Signed Trials of a NOW EMPLOYED LOSER

Name's Alex. I'm a loser that pretends to be human. I like Nintendo, Monster Hunter, Anime/Manga, and Sleeping. Erio Touwa is my waifu. You can't have her. Also, I rant about my shit life sometimes. YAY. 

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Bought a box of Doubutsu no Mori e+ e-reader cards for when I eventually start e+ (I’m still just playing + for now) I did get the e-reader bundle of e+ so it came with a few cards as well I’m just super surprised that I can find new boxes of these 19 years later in brand new condition It’s WILD man

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Talking about VIDEO GAMES

Basically 75% of my blog is about em anyways so like BAM here we go Lately I’ve been playing Atelier Ryza: Ever Darkness & the Secret Hideout. I bought the game years ago, put around 7 hours into it, and then dropped it due to other games coming out/my job. A couple of days ago saw that it’s sequel was on sale. Kinda wanting it but also knowing I still had the first game, I decided to sit down and play it. Sat down for 16 hours straight playing it, lmao. I’m towards the end of the game now (the main story, not the post game), so I’ve been taking it a bit slower only playing around 3 hours whenever I do play it. A lot of JRPGS are way too fucking long, but by the time I complete Ryza 1 I’ll only have clocked in around 30 hours. The perfect length, in my opinion, but I usually only play games that don’t end. (Like Animal Crossing and Monster Hunter, haha) I really like the main cast of Ryza except maybe Klaudia (cause her character archtype is kinda annoying), and the battle system is so damn fun that whatever comes out after Ryza 3 better have something like it. It’s like a mix between an active time battle system, turn based battle system, and Paper Mario 1 or TYD’s battle system. It’s great, and it makes grinding a blast. I’m kinda weird in that I really like grinding if it’s fun. Only two other JRPGs have made me want to grind: Hyperdimension Neptunia mk2, and Star Ocean: The Last Hope International, which are both PS3 games I played a decade ago. I recommend it.  ALRIGHT NOW TALKING ABOUT OTHER GAMES: In Doubutsu no Mori+ I have paid off my second loan making my house GIGANTIC, and Nook upgraded his store to “コンビニーたぬきち” which is way better than “Nook n’ Go” imo  My next loan is 398,000 bells so it’ll take me awhile to get a new floor for my house. :( Okay I’m gonna make this even more disjointed by talking about CHAOS;HEAD WE’RE FINALLY GETTING IT, AND IT COMES OUT IN ABOUT TWO WEEKS I’M SO FUCKING PUMPED TO PLAY THIS AGAIN Even though the Switch version uses the censored PS3 version as a base, it still just fills me with glee to play such an absolutely FUCKED game on it. I play Animal Crossing on this thing, and then I can pop in games that have cannabalism and shit it’s like YES THE FUTURE IS NOW!!!!! The game is so fucked apparently the Steam release that was going to happen is no longer happening? Maybe? ALL I KNOW IS WE GET A STEELBOOK AND THE ME OF NOW LOVES STEELBOOKS EVEN THOUGH ONLY ATLUS IS KIND ENOUGH TO PUT A SLEEVE OVER THEIR STEELBOOKS TO MAKE THEM LOOK LIKE A NORMAL SWITCH GAME (at least they did with SMT V) I dunno if I ever talked about when I played Chaos;Head’s fan translation on here back in 2012, but MAN I started drinking Coca-Cola because of this game lmao. I switched to Dr. Pepper because of Steins;Gate, and no I’m not joking. The “subtle” advertising in these games fucking works. However I did not switch to Mountain Dew when I played Chaos;Child because I would like to KEEP MY SPERM THANK YOU!!!! I guess that’s it did any of this shit make sense? I’m kinda tired lol (it’s almost 4am REALLY LIVIN’ THAT NEET LIFE I AIN’T A LIAR) ALRIGHT BYE byebye I REMEMBERED THAT WHAT YEAR IS IT?!?!?!

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I QUIT!!!!!

