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I T ' S  S T E V I E, B I T C H @thestevieknight: bite me

[steviejfc]

"I'm ninety-nine percent sure nobody cares about this shit anymore," she shrugged. "But, I guess, if you insist."

"I kissed Luca. It was nice, but it was bittersweet. I know he still loves Jasey and he always will and I get it. Not like I expected anything to happen between us, I don't know. I don't know how I feel about him. He's so smart and wise and he's been through the same stuff I'm going through. He most likely sees me as a little sister or a good friend, if anything. Nothing more than that.

"I can feel myself getting bad again, but I don't know how to stop. I thought I'd be ok going on this trip and being around tons of people drinking and doing drugs, but I'm just not ready yet. It's too tempting and I don't know how long I can keep resisting. I don't know if I want to keep resisting. I'd love to just give up and go back to being the old me that everyone loved." With a shake of her head and a sad laugh, Stevie took the mic pack off and handed it to the cameraman. "I'm sorry, I can't. I'm done," she sighed and exited the confessional booth, her head pounding and her heart beating rapidly.

[wassuprey-blog]

I’d like to think so, I’ve certainly enjoyed myself.

[steviejfc]

"That's all that matters! Enjoy yourself while you can."

[wassuprey-blog]

I have literally spent the whole of this trip either eating, sleeping or

[steviejfc]

"Sounds like a trip well spent."

[steviejfc]

"IT'S MR. WORLDWIDE 305 THAT'S WHAT IT IS," Stevie shouted as she bounded into the room, sitting down on the plush leather couch with a grin. "I am in a fantastic mood. I feel like I've been sad and boring and pathetic for so long, it's time for me to be fun and happy again!"

"Although, fun and happy does not mean I'll be getting drunk or high," She added. "Because I've been sober for a month and I'm very proud of myself. Group therapy does wonders.

"I've finally started talking to Leo again which is wonderful because I've missed him so much, I was really upset over our break-up but I really do think it's for the best. We still love each other, now is just not the right time for us to be together, y'know? We've actually been talking about hooking up while on this trip which I am very excited about... One of the things I've missed most about him is the sex. I'll keep you posted on that one!

"Other than that I have nothing notable to report about. I've been getting close to Luca lately but he's still with Jasey, as far as I know, so we're just very good friends with an illustrious past. Who knows what feelings this trip will bring forth, honestly. I'm a bit excited."

[dailylilycollins]

[steviejfc]

// I wanna interact but I'm mobile fuck my life

[steviejfc]

M O O D B O A R D: Stevie Knight + Leo Avery

"I don't like to do what people expect. Why should I live up to other people's expectations instead of my own?"

"So you disappoint them from the start and then you're covered, right?"

"Something like that."

"Then you screwed up!"

"How?"

"You never disappointed me."

[steviejfc]

the only heaven i'll be sent to

is when i'm alone with you

[steviejfc]

Dear Merrick,

We're supposed to write these to someone we have "unfinished business" with or whatever the fuck but really I chose you because I don't want to talk to you. I'd rather write you a letter and get it over with.

At one point I loved you so, so much that I could see myself having a legit future with you, like, with kids and everything. I had just gotten out of such a bad relationship that I thought you'd be able to pick up all the pieces and we could live happily ever after and all that bullshit, but obviously that didn't happen.

My two favorite memories from when we were together that I keep replaying again and again in my mind are the night we first had sex and you said, "I adore you," and when you took me to Disneyland to ask me to be your girlfriend. Everything was perfect back then and we never fought, and then something happened and we fell apart.

I feel like at some point I realized that we weren't going to work out, and I tried so hard to fight to keep up together but the thing was, you didn't fight back. You'd just find things to get mad at me for and keep on bringing up old shit when I thought we'd finally finished fighting. It's like you couldn't be content with me being who I am, you just had to pick at me. 

I have a hard time believing you ever really loved me because of how cold you are to me lately, and that really hurts because we did have something really good at one point.

For a while I regretted breaking up with you but the other night you really proved me right. You don't care about my feelings (frankly, you're incredibly selfish) and you're immature. 

I'm not trying to write this to piss you off and show you how fucked up you are, I just want you to know that what you're doing is hurting people. Don't play dumb and act like you don't know what I'm talking about, either, because you do.

I really want to end this with "love" but I don't really love you anymore. At all. You kind of just make me feel numb.

-Stevie

[merrickxcost-blog]

Quick say something cheesy!

[steviejfc]

Nice bum, where ya' from?

[merrickxcost-blog]

Dear, I think that’s the sweetest thing you’ve said to me.

[steviejfc]

That's kind of sad.

[steviejfc]

Cabo Confessional Part Dos

"I'm back, bitches!"

"Sorry to disappoint, but I was extremely boring this whole trip. I mean, I partied and almost had sex in a hot tub, but that's like Sunday school compared to what I usually do. I didn't hook up with any strangers, I didn't black out. I didn't buy drugs from a guy wearing Crocs. I just hung out with Merrick and Danny and Hazel.

"Now that we've gotten through the trip and neither of us fucked anything up, Merrick is going to ask me to be his girlfriend which is both terrifying and exciting. I've never been someone's 100% official girlfriend, but I'm glad it's with Merrick because he's literally the best person on the whole planet. Aside from Stevie Nicks. 

"The other day Oscar got totally hammered and he sent me a shit ton of DMs and texts saying all sorts of shit that I probably shouldn't divulge on camera, but it was really stupid and annoying and kind of just sad. I thought we could be friends but that whole ordeal really just put me off. We're kind of talking now, but I really don't have much interest in continuing our friendship.

"Other than that, nothing has happened. I know you were probably counting on me to be my usual hot mess self but nope, I've changed. I'm a classy bitch now. Adios, cunt bags."

[merrickxcost-blog]

Not needy, that’s hurtful! I’m just addicted to your kisses and you talk too much sometimes. Sometimes you start to talk yourself into a wall where it  either makes me have to kiss you to shut you up or just look at you like you’re crazy. I would never want you to feel crazy, babe.

[steviejfc]

You are just too much.

[merrickxcost-blog]

Why don’t you shut up already?

[steviejfc]

Jesus, someone's needy.

[merrickxcost-blog]

Maybe I will date myself!

[steviejfc]

I hope you two are happy together. Just don't break your own heart.

[merrickxcost-blog]

It means you’re my special and rare find. Like finding waffles in Mexico. I’m cute, Christ. I’m so cute. I would date myself.

[steviejfc]

Well aren't you precious? Maybe you should date yourself if you think you're so great.

[steviejfc]

M O O D B O A R D: Stevie Knight + Merrick Cost