It is a long, long time since I posted anything on Tumblr, and I have no idea who is still around, but it felt important to write something about where I'm currently at, just in case it might be what someone needs to hear.
Two years ago, I was coming up to discharge from my second EDU admission. I'd spent 4 months on the unit, weight restoring and trying to unlearn the habits of a lifetime. On discharge, I was still deeply depressed and chronically suicidal, and remained so for a long time afterwards.
Today, I'm curled up on the sofa at home, cuddling my daughter, who is a week old today. I'm tired and sore and deeply, deeply happy.
I did not believe that this was possible for me. I had lost hope. I thought I had been too unwell for too long for things to ever change or get better, but I was wrong. It took a long time, a lot of support, and a lot of hard work, but my life is unrecognisable from where I was two years ago.



















