What would you have done differently, if you had a second chance, Rex?
Rex had to elaborate though. But anyone who knew him long enough had to have heard about his former teammates, the people they looked up to. The violent, public beating and outing of his secret identity. The way they took his alien heritage and retold it as the assignment of an invasion scout. Those adolescent years and the cusp of adulthood were not generous.
"I wish I hadn't been so desperate to be accepted back then-- that I'd be something I wasn't, so unerringly positive but vacant in terms of actual beliefs-- of action. I wish I'd never met those raging assholes or thought they actually wanted to be friends. Or put my faith in a storied team like the Enforcers..."
That wasn't fair: Rex had been lonely as a teenager. His old gang hung out the way normal teenagers supposedly did. They played video games together, complained about school, work, socializing outside the circle, and got greasy food from one of their usual haunts-- where they'd become regulars. They all agreed to try costumed adventuring together as a superteam. They'd been good enough that Grizzly's dad-- KodiaKop, recommended them for an apprenticeship with the World's Most Watchful Heroes. A club that had after some years, become more of a paramilitary op, its image shined by one Hollywood success after another.
"... I wish I'd gotten over myself and JUMPED 'em before they JUMPED ME! Taking the heat I got now wouldn't be so bad if at least they were outta the picture. But no: they're still full strength, adored by millions. I thought I could talk to them like... like we were peers. Or with our ~mentors~, but they were in on the whole racket!"
It's hard to hold back the tears. Rex tried to keep up his rage, the clenching of his teeth. That didn't stop his eyes from watering and letting the droplets slide down his cheeks.
"The ones doing all that crap, who were upfront about being lowdown dirtbags-- their trash talk, their attacks, that wasn't even the worst part: The bright and cheery optimists of the bunch, they just let it happen. They smiled and laughed and said the ~truth~ would triumph, that ~bylaws~ would be followed, to count on the others and have... to have hope. HOW THE FUCK DOES THAT HELP?! I-- guh... I needed 'em and they didn't do a damn thing!"
A moment of blubbering before he could get his shit together.
"And now they just. It keeps happening to other people everyday. They've been doing that, sometimes I run into somebody else they kicked down in the past. Weeding out any and all dissent. Letting anybody who plays along have their cut. Sometimes I'll lay in bed at night or in the morning and just wonder if I could have gutted the whole stinkin' operation. I mean. Goddamnit! What's the point if they can keep going and we're all just doomed to live under their heel?"
Too worked up to relax. Rex thought about running down the highway out of town for a few. Or going up to the moon to sit on the edge of his favorite crater. But there was no real escape for this: the same things could happen on most any other inhabited world that fell into the kind of apathy decay that gripped the Earth. Scowls and smiles that smothered reality alike, just a matter of which flavor one preferred.
At times it was too much for Rex.