burn like stars

this is for ooc knowledge only xo

[adaloveslace-deactivated2017050]

youre allowed to feel bad and i still like you when youre unhappy

[wordsnquotes]

Sometimes, I’m the mess. Sometimes, I’m the broom. On the hardest days, I have to be both.

Rudy Francisco (via thearianadonutlickingscandal)

[stfuawg]

Update #1

[extrasad]

I mean I’m fine I’m just really unhappy but I’m fine

[oh-hey-yourcute]

[demonsandhappiness]

Pretending to be happy IS the most exhausting thing in the entire world. Faking a smile for people. Not wanting them to worry about you. I may as well let the sadness consume me.

2 am thoughts when loneliness is drowning you (via demonsandhappiness)

[stfuawg]

You stress me the fuck out.

[stfuawg]

Ignore everything below this

[stfuawg]

Journal #6

Outside of that, i haven’t done much. I mean I’ve flirted with Zayn and joked about sleeping with him again but not that much because of everything that’s happened with Rian. Maybe if things don't work out I'll hit up Zayn during festival and we can hook up again. Better to have some kind of distraction than sit and wallow. I think I’m just too confused by everything to know what to do at this point. As for my illness, not much has changed. There’s still somedays where I neglect my medication, either by choice or just actually forgetting it, but it hasn’t seemed to effect me much. Hopefully it stays that way.

[auerums-deactivated20180718]

my head is pounding and i am crying

[dislikes-deactivated20160906]

listen i’m never gonna mean shit to anyone and i’ve just kinda sorta accepted it at this point

[animalsnaps]

[stfuawg]

have you ever liked someone so much you started hating them

[stfuawg]

I regret everything that comes out of my mouth not even .2 seconds later. Why can't I learn to shut the fuck up?

[stfuawg]

Part of me is glad you live here now because I like being close to you and having you around to help me. Another part is scared to have you around constantly because I don't want you to see how bad I can get if I forget to take my meds or skip a doctors appointment. And still a third part is scared I'll get drunk and fuck up our friendship by doing something stupid like kissing your face or telling you I like you, which only makes me sound like a kid. I'm just unsure of a lot lately.

[saitin]

[brizzlewritesthings]

I have to be honest with you. I think about you a lot. All the time, actually. In the morning, at night, in the middle of my day. It’s you. It’s just always you.

-always on my mind. (via brizzlewritesthings)