hollow man

Write down all my sins in a diary. Think back to a year full of apathy. Dot all my I's and cross all of my boundaries. With a kiss I sealed my fate. With a fist I chose my fate. At the bottom of this never-ending fight for glory, fuck diary. Feelings aside, I'm making it right. I hope we can be the voice of reason in these troubling times. Are passing us by. Will you stand with me now? Innocence is a struggle for security; Ignorance is a song I don't want to sing. I wonder how they ever let this past the eyes of everybody. I'm taking back all the flame that I never had. Calling you out, just remember that. To get to them you'll have to get through me.

[stesalv]

tombvcmp:

“You mean you didn’t miss me, Stefan? And here I thought we were pals back in the day.”

“I mean it, Augustus. Things are different now.”

[stesalv]

mysticqveen:

“I can’t just break up with Matt, Stefan. It’s not that easy.”

“You can. It’s not going to be fun, for either of you, but you’ll be better off.”

[stesalv]

@tombvcmp | AUGUSTUS

“And I think it's best you just keep away.”

[stesalv]

@mysticqveen | CAROLINE

“Time is only gonna make it worse in the end.”

[stesalv]

@eldestsalvctore | DAMON

“Maybe I'm crazy. Yeah, a little naive.”  

[stesalv]

@clairewitch | DAVINA

“Trouble finds me.”

[stesalv]

bcnnctwitch:

As Bonnie Bennett listened to Stefan explain his point, she felt a small sense of relief. Her anger was placated for the moment, and she was able to focus on the better memories she had, on the feelings she normally held for him.“I’m glad to hear that.” she admitted, looking up at the vampire. “We might not be friends right now, but I don’t hate you, Stefan. You need to be careful though, or Damon will take you down with him.”

He doesn’t respond to the advice. He been knew. As much as he loved his brother, there was no escaping. Every time he thought he had gotten away.. it all fell to ruin. And all for Katherine, who wasn’t who Damon was lead to believe she was. “They both need to leave,” he said simply. “Mystic Falls deserves that much.”

[stesalv]

mattdono:

matt found satisfaction in being the one to tell stefan, after all in his mind stefan stole his girlfriend. he could only hope this would drive a wedge between the two of them, maybe even leading to their breakup. sure matt was with caroline, but even she knew matt was head over heels in love with elena. “yeah, she wanted me to keep a secret. if you need anybody to talk to, you can call me?”

“thanks, matt. i’ll be fine.” the victory in the others attitude was apparent, but stefan couldn’t fault him. what he had with elena was special, but it was over, and it had nothing to do with the salvatore vamp. he just didn’t pity this new role he’s forced to play because of this less than gentlemanly response. 

[stesalv]

mattdono:

@stesalv

“i didn’t want to be the one to say anything but elena kissed me, and keeping it from you just doesn’t seem like the right thing to do.  i mean, elena and i have history and you and elena have what? a few months together. it’s not a complete suprise she’d try and come back to me. sorry bro. where you and elena go from here isn’t my business.”

“elena kissed...” he began to parrot the others words, brow knotted gently in thought. it didn’t take much longer than that to realize what had really happened. “she could’ve told me,” he said calmly, as he didn’t feel like getting into this kind of a back and forth with the jock. “and whatever her choice, i’ll respect it.” delivered as a warning, hazel meeting blue.

[stesalv]

lonesurviivor:

katherine’s brows furrow as stefan steps forward, immediately she’s trying to decipher what game he was playing. perhaps the mention of elena brought out the rather bold side of the salvatore. his words did nothing but aggravate her, but she assumed that was his goal and she wasn’t about to let that show, she couldn’t let him win, “i didn’t force either of you to come after me." a smile spreads across her face at his threat, ”try me. i’m much older, faster and smarter than you.“ katherine’s next course of action became blatantly clear, ”i guess i’ll have to show you just how serious i am. we’ll be in touch.“

she was older, she was faster, smarter. but if he learned anything, that her loyalty to her friends made it easy for her to not have any. twenty-six of them ended up in a tomb for her selfish plot -- he couldn’t imagine how many bridges she’s burned since. was he afraid she would do something?  yes. but he hoped, maybe, if he didn’t seem so much fun anymore, she’d back off. he is silent, watching her leave.

[stesalv]

elegilb:

“we’ve done impossible before.” she nodded, whether she was trying to reassure stefan or herself was up for debate. when he pulled her in she didn’t waste any time returning the hug, holding him tight. “we’ll see where she’s at, if katherine tries something and we’re desperate then we can ask.”

“i wouldn’t be surprised if bonnie jumps in before we can even stop her. she lost a lot.. sometimes finding a reason to keep moving forward is all you can do.” she’ll want to latch onto something; a cause, a person. it’s not always the healthiest thing and would probably get them into more trouble, but it’s what he knew. “and no one can move forward with katherine in town.”

[stesalv]

elegilb:

“easier said than done.” she hated to be so cynical but just as things had started to look up everything had turned sour — all her fears coming to life. “but okay, i’ll give it my best shot.” she looked into his eyes. “is it a good idea to ask bonnie ? she’s already been through so much.”

“you’re right. this is an impossible situation.” he hadn’t imagined it going down this way, even when katherine was assumed to be in the tomb. why did she have to stay?  why did it have to become so complicated. “you decide,” he reassured her, pulling her in for a hug. 

