With Every Heartbeat

| ellen | 23 | | in love/married | saved by grace | | SydGC | instagram: mormon__freeman

[ecokitti]

I CAN’T HANDLE THIS

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[luvyourselfsomeesteem-deactivat]

Goodbye lmaooo

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Same

[livesickdieill]

cuties coming up on my dash. so excited for sat.

[lotad]

GOD i hate this idea that not graduating when anticipated is considered “late” or “not on time” because it only just reinforces the stigma of being behind, not being as good as your peers, etc and it’s garbage! if you graduate at a time later than you had anticipated, youre still worthy of respect and you still graduated, whether it was a semester, a year, or thirty years down the line

[untrustyou]

Peter Hoffmann

[someone-like-robsten]

[haiziness]

[still-fighttt]

So I just resigned from my job and I only have 2 weeks until I'm out of there.

It's a long story as to how I got here, but I feel so relieved.

Also my trials and interviews for this other (10x better job) went really well and they said they're going to hire me they just haven't decided where I'll be placed. ✨💯😭

[kazucamera]

[phreshouttarunway]

[still-fighttt]

It looks like I'm about to go on some kind of SSRI for my anxiety and depression. Some people might be worried about taking medication, but if it can help me to feel some kind of normal, I can't see how it could be a negative thing.

[still-fighttt]

WAITING IS THE WORST PART OF LIFE

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Queens Beach - Sydney

[seebytouch]

[still-fighttt]

If you want to know how my life is going...

My psychologist has demanded that I take 7 days off work as stress leave.

I went to a wedding last night and so many people were asking me what I was up to with life and work blah blah blah. And I felt the need to lie because that's better than admitting to people that I'm not coping w anything at all.

Ha ha ha

I know I have a lower threshold for anxiety and stress than most, but for real work has been ridiculous lately and it's a terrible environment. 12 hour shifts occur multiple times a week and the amount of manipulative shit I have to deal with is not at all normal. I'm working super hard on getting myself out of there but still making sure I have something else secured.

I have a 3rd and final interview for a way better job this coming Tuesday, so if you're the type, feel free to lift up some prayer for me.

There's gotta be a light coming soon...

[nidoqueen]