official daine visual archive
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Lint Roller? I Barely Know Her
Game Changer & Make Some Noise
One Nice Bug Per Day
noise dept.
art blog(derogatory)
Product Placement
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Xuebing Du
Noah Kahan
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@theartofmadeline
Not today Justin
bliss lane
Claire Keane
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The Bowery Presents
EXPECTATIONS
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@stayhappybros
RESOURCES
Back-pain
Dr. Stuart McGill: See his excercise here
Mobility:
Ben Patrick: (knee and ankle focused)
Kelly Starrett
Flexibility
Kit Laughlin
Strength Training
Stan Efferding
Charles Poliquin
Grappling-related
Dr. Mike Piekarski: sport-specific biomechanics
“Let your religion be less of a theory and more of a love affair.”
— G.K. Chesterton (via eternal-echoes)
Me. Intro
Here is the truth. The whole truth of a troubled mind. I, somewhere in myself, am morally broken. I am a functional addict, which has long been my curse. My mind is wired, not only on drugs, but psychologically. I feel like I walk this tightrope every day, performing and even feeling like I excel my responsibilites. Externally appearing fine to the world and my loved ones, but internally feeling like i am on the verge of catastrophic feeling.
I am so fucking sick of feeling that way. I am tired of avoiding it and refusing to address it. I am a master at bullshiting myself through my own bullshit rational which is probably the fine line that allows me to get out of bed out of the morning and continuing living the way I’ve been living. Amphetamines can barely keep me awake anymore. My mind is so tired, my soul is so deprive. I need to heal. I need to find peace. I want to be the man that they think I am.
for now due to how late it is getting this is now just the partial truth. more to come. have to wake up early on a sunday for a job I really dislike for money I need :-)
Nov 21st, 2015 10:51:30pm
Three months after this post I overdosed and spent several days in a coma. Now, a decade later, I read this and it gives me pause. What I would do to go back and tell this young man that it gets better — of what latent potential lay inside him.
to him I extend my hand and my love. He would find it unbelievable that his life would turn towards an education in science. That he has a masters and a job in drug discovery that inspires him. That he would lay his head on his bench after a long week of late nights at the lab - additional hours that come not from compensation, nor of coercion, but from his curiosity and his joy.
The path is never known. It is felt moment by moment as you are drawn out of yourself. The price of learning is steep — you pay with your attention. Once the power of attention is recognized, the human being can begin to manifest.
Trees without fruit
In 'Gulistan,' Sheikh Sadiq al-Shirazi narrates a conversation with a wise man. A person said, 'Of all the great trees created by God, why is the cypress alone called 'azad,' or free, when it doesn't bear fruit? What's the meaning of that?'
The wise man replied, 'Every tree has its season - a time for growth, followed by a decline. The cypress remains independent of this. It symbolizes those who are truly free ('azad'). Don't set your heart on what is fleeting, impermanent. The Tigris River will flow through Baghdad long after mankind is gone. If fortune grants you abundance, be generous in your giving, like the date palm. But if you have little, be like the cypress
Biotech job hunts
are brutal
12/10/2022
The sky is not inherently blue, nor is it inherently any color at all. The sky is an ever-changing atmospheric condition, an intricate and vibrant tapestry of energy and particles in constant motion and collision. The colors we see in the sky are a result of the way our brains interpret the light that comes from the sun and travels through the atmosphere to our eyes. When sunlight hits the atmosphere, it is made up of a spectrum of vibrational energy, each with a different wavelength. Some of these colors are absorbed or scattered in different directions by gases, particles, and other substances in the atmosphere. Some reach our eye and catalyze a chemical reaction in specialized cells. Similarly, a bird's chirp is not an inherent quality of the bird but rather vibrations in the air that our ears interpret as sound. Nothing has a fixed or permanent nature; everything is in a state of flux and transformation. There is no sound, no color, no taste. There is a reality we experience: but is it the one we perceive?
When two masters meet on the street, they need no introduction; when thieves meet on the street, they recognize each other instantly. The perfect man employs his mind as a mirror. It grasps nothing. It refuses nothing. It receives but it does not keep.
Alan Watts “Zen Bones” lecture
THE NEPHROLOGIST
The man next to me is one of legend: his necklace Is a bright red identification badge with DOCTOR written in white text. We sat together in the microscope room to examine the patient’s biopsy. The massive microscope sits on a gyroscopic table that automatically levels itself in response to tilting or pressure – and balances an array of fluorescent lasers and mirrors. It automatically relays information from the eyepiece onto a digital monitor. The combination of antibodies we’ve used produces a mosaic of bright pink and deep blues, highlighting our regions of interest.
“Switch to 10x please, let’s find a blood vessel with a better signal.” his voice has a rhythm and speed hinting his roots in Mumbai.
“We have to cure this disease. Even if this idea fails, I will sleep better knowing we at least tried. What I want is this study to move to clinical trials and you get into medical school.” He laughs
“Covid was an extremely testing time man. There was so much death that bodies were being left out at room temperature in the hospital. I had to take an early break from rounds one day after a patient grabbed my hand in fear as he died.” He pauses briefly, and his tone of voice softens to a gentleness we reserve for the expression of lived truths.
“People have varying sensitivities to the suffering of others. You are more sensitive than most, and I think that will make you a great advocate for patients as a physician. In time Austin, you will learn that in medicine you can have nothing else. You live it and breathe it. and you only breathe because it is involuntary; or there would be no time.”
The words sheathed a meaning that impacted me yet simultaneously contain a hidden lesson that evades my comprehension; as if foreshadowing a story I’ve lived before yet am a stranger to. I wake before 5 am unable to return to sleep, as if subconscious pushes my system online.
You've placed him in a dilemma where there are two choices, both of which are wrong.
Jiu-Jitsu Instructor during a demo
I was watching when you were sparring with the wrestler to see if you would keep your composure. You did at the start of the round - but then lost it. Just because your opponent begins to speed up doesn't mean you have to. Keep calm and play your game.
Instructor to student
Finger warm up , jiu jitsu
“For nothing is fixed, forever and forever, it is not fixed; the earth is always shifting, the light is always changing, the sea does not cease to grind down rock. Generations do not cease to be born, and we are responsible to them because we are the only witnesses they have. The sea rises, the light fails, lovers cling to each other and children cling to us. The moment we cease to hold each other, the moment we break faith with one another, the sea engulfs us and the light goes out.” ~ James Baldwin