[stesalv]

lonesurviivor:

“is that what you’re doing?” katherine inquires as she steps closer to stefan, mirroring his expressionless features, “pining after elena to fill some void? and please, the only thing damon loves is his bourbon and well – me." she knew she had to cut the conversation short, katherine had said what she needed to say and she couldn’t risk foiling any of her plans by oversharing. "not to worry though, there won’t be any pining on either of your parts. because well, if you do, i’ll kill everyone elena loves while she watches and then i’ll kill elena while you watch. are we clear?”

he was crossing a very, very dangerous line -- he knew that. “i am,” he replied boldly. “a void you made, but not with the lying, or the manipulating.” he paused, taking a step closer toward her. “you made me what i am -- what damon and i am. for that, i will never forgive you. you killed us, katherine.” elena was the one thing, the singular thing, that made him feel attached to that version of himself -- like he was human again. his gaze hardened, ice cold. “you wouldn’t risk it. she’s the only thing stopping me from killing you myself.”

[stesalv]

lonesurviivor:

“i didn’t need to be saved.” the goal was to perish in 1864, being presumed dead, or rather entombed klaus would end his search, convinced that the elusive katerinapetrova had finally met her demise; though she wouldn’t be able to see her plan through if she had decided to bring stefan and damon along for the ride. sure she had initial plans to take them far far away from mystic falls, but when the opportunity to vanish presented itself she had to take it. of course, she could’ve brought them with her (if they even wanted to), but with two newbie vampires, one a ripper and the other dangerously impulsive, klaus surely would’ve ended back on her trail & essentially resulting in her death. besides katherine worked best alone. deep down she was well aware of how wrong all of this turned out, but she wasn’t about to admit that or even attempt to face those emotions, or else she’d have to face everything else she’s repressed for the last 500+ years. “like what? damon pining after your girlfriend.”

“you never did.” she was always three steps ahead. him and damon?  they weren’t even notches in her bedpost -- they were less than that, no matter how much fun she had and how attached she’d become. they were stones in her river: though their lives were forever changed by her, she was unaffected. the everlasting current, set in her ways. “damon sees in elena what he believes he saw in you. so yes, he’s pining after her. a part of him even loves her.”

[stesalv]

bcnnctwitch:

Bonnie looked at the Salvatore silently, trying to figure out how to proceed.  She didn’t think he was lying, he had no reason to, but knowing he was aware of the danger he put her in didn’t make any of it better. “She should have saved herself.” she sighed, crossing her arms as she looked at the vampire. Her anger faltered as he spoke of her grandmother, and she was reminded that he wasn’t just a reminder of the woman she’d lost. “Thank you for keeping Elena safe. If something had happened to her or Caroline while I was gone… I don’t know what I would have done.” 

He hated that Bonnie had to feel like this. It wasn’t just that she had lost someone so close to her, and important, but the circumstances of that loss were unimaginable. Sheila Bennett was gone, and her last act on this earth was to ensure her granddaughter didn’t follow her. “We don’t have to be friends, Bonnie, but we’ll always be on the same team,” he offered in return. “And I am so happy to see you’re okay.” It really was a miracle, and he didn’t know how to express just how amazing it was.

[stesalv]

lonesurviivor:

katherine wore a sarcastic smile as he stood his ground against her, she was beginning to find this humorous, “you’re so much meaner now — it’s sexy. and of course i missed him, a girl misses her lapdog. not to mention he was much happier to see me, but then again he thought i was your girlfriend so?”  — “gotta say, i was a bit shocked to hear that the school here enrolls 200-year-old students. is my stefan getting all good grades?”

“he did spend the last century waiting to see you again. ready to save you.” stefan wasn’t going to pretend he wasn’t irritated by that one fact. decades of damon, pinning after her, keeping that glimmer of a memory alive and raising hell to ensure he’d return to it, and she was free all along. she kept her distance. she had his brother wrapped around her finger and to no one’s surprise, she couldn’t care less for him. “my attendance hasn’t been so great. other things on my plate, you know.”

[stesalv]

bcnnctwitch:

“She may be happier with you, Stefan, but she’s safer without you.” Bonnie felt the need to point out, though she appreciated how much he cared about her best friend. It’d be a lie to say that things hadn’t looked up for just a moment whenever Stefan Salvatore had rolled into town, Elena seemed truly happy for the first time since she lost her parents, and the way she felt about the vampire was more than evident. He was good for her, and maybe she was good for him, but with everything else going on, and how complicated it had all become, she couldn’t deny the obvious, or at least, what she thought was obvious. She didn’t react to the second comment he offered, though she did hear it loud and clear. His last comment though, that one she couldn’t ignore. “I’m sorry doesn’t change anything.” she bluntly replied, though she relented only a moment later and offered “Thanks. I’m sorry too.”

“I know that,” he said humbly, not trying to argue. No, it was something he understood from the very beginning, and yet he met her anyway. He put her, and everyone else, into danger and it was no one’s fault but his. All he could do was nod, as he knew sorry was just a word. There was no bringing her back. If anything, there was no way to prove to her that he really was sorry. “She was a good woman. Brilliant, and kind. She did it to protect you.”