I get away. Things will get better. 

[defiantsuggestions]

It's important to remember that, no matter what you were told growing up or whatever someone might be trying to convince you now, fighting is not a normal part of any relationship.

Differences in opinions are normal. Bad days are normal. Moments where you're irritated and tired and want space are normal. Having to sit down and talk something out is normal.

Shouting matches, insults, threats, arguments that last for hours, passive agression, purposely trying to hurt one another, these things are NOT normal or healthy.

This goes for every relationship. Family, romance, friends, peers, there is no kind of relationship where trying to tear the other person apart is okay.

Abusers will swear to you that it's impossible to have a relationship without blowing up at each other on the regular.

They are wrong.

[sa-dnesss]

My home will be a home with no loud anger, no explosive rage, no slamming doors or breaking glass, no holes punched into the walls, no name calling, shaming or blackmail. My home will be gentle, it will be warm. No fear, no hurt and no worries. I may come from a broken and twisted place but I will build something whole and safe.

[whoviandoodler]

I hate how being angry at your parents is considered to be some kind of phase that happens during teenage years and that you’re supposed to grow out of when you become an adult and see the oh-so-unexpected point of view of your parents and start to get along with them or some bullshit because like, fuck that. Most teenager who despise their parents have a reason to- teen years are when you ‘wake up’ to the world and it’s when you start to see how fucked up it is, and  you oftentimes start to notice it in your parents to. It’s when you start to identify all the trauma you went through and/or all the shit things your parents did as what it is. 

Writing up that (more often than not) justified rage to those tricky teen hormones and puberty uwu completely invalidates all the effort and gruesome work that traumatized kids had to suffer through to be able to allow themselves that anger, to be able to say, hey, this is fucked up, I’m angry about that. It demands of them to ‘get over’ that hard-earned anger for the comfort of their parents and society.

I’m obviously not saying that all teens are traumatized or that no anger during teenage years is irrational, I’m saying that it’s so harmful and patronising to teens who were traumatized to immediately dismiss teenage anger as something purely hormonal/irrational that will and that has to pass, and I have to wonder how many abusers were involved in making ‘ha ha teens are so emotional and hormonal and angry at the world for no reason’ a thing rather than ‘this person is angry and I do wonder why’.

And oh boy I could go on for days about how the whole ‘no one understands me’ teen thing has been made into a joke and something adults smile at indulgently and shake their heads at instead of you know… ever being taken seriously and given the proper attention to find out what makes them feel so alienated.

[furiousgoldfish]

If child abusers did any of it to another adult, they would be considered criminal offenders. You can’t commit acts of violence, break someone’s things, threaten someone’s life, control their activities or torture and traumatize them permanently without becoming a criminal. Only reason why child abuse doesn’t put them in jail is that children are not considered human beings, but abuser’s property. Child abusers are criminals, and they should all get locked up in prison.