iβm twenty-two, autistic, bisexual, β. i speak english and sprinkles of other languages (itβs a surprise). iβve been on tumblr since 2017 :P. my pronouns r whatever but she/they is also fine bc i was born a girl and i kinda am one but also not. i donβt really gaf. tbh iβm just here for the ride. i have been hacked a few times so im sorry if we were mutuals and then i lost you :,)
this blog is dedicated to art, particularly ballet, because i did it for ten years and i love it dearly. i tend to focus on american dancers/companies because i feel they are under appreciated as artists, but i also love and will post soviet dancers/other dancers (maya plisetskaya the woman you were!!). i hate george balanchine as a person, but i love his choreography. i am a balanchine claw defender <\3. i also focus on fashion, artwork, and other mediums.
more about me: i am a gemini sun, taurus moon, and virgo rising. i am part irish, part swiss, part slavic, ashkenazi somewhere in between, but live in the us (shoot me). my russian kinda sucks. ΠΈΠ·Π²ΠΈΠ½ΠΈ. iβm missing a molar. i prefer to sleep on my side. i have severe hyperextension in my legs. i have a 90s grunge aesthetic thing kinda going on irl, but i keep my blog like this bc i also like stuff like this. me and my eyeliner are inseparable
i love ballet, the moon, art museums, sauvignon blanc, making my friends laugh, eccentric makeup, gothic romance, knitting, homemade dinners, history, poetry, roller coasters, campy 80s movies, self care routines, hiking, recovery and healing, painting, manifesting, dancing around my room, nights on the town, david lynch, garlic anything, and ethically sourced fur coats.
however⦠i hate mean people, loud concerts, bananas, when the temperature is over 28°C, panic at the disco, getting sick, the feeling of velvet, plain coffee, sweating, too many people talking at once, polyester, uppity metalheads, lower and middle back pain, conservatives, living in an ingredient household with no mixable ingredients, and florescent lighting.
disclaimers and interactions π¨
i like to consider my blog uncontroversial. however, i may reblog or post content that could be considered controversial by some. i would like to clarify that what i reblog/post about history does not necessarily reflect my political opinions. when i reblog/post about such things, it is purely from a historical interest standpoint. i.e., royal families of the past are interesting, but i hold no interest towards monarchy, capitalism, or imperialism in reality.
do not interact: general dni. if you hold any or some sort of hatred for specific groups of people or minorities. fascists, racists, yt supremacists, t3rfs/homophobes, misogynists, imperialists, totalitarianists, etc., you are not welcome on my blog. like you can actually go fuck yourself and also shoot yourself in the head. iβm tolerant until it comes to those who are intolerant. also do not interact: pro ed/ana, feederism, anti recovery, gore, straight up porn, etc. bc i am recovered and love myself and your energy reeks like a septic tank in the sun :). ps also dni if you are a parent and it is your entire personality, hazb1n h0tel fans, and the entirety of master ballet academy.
my blog is for those who are eighteen or older. because sometimes the art i post is sexual because i am a sexual being soooo. if you are a minor, you are welcome to like and view my posts and account and whatever, (i was a teenager once too, i get it), but please do not actually interact with me through asks, messages, reblogs or comments β i will not respond. and i will not be mutuals.
other stuff to note βοΈ
I LOVE BEING MUTUALS!!! if youβre older than eighteen, i havenβt followed you back, and would like to be mutuals, just send me a message or an ask! iβm usually pretty good about following people back, but sometimes i forget.
please remember to be kind in asks. i wonβt answer anything iβm not comfortable or feel like answering, so donβt bother me about answering if i havenβt.
donβt be afraid to spam my likes or reblogs. i love you if you do hiiii (i get my validation online)
living under a rock is so fun i love watching a movie thatβs been famous for decades and being like wow this is so good.. did you guys know about this
relational trauma has to be healed relationally. the best way to practice having relatively "safe" interactions with ppl is joining a hobby group/club/whatever. I've recently joined like ten Fancy Leather Bag groups on fb out of deep curiosity and interest and the communities ppl will build around literally everything I swear to god. I've seen multiple ladies in these purse groups being like "thank you everyone in this hobby for getting me through my chemotherapy" like ... sometimes we dismiss the middle aged purse lady demographic but you know what they have got is a functional community where they support each other that just happens to be centered around purses. having now read many posts from these groups for several weeks I can see that the object being collected IS important, and is certainly the superifival draw into the space as well as something that provides an immediate shared interest, the actual benefit of localish hobby/collecting spaces is largely community and social support.
those of us who are Very Online Only could stand to learn from this sort of thing I think. it doesn't have to be purses it could be anything. but like. (gestures at the purse ladies who are getting each other through chemotherapy) Shared Interest Facebook Group And/Or Subreddit has it for you. i think.
this is actually my first step of learning emotional regulation. yes yes, restful sleep and physiologically appropriate exercise and getting outside and eating nutritious meals. these are all good. but also MEET. YOUR. SOCIAL. NEEDS. you need the relational foundation to cushion you while you work on these skills! i know it's really scary because we all have relational trauma but that doesn't mean we don't have a need for social connection and support!!!
I have so much faith that everything will work out for me, everything that is meant to find me will find me and what is meant to teach me will teach me.
Beautifully painted trompe l'oeil swagged material and stonework cover the walls of this distinctive bathroom. The comparative warmth of the 'material' is offset by the deliberate cold, stone effect. The room itself was painted with artist's oil colour in two tones of buff, mixed with glaze and given a coat of polyurethane.
