Sooo… I thought I should share these pics ;; First one(as well as the mini sketchy comic), I drew the day things started going to shit. The last happy day of my life - My boyfriend came home that day and we sat down to talk, and things just escalated from there, and at the end of that week he had taken his own life.
It’s extremely depressing whenever I look at this, because the day I drew them, I was feeling so happy. I felt good about my art for the first time in weeks. I felt super happy about my boyfriend and our relationship - I thought everything was good; little did I know he was feeling otherwise.. :-(
I think back and I wish I just showed him these when he got back that day. Maybe it would have cheered him up, maybe it would have lessened the load - Or maybe it wouldn’t have changed a thing.
I can’t afford to wish for things to be different, because the reality is that it happened the way it did, and as much as I wish I I could change it, I don’t have the power to…
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The last set of sketches, I drew yesterday ;; (8-9 months later…holy shit it’s been that long???) Didn’t think I’d get into drawing Pucca yet tbh, but then it just happened..?? I feel glad that I did, because it removed that anxiety of drawing again. (it also feels really weird, like I’m moving on with my life, and I don’t want to in a way ;;) It felt like a big weight on my shoulders - I couldn’t look at my computer without feeling like I wanted to cry.
It sounds weird, I know.. But I guess when you lose someone who was your best friend, there isn’t anything that doesn’t remind you of them, and the days you’d like to have back.
Anyway.. Thank you for reading..! I hope this brings a smile to someone’s face.
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