I'm never here 🦀

sun/jus. 23. always thinking about nana in some way.

[bisexualchaosdemon]

This came to me in a dream

[iam-anordinary-human-orami]

I really want a scene like this in tsc2 where Neil seems to call Jean more often to check up on him and the floozies are perplexed "Why is Josten calling you?" "You guys close or sth?" "You still haven't told us what happened when he whisked you away" "we are worried sick Jean, how can you keep us in the dark?" And then Cat will say sth like "are you not sharing what you're talking to Josten about cause you're embarrassed?" Jeremy being a worried mother hen "is he bothering you?" And Jean keeps shutting everything down telling them not to worry, and then Laila as a joke says "is he flirting with you?"

And Jean responds with "I hope not. I don't think his boyfriend would take it well"

Everyone immediately stops what they are doing. "Im sorry, his WHAT?"

All hell breaks lose. Cat is shaking Laila "Josten is FRUITY?!", Jeremy is like "He has a boyfriend?" Laila being like "in the year that he joined the foxes and almost died in the hands of his serial killer dad, he got a boyfriend??? How???" And then Cat and Laila start asking questions, Jeremy trying to calm them down but also being curious, Jean is like "Well he's not told me explicitly, but it's obvious."

Jeremy having an epiphany "oh my god. Is it Kevin?" Cat in the background "oh please let it be Kevin" Jean says no, "Kevin is too much of a coward", the floozies are looking at each other like "oh we are definitely unpacking THAT at some point". And then they're like okay, well maybe the boyfriend is not on the team. But Jean confirms, it's a fox, i can tell u who it is-' "NO! We need to figure this one out!" "Let our gaydar do the work Jean we got things to prove!" Jean tiredly: "to who?"

So they start guessing, oh Hemmick is undeniably fruity, Jean is like "I don't even know who that is. Oh, backliner? No, not him". "Maybe it's Boyd?!" Cat being like "Escandalo! Cause he's with the captain right? Wilds?" Laila commenting "He'd be out of his mind to pass on that, and this is the educated opinion of a lesbian", Jean is like "how come u guys know all their names?" Jeremy says "they are a small team and it's hard not to keep tabs on them when they are in the news cycle every week or so"

"Guys we're losing track, keep your heads locked in! Who could be Josten's boyfriend, that tonight's pressing question!" "But there's no one else... wait, is he with the other backliner? Short blonde?" "I'm gonna be honest, I don't get queer vibes from him" "Lol can u imagine it's actually the goalkeeper twin" "what the one that went to juvie and looks like hes one step away from biting our heads off on the court? Nahh". Jean looks at an invisible camera like he's in the office.

And then something happens and they forget about it, until like the winter banquet or some shit and Cat is intently looking at Neil trying to decipher who his boyfriend could be, maybe he is in a throuple with Wilds and Boyd? Jean is like "Why are you looking at the foxes' table so intently?" "It's investigative work, don't worry about it" and then Neil comes over and takes Jean away at the open bar to talk about sth, the floozies are pretending to not be looking at them. Neil notices and he's like "I see they taken claim already." Jean responds with "It's not what u think" and they talk, Andrew probably gets bored at some point and goes to Neil, puts a single hand on his lower back and Jean being able to hear commotion in the Trojans table turns to see them acting like "normal", except their poses look rehearsed, there's drinks that have been spilled on the table and Cat is drinking from an empty glass looking at the sky.

[aftgscenes]

It’s so funny going from Neil’s asexual pov to jeans definitely NOT asexual pov

Neil: Kevin is tall and has a tattoo

Jean: pretty boy with a soft smile and beautiful green eyes

Neil: Renee is a women and has hair

Jean: a force of hope and beauty, an anomaly in a world that’s ugly and bleak. She is the sun.

Neil: Jeremy is the captain of the Trojans and he smiles a lot for some reason

Jean: his bleach blonde hair frames his tanned freckled skin, his broad shoulders and tiny waist give way to his thicc thighs and ass

But also the reverse

Neil: Andrews strong unwavering frame and honey colored eyes

Jean: the tiny goalkeeper

[belovedsamber]

jeremy: “i’ve picked up more people at bars by having a lighter handy than I have by being charming”

andrew in his mind: interesting…

renee later: so what do you think of the trojan’s captain?

andrew: he’s gay

renee who gets 25 texts about jeremy from jean in a day: interesting…

[all-i-ever-do-is-yearn]

Neil ordered a hit this Neil sassed the FBI that

The first time Neil Josten appears in tsc to see Jean he literally goes " hey bestie, I've kinda sold you to the mafia, yeah it's the scarier one but atleast you're free now ! "

Imagine being Jean, closing your eyes after being beaten to hell, thinking this is it, you're going to die and it's finally going to be over.

Only to wake up and find out the girl you thought was cute has blackmailed the uni authorities to kidnap you and the boy you have tortured before has made a deal with the yakuza crime lord in exchange for your life.

