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Mobian | 33 | They/Them BFA in Media Arts and Animation. I like to draw anthro and animal characters. Want me to draw something for you? [COMMISSION INFO] Other places you can find me: https://mobianangel.carrd.co/

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Happy Pride Month!!!

I was considering making these a YCH, but because of how time consuming it is to make the stripes (hence why these 3 are all flags with the same number of stripes lmao) I may have to take like, only a couple at a time.

Would anyone be interested in one of these if I offered them?

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June icon for my Discord and such.

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You might want to give them some space, Li Li.

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Hey, so did anyone else notice that Skylanders went from insanely popular to just dropping off the face of the planet? Are we ever gonna talk about that?

Anyways, here's my favorite Skylander, Whirlwind.

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I caught a cold or flu or something that's been going around... and then it turned into a respiratory infection and then it turned into an ear infection and I've been out of work for a week cause I'm coughing so violently and my ear is stuffed up so when I stand up or walk I get dizzy and every time I sleep I just wake up drowning in my own mucus and my whole ribcage hurts from coughing and being unbalanced on one side is driving me insane because I have OCD. And then today when I decided to go back into work even though I am still not better?????????? my period started,. i AM GOING TO EXPLODE

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A couple of my more ambitious ones.

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Yeah, I've been drawing. Just not on my computer.

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I am just simply Meowmeow.

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I love Alolan Persian dude. Do you think its face squishes like a Squishmallow?

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As a Jax fan, I am very nervous about the last episode.

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Thank you for all the kind words on the autism post. I feel less alone knowing that other people can relate to it. And I do plan to talk about it in therapy (when I can get into therapy again) so don't worry.

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I've been trying to figure out how to talk about this for awhile now.

A few weeks ago, I was officially diagnosed with autism. At the age of 33. And I've sort of been having a crisis about it. I've been looking back on my life in a whole new perspective and it's just.... frustrating and upsetting.

I was autistic the entire time, and I just didn't know it. My mannerisms, that I didn't even know were weird, are likely the reason so many classmates and even adults were mean to me all the time. I've gone my entire life just thinking I was some kind of alien weirdo because people are inclined to be mean to me or give me disapproving looks every time I just exist in public. I still don't know exactly *what* I am doing that's so annoying, though; for years I had chalked it up to being atrociously ugly, because one time a classmate told me that was why he was mean to me. But it turns out, being universally hated is a very common autistic experience.

I have always been aware of the fact that I used to be extremely energetic as a child, but as time went on my energy got drained from me and never came back. I also used to be able to emote, but now I come off as expressionless and rude to coworkers and other people, which is causing conflict in my daily life-- and I'm scared of confrontation!

One time my dad told me that the doctors gave me vaccines that made me hyperactive and hard to deal with when I was little. And he was glad I didn't act that way anymore. My dad would always make fun of me and laugh with my brothers about how I cried and had big emotions because I was a girl. And I would be outright punished if I expressed anger. I felt so cringe and stupid about my emotions that I started to hide them. And now I don't know how to show them anymore.

I used to have enough energy to come home from school and work on projects (Sonic Comix and other YouTube things) until dinnertime, uninterrupted for hours, after a hard day of school, every single day. I used to be really passionate about what I made, and I used to be so excited to share it with people. Now, ever since I contracted "depression," I can't work on anything for longer than like, an hour at a time, and it's always forced. It's a chore now. I'm so tired. Turns out it's autistic burnout from trying to act a certain way and play a "normal" character all the time. For decades. I've now hit the burnout point and I don't know how to get out of it. I still have to go out in public for work and play pretend all day, which keeps me exhausted. I still can't let my emotions out, and it's tiring to hold them in.

I wish i could back and undo all this damage that was done to me that has permanently ruined me as a person.

It's like as if someone put a "kick me" sign on me as soon as I was born, and everyone knew it was there, but instead of helping me, they all kicked me. All of them. And I didn't find out until I was 33 and a professional told me "Hey, you've had this 'kick me' sign on your back the entire time! That'll be $800." Cool, so now what do I do about all these injuries and shoeprints that are all over me?

There have been some upsides to the diagnosis, like actually understanding what the fuck is going on with me. I just needed to vent about the negative stuff, because I can't really talk about it to anyone. Even my friends don't really seem to understand the gravity of it all. I'm not even sure I can properly articulate it to them.

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New icon art that got carried away.

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He's easy to draw

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Li Li No Banana

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Finally recognized for his talents at the ripe old age of 5.

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Tyler redesign. I gave him a more believable emo look this time. He is not the same breed(s) as the rest of his family because he was adopted. You could say he is a rescue.