As the title suggests, this morning I quit my job.  I’m going back to being a NEET until at least Spring 2023. I have a bunch of money saved up that will allow me to do this, and I have good references for when I do get a new job. I was at my job for 1 year and 3 months, and even if they give me a bad review for quitting on the spot, I still have physical items (like my 1 year badge and certificate) that I can use as proof that I did indeed work there.  I’m gonna miss most of the people I worked with, and a good chunk of the customers I saw daily too. It wasn’t just me that quit today though, as I brought another member of the 4 member graveyard crew with me. The store is down 2 people, and they’re about to lose 2 more. Serves my old boss right, since she paid us like shit and treated me specifically like shit. Good riddance.  Finna start playing games again regularly until the no work depression hits HELL YEAH EDIT: Found out my boss has had to work some of my old shifts now lol, and one of the people I mentioned in the “they’re about to lose 2 more” line already quit too. That person was an assistant manager lmao. Also someone that she attempted to hire just didn’t show up to the interview.  KARMA IS REAL AND MY BOSS IS GETTIN’ IT. MAKES ME LAUGH. HAHAHAHA.

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Yesterday I got Doubutsu no Mori+ (and e+, which I haven’t played yet), and today I paid off my first loan thanks to the money rock. Might start making regular update posts on this town (でんぱ), but who knows lol

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lol RIP

In my last update I said how I wanted to stay at my job because of the customers being nice to me, but I’m planning on leaving the job in around 2 weeks now. My boss keeps making me work 5 days a week, and this morning she yelled at me for the stupidest bullshit imaginable while ignoring everything I had to say. I may like most of my coworkers and the majority of customers but the disrespect my boss has towards me is the final straw. It’s 100% their loss. GONNA HAVE TO RENAME THE BLOG AGAIN CAUSE I AM NEETING IT UP FOR AT LEAST TILL NEXT SPRING LMAO

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Life Update: New Reincarnation of the Goddess

Yes, that is an SMT reference.  Anyways, hiya, it’s been years since I last posted anything on here. January 2019, to be exact. I won’t really go over what happened in 2019 or 2020 in my life, but I will say that I have never been sadder than I was in 2019, and 2020 allowed me to actually be happy. 2021 was a turning point in my life, specifically thanks to the video game Monster Hunter Generations Ultimate. In December 2020 I got actually reliable internet, and so I bought a year of Nintendo Switch Online service with Christmas money (since I was still a slug back then). Since I have solo’d most Monster Hunter games, when I hopped online I was carrying people left and right. Helping people clear Elder Dragons, raising Newbies from HR1 to G Rank. All the people I helped, and all the friends I made in that game, gave me the courage to change my life. My home life at the time (and even currently) is one I’m trying to escape, but in May 2021 I was just so fucking sick of my life that I jumped headfirst into my own personal hell. Being afraid of people, I knew I needed a job that would force me to leave my comfort zone, so I applied for the graveyard shift at a local gas station. I went to my first ever interview, and got the job on the spot. I doubt it was from my resume, lmao. The most likely answer is that the employee crisis was just so bad that they needed any help they could get. I remember a question my boss asked me at that interview. “If you could describe yourself in one word, what would it be?” The past me would have used words like “garbage, trash, useless”, but in that moment I surpassed my old self by completely bullshitting. “Efficient” was the word I picked. I already knew from the previous work I used to do (intense manual labor) that I was a pretty good worker, so I guess it wasn’t exactly bullshitting, but I also wanted to become someone efficient.  I became too efficient, lol. When I started, everyone else started becoming lazy, that’s how hard working I am. I’ve been at this job for 1 year and almost 5 months, and it’s still like that. There are days when I deal with hundreds of people alone, and sometimes I’m still a little mindblown by that. Even 3 years ago I couldn’t communicate with hardly anyone, but now it’s like I’m back to normal. I guess I finally just grew up? Overcame my trauma? Or I hate my home life so much that it’s anger that fuels my hard work. Some days I want to quit, but the fact that strangers treat me better than my own family is what drives me to keep working. I need to get out of here, and I will someday, I hope. I get along with the majority of my coworkers, customers call me their favorite (which is fucking nuts, haha), customers try to poach me from my job, customers actually acknowledge how hard I work, unlike my bosses, and most importantly: The fear of people I had changed into an understanding. We’re all just tired, striving to live in an ever increasingly fucked up world. As for the me that used to watch anime and play video games all the time, he’s still here. I play more video games than ever before, because it’s basically all I buy aside from groceries, lmao. I’m watching 5 anime this season, and they’ve all been great weekly. I started buying more light novels, and the series I’ve been reading lately “The Angel Next Door Spoils Me Rotten” actually made me start cooking real meals for myself. Thanks weeby self, eat better. >:) That about does it for this EXTREMELY LONG life update. I’ll see you on the flipside, or possibly in 3 more years, wwwww. P.S. Still afraid of making phone calls even though I answer the phone at work all the time. There are still parts of myself I need to overcome, unfortunately. :(

