stinky stink ewww

tw🪷sh/ed 18 trying recovery :)

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07/09/2023

i unstalled my counting c4ls app, im sick and tired of this

i'll try recovery

wish me luck <3

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16/11/23

hi im ok im alive, my recovery is going kinda well

i havent wheighted myself in more than a month but im confident in my body so its ok :)

sorry for the inactivity but im tryna stay off this app cause it triggers me af lol

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27/10/23

HAVING LUNCH ATMMMM(16:10)

safe meal and an absolute banger!!

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miss the body i had in may ngl

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i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die

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12/10

sad to say that im relapsing hard and i restarted fasting 22h a day, i noticed a change in my body and my parents n people around me kept triggering me so :/

idk how to keep up with the recovery, i want my bones to show more than ever

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07/10

i think im gaining no no no no no no no no no

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28/09

girl lunch :3 (trying not to feel disgusting and eat)

i loved this pudding and then it became a fear food sad

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i wanna kill everybody and die

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24/09/23

what im bringing to school tmrw for lunch!!

a whole peach, a 3/4 of an apple(it didnt fit) and a protein bar<3

idk if i'll win and eat it all or not but at least im bringing something this time :)

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i can feel the food in my throat i want to get rid of it

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21/09

ok so today i had both breakfast n lunch so i was definitely too afraid to eat a full meal at dinner too

initially opted for an apple and then i got hungry and ate some cereals

while i was cutting the apple my mom kept bodychecking me and pinching the fatty part of my arms and stomach

and then a friend of mine, while i was eating, said "why are you eating at 23pm? what are u, in bulk?" i felt sick and threw up the shit i had in my mouth

im just tryna recover why are people so fucking dumb

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21/09/2023

i had breakfast <3 WITH A PROTEIN BAR!! a rlly bad ff for me :)

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today i relapsed and skipped both breakfast n lunch

its 2:30 pm and i havent still ate anything

i'll do better tomorrow and eat something at school

kinda disappointed in myself

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today i ate boiled eggs at lunch (w my parents) but im hella scared of the yolk(ff) so i fed half of it to the dog while they werent watching n threw the other half out of the window later :3

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why nothing ever goes the way i planned. why nobody seems to care about my fucking happiness. im pshycologically drained and everybody always expect the max from me when all i seek is to CARE ABOUT MYSELF(since nobody's here to do it) AND GET FUCKING TIME TO HEAL but noooooo its so selfish, sorry if i make you feel bad pookie :((( LIKE I DIDNT TRY TO OFF MYSELF 8 MONTHS AGO FOR THIS EXACT SAME REASON

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i wanna fucking slice my thighs off