Neil tedious malcontent Josten. sounds about right.

[starlonging]

Neil makes SCRAPS of appearances in tsc but he serves cunt and leaves. Absolute legend. I get now why Jean was at his wits end with this guy. He orders drinks and food, makes fucking fbi agents WAIT for him then sits in an INTERROGATION and eats take out as if it's just another day for him. Jean probably got 20 separate heart attacks because of this man and then this gremlin goes ahead and orders a hit on the behalf of a man he knew only in pain while sitting in a very public diner and waiting on fbi agents to show up and drag them away.

Neil Fucking Josten, Andrew has his hands full. Never a dull day with him.

[fd5800]

tsc was a comedy actually, look:

aka Jean Moreau being salty for 350 pages

(I have so many of these, I'm 100% gonna make a part 2)

[sncwbaz]

cannot stop thinking about how, from jean’s pov, neil is a Creature. an insane little man. jean expresses physical attraction or at least physical appreciation towards many of the characters in this book, and despite the foxes’ insistence that neil is good looking, to jean neil is always just… a weird and slightly unsettling presence. a strange and arrogant creature with no leash on him. an uncanny force of nature.

[exyrpf]

jeremy !!! jeremy tell me why you avoid cops and why your sister said you destroyed your family !!! tell me why you hate your stepfather and why you avoid your brother !!!! tell me why you have problems with money and why you're in therapy and why any mention of your family upsets you !!!!!! do you not want jean to call you 'knox' bc you want to be a good captain/his friend or do you have problems with your surname??????? tell me why you're forced to live at home and why you still playing exy is unforgivable to your sister !!!!! tell me what happened at the fall banquet !!!!!!!! what broke your family in half jeremy !!!!!!! STOP AVOIDING ME JEREMY ANSWER THE QUESTIONS

[the-greater-grief]

Andrew: I noticed our bank account balance looks a bit lower than it should. Any idea what that’s about?

Neil: Oh, yeah. I had Stuart put out a hit on an ex-Raven while I was in LA. Some asshole who wouldn’t take ‘no’ for an answer when Jean told him to fuck off.

Andrew: Cool, just make a note about that in the budget.

Josten-Minyard budget item from July 2007: “$500,000; Los Angeles garbage disposal fee”

[mor3au]

twitter doesn’t disappoint

[swampthingking]

obsessed with jean’s colorful insults/descriptions so here’s a compiled list of them in order

you arrogant fool (abby)

you imbecile (kevin)

your ball-battered brain (kevin)

you feckless child (kevin)

those clowns (trojans)

pet goalkeeper (andrew)

the tiny bastard (neil) [LMFAO]

kevin’s pet monster (andrew)

the sunshine court [derogatory]

wholesome in an unsettling, unhealthy way (the trojans)

unhinged optimist (renee)

some plump shrink (bee)

that creepy little goalkeeper andrew minyard [PLEASE i was fucking DEAD he has no idea how funny he is]

you tedious malcontent (neil) [probably my favorite one]

an abominable cockroach (neil)

the wayward child (neil) [jesus christ he is not taking it easy on neil]

andrew’s twin

worthless trash bags (foxes, past tense)

a rabid little fox (neil) [hey. remember when neil described andrew as a ‘rabid goalkeeper’ ???]

annoyingly easy to look at (jeremy)

strange and misguided (the trojans)

the cruelty of these nonstop temptations (kevin, renee, jeremy)

the sunshine court [less derogatory]

“I was hoping he would bite his tongue off in the fall and save us both some grief in the long run.” (lucas)

wretched beast (gr****n)

your ignorant mouth (lucas)

“Your apologies are as useful as perfume on a frog.” (lucas)

neil, being the person he was,

you ignorant child (neil)

miserable wretch (neil) [giving his everything to neil’s insults]

ok that’s all. unless i missed some. and if i did you have to add them it’s just law

[chuwanniiing-deactivated2023122]

bonus:

[martinmynster]

ah oui oui la fameuse oui

[dark-in-the-night-deactivated20]

There's a phenomenon. An awful phenomenon. Victims of abuse survive. They — they get away, only to be abused again by somebody else. And I think hearing these stories, "My god, these — these poor people. The unluckiest human beings on planet." Only it's not luck. It's a fucked up twist of nature. Because as children, they are forced to relate sexually. They are trained to be abused. Predators are very adept at finding their prey. They're picking up on cues nobody else can. These cues can be chemical, psychological, behavioral, nonverbal. To the predator, neon signs. And here's the thing I cannot emphasize enough. None of it is under the victim's control. None of it is the victim's fault.

Dr. Rya Goodwin, The Crowded Room (2023)

[rexwritesstuff]

sure, girls who are "one of the boys" is fine.

but what about boys who are "one of the girls"??? where's their love???

[orphanblaque]

[butchfagminotaur]

hysterectomy but they just tie a string to your uterus and the other end to a doorknob and then slam the door