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Dengeki Bunko Fighting Climax review -3 years after it came out- edition

This isn’t actually a review okay I just bought the game like two days ago and I have some thoughts.  ON HOW STUPID I WAS FOR NOT BUYING IT THREE YEARS AGO WHEN I ACTUALLY WANTED IT. If you were following me in 2013/2014 I talked about this game a lot, and that’s because my girl Erio Touwa is in this game. Hearing she was only a support bummed the hell out of me back then.  BUT I DIDN’T KNOW I DIDN’T KNOW SEGA WERE ABSOLUTE GODS okay I start the game up right? and and Kirino yells FIGHTING CLIMAX at me. I pop in to training mode, and try some of the characters out. The game controls more like Smash Bros than any other fighting game I’ve played. (Every character has the same inputs, but some have more reach, some have grab attacks, etc) and I cleared arcade mode once with Yukina from Strike The Blood because her spear has damn good reach. None of that is important though. because Erio is a support. She can do a couple of different things depending on inputs, but what’s important (and what past me didn’t know) is that SUPPORTS GIVE SUPPORT.  That sentence sounds really fucking dumb but THEY CHEER FOR YOU, VERBALLY WITH THEIR MOUTHS AHHHHH “Hey why’s that so exciting?” HOW’S IT NOT EXCITING?!?!?! I was in the middle of my first match, and I heard a brand new voice clip come from Erio’s mouth.  I almost cried. Actually I may have actually cried because remembering it is making me tear up and smile which is fucking gross yuck.  Erio saying brand new stuff not in the anime or radio shows or songs it was like a dream come true  GOTY 2015 10/10  Oh wait you can also customize your profile card thing (for online battles I assume) and yep, you guessed it ERIO BACKGROUND TWO COUNT EM TWO AVATARS but no signature :( I still think SEGA could have made her fully playable, but I am content with her being a support, all because of those new voice lines.  SEGA THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME THE GIFT OF NEW VOICE LINES I keep trying to end this but I just remembered there’s a NOVEL menu where you can look at the covers of the first volume books for all characters featured in the game (even supports) and YEP DOTSO VOLUME 1 RIGHT THERE got a trophy for looking at it bless you SEGA thank you okay final actual verdict is 10/10 new Erio voicelines thanks Asuka I love you

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Yesterday was Erio’s birthday and I made this in MSPaint to celebrate. I love her so much. I saw other people making art for her birthday too, and that makes me incredibly happy. I hardly ever see any one talk about her/DOTSO, but at least on her birthday she gets some love. She always gets love from me. Can’t stop won’t stop. By the way: WHERE”S THE SECOND SEASON SHAFT?!?!?!

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wow

It’s been like two years. As you can tell by the blog’s name change, I’m a Shut-In again, with INTERNET FINALLY. Scrolling down my own blog, I fucking sucked at MS Painting. I still do, but I’m marginally better than my old shit.  I also just paint mostly fucked up Facebook headers so people I know in real life leave me alone. Maybe I’ll post them on here sometime in the next seven years. I still like the same stuff I did in 2012-2013 for the most part. (For example, I still read Horimiya every month) There’s a lot of manga I used to talk about on here that already ended years ago, and that I never finished. (Kimi no Iru Machi, Nisekoi, probably others) I don’t really feel like finishing those either, to be honest. UPDATE: I just read the last few chapters of KnIM, and HE FUCKING LEFT?!?!  HE FUCKING BROKE UP WITH HER? AND THEN THEY GET MARRIED ON THE LAST CHAPTER? I hate this stupid manga god damn. Wow there’s a taste of old me. Feels good man.  I don’t know what else to say here. Hi, I guess. I might post more regularly now. Or not.  Just for reference, the only other manga I regularly keep up with is Yuragi-sou no Yuuna-san, and the only anime I’m watching this season is Gamers! (because, as a gamer, it is my duty to watch an anime that pits moe gamers versus western shit gamers) I have been re-watching some of my favorite stuff from my favorite part of my life, so maybe I’ll talk about them. Probably not tbh I suck at remembering to do shit.  Oh yeah, one more thing. Go watch Shin Godzilla. It’s fucking tasty.  (tasty is not a way to describe movies, but it truly is tasty) k bye byebye I JUST REMEMBERED THAT AHH

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wtf happened to tumblr while I was in a cave?

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>scrolling down tumblr for the first time in forever

>see the word "furchildren"

>DELETES SELF FROM INTERNET

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2 Years and 3 Months after I bought the game, and Tangy FINALLY FUCKING CAME TO MY TOWN. I cried.

Before I went in the tent I was like “Please be Tangy.” and when it was I gasped and cried like a pathetic slug shit human. 

I HAD TO TALK TO HER FOR 30 MINUTES BECAUSE SHE DIDN’T WANT TO MOVE IN. lmao I made her I ain’t waiting another two years for my favorite animal side note: Also it’s been 2 Years since I started that Erio mural and I haven’t finished TIME FLIES WHEN YOU’RE NOT CONNECTED TO THE INTERNET AND LIVING IN DARK AGES 

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My cat getting a vision from our lord and savior Mr. Saturn

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CD

Lately me and my brother have been arguing over which is better: cats or dogs I'm obviously on team cats because cats are A) adorable and B) not shitlords I thought I'd make a list of ways cats are better than dogs, so here it is. CATS -They're cute -Their breathe isn't stanky -They can't bark -Adorable meows -They're in Monster Hunter -They can fall out of trees and live -They make your lap warm -They always look displeased which is adorable -People revered them as Gods -RELATED TO LIONS AND TIGERS DOGS -Fucking idiotic -Breathe smells like shit -Eat their own poop because they're fucking stupid -Noisy and fucking annoying -Chase their tails -Only two cute dog breeds -There's a jail exclusively for dogs because no one wants them -Attack people which gets them put down lolgg Moral of the story: CATS FOR LIFE

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EDA IS FUCKING CALCULATING HOW MANY HOURS OF HIS LIFE HE'LL SPEND REPLACING TOILET PAPER.

THIS SHOW HAS REACHED NEW HEIGHTS I LOVE IT.

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HE FUCKING WENT THROUGH A CAR WASH FOR THE TIME SLIP SENSATION IM CRYING

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Pizza+Me=DEPRESSING SHIT HOOYAH

Earlier I ordered a pizza, and as soon as I clicked "confirm" I freaked the fuck out. I'm currently housesitting, so I'm by myself. Usually when I order pizza, I'm with someone. Being by myself and waiting for the delivery person scares the shit out of me. I've done it approximately the three times in my life. It's hilarious that I'm so afraid of people that I get the shakes from someone bringing me food. Lately my family has been pressuring me into a "real job" and they've been trying to get me to live by myself. I'm pretty sure that's why I even get these housesitting jobs. It's to test whether or not I can survive on my own. lmao I can't even order pizza without looking like a psycho asshole. Whenever I go into a store by myself I can't breathe. I try to breathe and it just constricts more and then I have to gasp for air and make myself look even more fucking idiotic I hate me. I was doing so good too until I had that insane panic attack at the thrift store down the street from me. I stopped going to the library by myself. I stopped getting food by myself. Literally the only place I go by myself is to my Mom's so I can pick my brother up to take him shopping with me. I rely on a 14 year old to live my life and that's pathetic. God I hate myself sometimes. (Which in itself is kinda funny because I actually really like my personality.) I'm so garbage. It's like I'm 2012 me again, except I could actually talk to people online in 2012 hahaha. Oh and I was a complete shut-in back then. Ugh. Moral of the story: My family thinks I've grown enough mentally/emotionally to live on my own when I've actually spiraled downwards. Moral part 2: I was watching funny shit and laughing to hell until like an hour ago and now I'm sad as fuck I hate emotions. WHY AM I NOT AN EMOTIONAL MONSTER LIKE MY GRANDMOTHER OR UNCLE OR MOTHER OR DAD (lmao) God Damn it